Yesterday i really was tired out... Singaporeans usually call this zooked out.
It was a whole day of church activities. Games to be precise. Its a event to merge the sec 4s to the YF. Hmm.. i must say i have forgotten how games are conducted in GMC. Very dirty, very imaginative.
I wonder why i always get injured in games. Sobs. There was this game where heads were turning round and round at each other an d a fellow church member knocked his head onto mine. Mind you he is quite a well built fellow with a head that seems to be armoured. When it collided with my head.. ouch
But thankfully God was there throughout. Made some new friends with the much younger generations. LoL
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Missing In Action
Today didn't go for church service in the morning becoz of wedding lunch.
First wedding lunch really... heehee... but its the same as wedding dinner... have to wait.
REally glad to meet up with everyone in Aust. Although the ambience is different, but i knew that the heart was the same... maybe we all head in different direction but...as long as God is in our life, i suppose in one way or another, we connect!
After that head off to Gary's friends place. Wasn't exactly spontaneous... maybe coz i'm tired? I dunno... but as long as G is happy, i guess i can share his joy as well.
THere was this auntie who stared at us at the bus stop. Its that kind of DISGRACEFUL stare.... goodness knows what she is thinking. SHe stare at us, shake her head in disgust and then STARE again!!! I was so uncomfortable and frustrated. That auntie ah... .. xiao ah.
Feeling out of place... but.. i'm still glad to have my sister. I love her to bits.
Something seems to be mssing. I dunno what's the missing link now... will pray about it.
HAve been missing in action in church as well. I never knew anyone would miss me at all... ... ...
surprise surprise. Surprise pple will miss someone as low profile as me.
First wedding lunch really... heehee... but its the same as wedding dinner... have to wait.
REally glad to meet up with everyone in Aust. Although the ambience is different, but i knew that the heart was the same... maybe we all head in different direction but...as long as God is in our life, i suppose in one way or another, we connect!
After that head off to Gary's friends place. Wasn't exactly spontaneous... maybe coz i'm tired? I dunno... but as long as G is happy, i guess i can share his joy as well.
THere was this auntie who stared at us at the bus stop. Its that kind of DISGRACEFUL stare.... goodness knows what she is thinking. SHe stare at us, shake her head in disgust and then STARE again!!! I was so uncomfortable and frustrated. That auntie ah... .. xiao ah.
Feeling out of place... but.. i'm still glad to have my sister. I love her to bits.
Something seems to be mssing. I dunno what's the missing link now... will pray about it.
HAve been missing in action in church as well. I never knew anyone would miss me at all... ... ...
surprise surprise. Surprise pple will miss someone as low profile as me.
Monday, December 18, 2006
There is a Blessed Home...
So many things about home that needs to change.
Everything at home looks rather worn. Plenty of things needs cleaning up. Everything seems so cluttered and untidy.
Oh there's much to do. I spring cleaned my wardrobe today (just part of it actually). Tons of clothes to be donated. I always try to persuade my mother to give them or throw them away. But she never seems to listen. She didn't listen to me 1.5 yrs ago, she didn't listen when she came to visit me in Aust. what makes me think she'll listen to me now? I guess... even this needs prayer... that she'll open her eyes and see my understanding and desperate need for space.
I have not unpacked my luggage yet. It's been... 2 days since i'm back... becoz there's so much clearing and tidying to do... so much more than i have expected... i never think that things would wear itself out that quickly... i hope to complete it just in time for Christmas. It's just 6 days away. It'll be nice to have a clean tidy home.
Been chatting alot with my sister. I really thank God for her. Just her presence and the understanding that we have. It's as though we never left each other side. I can still read her mind, she still respects me and appreciates me alot. Which is... GREAT! She is so supportive and encouraging at the same time. She doesn't seem to mind my whinings and complains. It's so wonderfully to be accepted not just for the things that you are good at, but for your flaws as well.
Hopefully in the midst of the cleaning, i will be able to catch up with friends. R is just wonderful... the first person to welcome me through SMS. R SMS my Aust mobile no. Cost 50cents i think... but nonetheless... R remembered i was back! And... although i felt bewildered... that made me feel so welcomed... alittle sense of belonging.... ...
I havent' really got time to reflect or think and make plans (besides cleaning the whole house). Everything else is on hold at the moment. I went to G's church... its really different. It's just a different group of people with different views.
Lots of time was spent with my family and G during this past 2 days. But now... its the weekday so i think i'll just spend time doing spring cleaning. Hopefully can do meet ups by Friday...
It's MAJOR house cleaning this week... think i might even need to buy those masks coz this place is really dusty. I need to have a cosy home to return everyday. Yes... CLean Warm and fUzzy with happy members of the family. Hope that will all come through by the end of this week. Even this needs time effort and prayer... ...
Been trying to adapt to the weather... still not used to things around here...
so much of home sweet home...
Everything at home looks rather worn. Plenty of things needs cleaning up. Everything seems so cluttered and untidy.
Oh there's much to do. I spring cleaned my wardrobe today (just part of it actually). Tons of clothes to be donated. I always try to persuade my mother to give them or throw them away. But she never seems to listen. She didn't listen to me 1.5 yrs ago, she didn't listen when she came to visit me in Aust. what makes me think she'll listen to me now? I guess... even this needs prayer... that she'll open her eyes and see my understanding and desperate need for space.
I have not unpacked my luggage yet. It's been... 2 days since i'm back... becoz there's so much clearing and tidying to do... so much more than i have expected... i never think that things would wear itself out that quickly... i hope to complete it just in time for Christmas. It's just 6 days away. It'll be nice to have a clean tidy home.
Been chatting alot with my sister. I really thank God for her. Just her presence and the understanding that we have. It's as though we never left each other side. I can still read her mind, she still respects me and appreciates me alot. Which is... GREAT! She is so supportive and encouraging at the same time. She doesn't seem to mind my whinings and complains. It's so wonderfully to be accepted not just for the things that you are good at, but for your flaws as well.
Hopefully in the midst of the cleaning, i will be able to catch up with friends. R is just wonderful... the first person to welcome me through SMS. R SMS my Aust mobile no. Cost 50cents i think... but nonetheless... R remembered i was back! And... although i felt bewildered... that made me feel so welcomed... alittle sense of belonging.... ...
I havent' really got time to reflect or think and make plans (besides cleaning the whole house). Everything else is on hold at the moment. I went to G's church... its really different. It's just a different group of people with different views.
Lots of time was spent with my family and G during this past 2 days. But now... its the weekday so i think i'll just spend time doing spring cleaning. Hopefully can do meet ups by Friday...
It's MAJOR house cleaning this week... think i might even need to buy those masks coz this place is really dusty. I need to have a cosy home to return everyday. Yes... CLean Warm and fUzzy with happy members of the family. Hope that will all come through by the end of this week. Even this needs time effort and prayer... ...
Been trying to adapt to the weather... still not used to things around here...
so much of home sweet home...
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Landed in MelBourNe
Yay... i have safely arrived at Melbourne. Been up and about since yst. COmparing it with Sydney, Melbourne is less chaotic but the weather is absolutely crazy! It's really hot on one day and freezing cold the next. Currently, the weather here is cold.
Been trying to figure out why i feel so lost at times. Perhaps its the conversations. Back in Brisbane, it was more courteous and thoughtful. Always wanting to know how other people are doing. Over here, its about boosting your own ego, show that you are of higher class. Or maybe its just me. Just been having bad brushes with M now adays. Why? argh... not sure what's up. Maybe this was how it was like all along... ... ... if so, i must have forgotten how it was like.
Generally, i want to get back to Singapore, meet G and my siblings. Not so sure how i'm gonna intergrate back with my church people. So many changes. Not so sure how i will fit in, but a friend of mine told me that i really have got nothing to worry about. PErhaps he's right. Friends in church aren't the focus in church. More so, God should be the focus. *shrugs*
Must let God lead.... I know that most of the times, i will not like the plan God has laid out for me. So often i will want to choose my own path, my own walk. But obedience is better than sacrifice. God never shows the ultimate beauty of his plan till the end. Still learning to surrender and submit everything to God, stay firm and positive despite all the ugly rumours and disheartening remarks. God is good.... all the time.
Must thank those who prayed for me. THose who showed concern and care for me. Thank you...
with a heart full of thanksgving, i thank the Lord for putting you into my life.
Been trying to figure out why i feel so lost at times. Perhaps its the conversations. Back in Brisbane, it was more courteous and thoughtful. Always wanting to know how other people are doing. Over here, its about boosting your own ego, show that you are of higher class. Or maybe its just me. Just been having bad brushes with M now adays. Why? argh... not sure what's up. Maybe this was how it was like all along... ... ... if so, i must have forgotten how it was like.
Generally, i want to get back to Singapore, meet G and my siblings. Not so sure how i'm gonna intergrate back with my church people. So many changes. Not so sure how i will fit in, but a friend of mine told me that i really have got nothing to worry about. PErhaps he's right. Friends in church aren't the focus in church. More so, God should be the focus. *shrugs*
Must let God lead.... I know that most of the times, i will not like the plan God has laid out for me. So often i will want to choose my own path, my own walk. But obedience is better than sacrifice. God never shows the ultimate beauty of his plan till the end. Still learning to surrender and submit everything to God, stay firm and positive despite all the ugly rumours and disheartening remarks. God is good.... all the time.
Must thank those who prayed for me. THose who showed concern and care for me. Thank you...
with a heart full of thanksgving, i thank the Lord for putting you into my life.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Wanna Go Home?
Home? Home?
where is Home? I've been travelling around Sydney the past few days. Happy, unhappy events during this short period of time.
In Sydney, it's alot more busier, livelier... very much like Singapore. Cars honking at each other... the crowds. This is what Singapore is gonna be like...
Went to church here. Dad said its similar to back home, but sadly, i couldn't connect. Ended up criticising this that that this. Shops are different, staffs are not courteous or as helpful as brisbane. I got a headache just standing in the midst of the crowds.
I cried quite abit today. had a bad brush with Mom. Things are just.... not the same. I miss friends back in brisbane. I just want to have the space i once had, the freedom i once had. Perhpas its time to start making plans to go back to Brisbane in future. Or maybe... all i need is abit of help, abit more time and alot of prayers and encouragement.
Perhaps...perhaps... perhaps
where is Home? I've been travelling around Sydney the past few days. Happy, unhappy events during this short period of time.
In Sydney, it's alot more busier, livelier... very much like Singapore. Cars honking at each other... the crowds. This is what Singapore is gonna be like...
Went to church here. Dad said its similar to back home, but sadly, i couldn't connect. Ended up criticising this that that this. Shops are different, staffs are not courteous or as helpful as brisbane. I got a headache just standing in the midst of the crowds.
I cried quite abit today. had a bad brush with Mom. Things are just.... not the same. I miss friends back in brisbane. I just want to have the space i once had, the freedom i once had. Perhpas its time to start making plans to go back to Brisbane in future. Or maybe... all i need is abit of help, abit more time and alot of prayers and encouragement.
Perhaps...perhaps... perhaps
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Officially graduated.
Yea... results was out yesterday... glad that i passed, though it did not meet my expectations... but nonetheless... i knew i gave it my best shot and that God helped me through it. I'm really thankful that its over... hmm.. think i've learnt alot during my 1.5 years of stay here. Not just study wise, perhaps street wise, emotional wise... ...etc.
God has been gracious and HE already started closing afew doors for me. Also good.. i have learnt that having many doors are not always good. Sometimes just having the few options are better. God knows what is best and i ought to trust in Him and His ways, not on my own understanding.
Think i've said my thanks in the last few posts. Couldn't have made it w/o these pple. It's a time of rejoicing with my fellow friends. We have come a very long way and definitely bonded with each other. Will have to continue to rely on each other for support as we enter the workforce together at the same time.
Now is a time of relentless prayer. Prayer for G that he will meet his target, for direction and discernment in my life, for my parents stay here...
Hmm... this past few days have been bz packing. Packing can sure be a chore... pack this pack that... need alot of organisation and time.
Oke... more updates on what my plans are in the following posts.
God has been gracious and HE already started closing afew doors for me. Also good.. i have learnt that having many doors are not always good. Sometimes just having the few options are better. God knows what is best and i ought to trust in Him and His ways, not on my own understanding.
Think i've said my thanks in the last few posts. Couldn't have made it w/o these pple. It's a time of rejoicing with my fellow friends. We have come a very long way and definitely bonded with each other. Will have to continue to rely on each other for support as we enter the workforce together at the same time.
Now is a time of relentless prayer. Prayer for G that he will meet his target, for direction and discernment in my life, for my parents stay here...
Hmm... this past few days have been bz packing. Packing can sure be a chore... pack this pack that... need alot of organisation and time.
Oke... more updates on what my plans are in the following posts.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Pictures that you've nv seen
pics that you didn't get to see... becoz i didn't email them out. Bleh* Each pic takes up quite a hefty amount of space and hotmail has a limit of 10MB, yahoo even lesser. So anyway, here's the pics... RoLL It!
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This how pple look after drinking (Apple juice)
Let's all try to squeeze and see one score
Wo hai nian qing!
Look who's all pretty in pink!
Wah... cake is finger lickin good!
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This how pple look after drinking (Apple juice)
Let's all try to squeeze and see one score
Wo hai nian qing!
Look who's all pretty in pink!
Wah... cake is finger lickin good!
To think about
Last night, i went to Rosallie... always wanted to go there with the 3 masketeers but i was always bz with studying. It was quite a fee i must say. Cannot go there very often. Big(Da) S was so kind to bring me there to check the place out. Sad that the theme was kinda obscene. One of nudity (censored). But nonetheless... it didn't spoil the atmosphere. Its always nice to hang out with Da S. She brought up some stuff for me to think about. Like my time from now till... my parents arrive. Honestly, i haven't started packing yet. Wonder just how much of my heart is willing to go.
Time kinda disrupted becoz of G. I would have done things SOOooOOo much more differently without G. Indeed, a relationship requires a humongeous amount of sacrifice of time. I laid it all on the table before him... and i told him my choice. Not really sure how much he sees that i put into this. Just hope that he appreciates it. Don't require him to do anything special or unique for me. Just hope that he'll serve God, and grow to be more and more like Jesus, be a God fearing man is all i ask. After all, at the end of each day, its all about God and not about us. Is he a hinderance or does he motivate me to be a better person? Hmm... i dare not comment too much. But one thing i know is that he has taught me to love, kind, forgiveness and generosity. Always encouraging me to be more of a lady. Through our communication, he has shown me my weakness as well... impatieness... probably one of the source of the many hostile and emotional statements i make. I just wished i had more time for the others.... i wish to spend more time with the rest. ANymore coffee outings anyone? At my place? I whip up something?
Finally, today he finishes his last paper. Looking at the time right now, 10:46am, he has already completed his maths paper and i'm sure that he's now looking through his slides for IT. He really needs to have a better method on how to go about revising for his exams. Any gd study methods, please feel free to let him know (if you know him), or blog about it.
Gonna continue to look out for jobs on the internet. Father please lead me to this job if it is your will.
This morning hasn't been totally great. I had 3 nightmares of which, i can only remember two. One of them was that... i actually flunk my Chinese paper and i JUST made it for my corporate finance. Haha.. funny... i'm not taking any CHinese exam. But i was really upset to know that i FAILED one paper!!! And hey! My HUA YU is not all that bad! The other nightmare is kinda personally, involved me, G and my Dad.
*sigh* what's the point in fretting right now? SOmetimes i wish i could do so much more than praying.. but ya... what to do? Pray.... .... ....
Just praying for my parents heart to be ready for their trip here as well. Lately my mom has been quite edgy. Not sure why, but i seem to always be having some kind of heated conversation with her. It always involves one thing. My own preference and over what SHE feels is good and right. Everyone deserves to choose what they like don't they? Sigh... i wish she could be more encouraging and supportive in what i do. *sobs* always hurt to end a conversation like that, becoz deep down inside, i don't want to be seen as being disobedient or disrespectful. I still love her very much, but why should it be at the expense of my freedom to choose and decide what is best for myself?
Comfort for the day, i am never alone. Watched Oprah the other day and it featured this lady and daughter who couldn't get along with each other. They both wanted to scratch each other... perhaps what i lack is patience and understanding eh?
*Linda breathes*
Time kinda disrupted becoz of G. I would have done things SOOooOOo much more differently without G. Indeed, a relationship requires a humongeous amount of sacrifice of time. I laid it all on the table before him... and i told him my choice. Not really sure how much he sees that i put into this. Just hope that he appreciates it. Don't require him to do anything special or unique for me. Just hope that he'll serve God, and grow to be more and more like Jesus, be a God fearing man is all i ask. After all, at the end of each day, its all about God and not about us. Is he a hinderance or does he motivate me to be a better person? Hmm... i dare not comment too much. But one thing i know is that he has taught me to love, kind, forgiveness and generosity. Always encouraging me to be more of a lady. Through our communication, he has shown me my weakness as well... impatieness... probably one of the source of the many hostile and emotional statements i make. I just wished i had more time for the others.... i wish to spend more time with the rest. ANymore coffee outings anyone? At my place? I whip up something?
Finally, today he finishes his last paper. Looking at the time right now, 10:46am, he has already completed his maths paper and i'm sure that he's now looking through his slides for IT. He really needs to have a better method on how to go about revising for his exams. Any gd study methods, please feel free to let him know (if you know him), or blog about it.
Gonna continue to look out for jobs on the internet. Father please lead me to this job if it is your will.
This morning hasn't been totally great. I had 3 nightmares of which, i can only remember two. One of them was that... i actually flunk my Chinese paper and i JUST made it for my corporate finance. Haha.. funny... i'm not taking any CHinese exam. But i was really upset to know that i FAILED one paper!!! And hey! My HUA YU is not all that bad! The other nightmare is kinda personally, involved me, G and my Dad.
*sigh* what's the point in fretting right now? SOmetimes i wish i could do so much more than praying.. but ya... what to do? Pray.... .... ....
Just praying for my parents heart to be ready for their trip here as well. Lately my mom has been quite edgy. Not sure why, but i seem to always be having some kind of heated conversation with her. It always involves one thing. My own preference and over what SHE feels is good and right. Everyone deserves to choose what they like don't they? Sigh... i wish she could be more encouraging and supportive in what i do. *sobs* always hurt to end a conversation like that, becoz deep down inside, i don't want to be seen as being disobedient or disrespectful. I still love her very much, but why should it be at the expense of my freedom to choose and decide what is best for myself?
Comfort for the day, i am never alone. Watched Oprah the other day and it featured this lady and daughter who couldn't get along with each other. They both wanted to scratch each other... perhaps what i lack is patience and understanding eh?
*Linda breathes*
Monday, November 20, 2006
Silent Treatment
Sent out a couple of resumes to Recruitment agents yesterday. Not sure if i'm going about getting a job the right way. Don't even know if those agents are reliable. Sigh*
My phone has been all quiet.
Gary has been trying to study... but not sure why, he's feeling kinda demoralised. The exams are wearing him down. Just have to keep praying for him. *argh* feeling so sad... that i can't take the paper for him. Only can encourage him to persevere on.
It's funny that we both have exams... timed exactly one week after mine...
same structure 3 days consecutively, only diff... his is 5 papers!!!
He has to make it... i hope he does... it might seem kinda selfish... but i'm pinning my hopes on him that he'll make it.
S and R is returning back to Singapore. Sad to see them go.. i mean... we can still meet up again in Singapore... but it'll be different. Very different. EAch carrying different responsibilities.
One thing that striked me like something that pricks my heart yesterday by pastor S was....
the very phrase that he questioned himself... "how can something be wrong be so right" i always pondered on those phrases as a teen (well i'm still a teen). I saw in however in a different light.
I would look at the modern thinking of todays world. Touch topics like premarital sex, abortion, smoking..etc. and yet, these are the very trends that are in the world. The media says it, with shows reflecting that smoking is cool, that having premarial sex is the norm... look at how guys think nowadays... some of it are just appalling... what they think is oke... and acceptable. The one thing that sets both females and males apart. Females are more prone to think for the future, the aftermath. But for guys... if its oke now, its oke... at least that was what i grasp from afew pages of a book that i picked up today.
How to live in a world of today and yet not be of the world... i know i myself have made many countless wrong decisions, wrong choices though i'm just 21. However, i want to strive to present myself as a presentable person before God. Just something pleasing... no matter how small it is. Still praying that Gary will be able to take the lead and help bring both of us closer to God. He's got alot of personal problems of his own... .. hopefully one day God will rise him above and bring him out of his own misery... prayers prayers... ....
The journey ahead is long... and i've just been pretty much under the weather... its all gloomy and sad inside.. *sigh*
My phone has been all quiet.
Gary has been trying to study... but not sure why, he's feeling kinda demoralised. The exams are wearing him down. Just have to keep praying for him. *argh* feeling so sad... that i can't take the paper for him. Only can encourage him to persevere on.
It's funny that we both have exams... timed exactly one week after mine...
same structure 3 days consecutively, only diff... his is 5 papers!!!
He has to make it... i hope he does... it might seem kinda selfish... but i'm pinning my hopes on him that he'll make it.
S and R is returning back to Singapore. Sad to see them go.. i mean... we can still meet up again in Singapore... but it'll be different. Very different. EAch carrying different responsibilities.
One thing that striked me like something that pricks my heart yesterday by pastor S was....
the very phrase that he questioned himself... "how can something be wrong be so right" i always pondered on those phrases as a teen (well i'm still a teen). I saw in however in a different light.
I would look at the modern thinking of todays world. Touch topics like premarital sex, abortion, smoking..etc. and yet, these are the very trends that are in the world. The media says it, with shows reflecting that smoking is cool, that having premarial sex is the norm... look at how guys think nowadays... some of it are just appalling... what they think is oke... and acceptable. The one thing that sets both females and males apart. Females are more prone to think for the future, the aftermath. But for guys... if its oke now, its oke... at least that was what i grasp from afew pages of a book that i picked up today.
How to live in a world of today and yet not be of the world... i know i myself have made many countless wrong decisions, wrong choices though i'm just 21. However, i want to strive to present myself as a presentable person before God. Just something pleasing... no matter how small it is. Still praying that Gary will be able to take the lead and help bring both of us closer to God. He's got alot of personal problems of his own... .. hopefully one day God will rise him above and bring him out of his own misery... prayers prayers... ....
The journey ahead is long... and i've just been pretty much under the weather... its all gloomy and sad inside.. *sigh*
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Special Thankgiving night
Gotta think about things that have progressed till today. Alot of thoughts.
When i first arrived here in Brisbane, i was lost. My impressions of Brisbane and thoughts about what i would do during my stay here was very different to what is today.
When i first arrived here, questions such as whether i could fend for myself, whether i could study, whether i could juggle studying and working at the same time, wheter i would still stick close to God, whether I would grow in the Lord... question after question.
There were plenty of things to deal with. Cultural shock, weather difference... and it did not help that I had no friends. However, God has been amazing... friends whom i never knew would cross my path... e.g. Theolynn and Angelene... how i met Calvin and Carol. Never would i have imagined that this last semester would ever arrive.
God has just been so faithful... even though there were times i couldn't feel him there... where i just questioned whether he has forgotten me. Sometimes it feels like i'm speaking to an invisible person... like i'm talking to the air. It's times as such that God surround me by so many people who care... Serene who comes over to lend a ear, a shoulder, her advice... she's a sister and a friend whom i can count on. Sick, lonely.... she's there... ... no amount of thanks will ever be enough to show my appreciation for the amount of care and love that she showered over me. If there's one thing which i really want to thank her for, is her patience, encouragement and guidiance in teaching me to serve God. It's always been a secret desire to want to play the piano, but i never felt adequate enough to be up there... the many late nights of practice at the piano... are the ones that i am really gonna miss. Though i still think i'm not adequate enough, i am but grateful for being able to give part of my service to God and just pray that it'll be pleasing to Him.
Then there's Matthew and Samuel. The two matured brothers in Christ. Both with very different personalities but both fervent and devoted to God. Something that i've been very much influenced by. It's a contagious passion that is GOOD... and you cannot help but catch alittle of it myself.
and... the very hospitable Jace and Kezia. Their both very sociable and caring people. I wouldn't have survived the summer without them opening their house. Their little guidiance and listening ear. Especially Kezia who so willingly chauffeur me over to Aunty Molly place to have discipleship lessons.
Then there's Eexuan, Ena, Ting Ting and Shan... where would i be without them. The few girl's only chats... the listening ear, the advice and food. Those who i know i can grow together in Christ with. Just spurring each other on. Like seeing Eexuan and Ena taking on more roles each time aside the immense pressure in school... just spurs me to do more on my part too.
There's so much more to name...
1st arrival here Carol and Dennis
Summer :Jace and Kezia, Serene, Matthew , KiaTeck, Kat and Merv, Charles, Samuel (Thanksgiving night, Christmas, New YEar...)
First time play piano in church.
Parents visit, making them feel so welcomed.
21st BIRHTDAY!!!! WOo hOO... Tania... Matthew, Serene, Jace, Kezia, Kia Teck, Samuel, Helen, Kitty, Dennis, Sonia, Ken, Charles, Helen... and they all came in to my party in my favourite colours!!!!
Move house... Isaac, Serene, Jace, Chung, Ena, Eexuan, Collin, Samuel, Mark?
Coffee... Outings... movie nights...
Retreat Camp... loads of fun and growing together in Christ... see the different sides of people. Even Brat, see him spontaneously joining us in games. Have fun together and suffer in the cold together.
Ting Ting car accident... and you see how the whole church gelled together to pray for her
Part of the committee meeting. Enjoyed the outings... so spurred on to do more... like just from Ena and Eexuan... working with new members...
Group Study with the girls...
The Group coming over for visit and pray just before exam.
Just glad that there's no strong cliques formed... cause i just love to get a piece of everybody. Just want to thank the Lord for each special and unique individual. And just want to pray that this contagious passion you all have for Christ will spread to everybody around you.
When i first arrived here in Brisbane, i was lost. My impressions of Brisbane and thoughts about what i would do during my stay here was very different to what is today.
When i first arrived here, questions such as whether i could fend for myself, whether i could study, whether i could juggle studying and working at the same time, wheter i would still stick close to God, whether I would grow in the Lord... question after question.
There were plenty of things to deal with. Cultural shock, weather difference... and it did not help that I had no friends. However, God has been amazing... friends whom i never knew would cross my path... e.g. Theolynn and Angelene... how i met Calvin and Carol. Never would i have imagined that this last semester would ever arrive.
God has just been so faithful... even though there were times i couldn't feel him there... where i just questioned whether he has forgotten me. Sometimes it feels like i'm speaking to an invisible person... like i'm talking to the air. It's times as such that God surround me by so many people who care... Serene who comes over to lend a ear, a shoulder, her advice... she's a sister and a friend whom i can count on. Sick, lonely.... she's there... ... no amount of thanks will ever be enough to show my appreciation for the amount of care and love that she showered over me. If there's one thing which i really want to thank her for, is her patience, encouragement and guidiance in teaching me to serve God. It's always been a secret desire to want to play the piano, but i never felt adequate enough to be up there... the many late nights of practice at the piano... are the ones that i am really gonna miss. Though i still think i'm not adequate enough, i am but grateful for being able to give part of my service to God and just pray that it'll be pleasing to Him.
Then there's Matthew and Samuel. The two matured brothers in Christ. Both with very different personalities but both fervent and devoted to God. Something that i've been very much influenced by. It's a contagious passion that is GOOD... and you cannot help but catch alittle of it myself.
and... the very hospitable Jace and Kezia. Their both very sociable and caring people. I wouldn't have survived the summer without them opening their house. Their little guidiance and listening ear. Especially Kezia who so willingly chauffeur me over to Aunty Molly place to have discipleship lessons.
Then there's Eexuan, Ena, Ting Ting and Shan... where would i be without them. The few girl's only chats... the listening ear, the advice and food. Those who i know i can grow together in Christ with. Just spurring each other on. Like seeing Eexuan and Ena taking on more roles each time aside the immense pressure in school... just spurs me to do more on my part too.
There's so much more to name...
1st arrival here Carol and Dennis
Summer :Jace and Kezia, Serene, Matthew , KiaTeck, Kat and Merv, Charles, Samuel (Thanksgiving night, Christmas, New YEar...)
First time play piano in church.
Parents visit, making them feel so welcomed.
21st BIRHTDAY!!!! WOo hOO... Tania... Matthew, Serene, Jace, Kezia, Kia Teck, Samuel, Helen, Kitty, Dennis, Sonia, Ken, Charles, Helen... and they all came in to my party in my favourite colours!!!!
Move house... Isaac, Serene, Jace, Chung, Ena, Eexuan, Collin, Samuel, Mark?
Coffee... Outings... movie nights...
Retreat Camp... loads of fun and growing together in Christ... see the different sides of people. Even Brat, see him spontaneously joining us in games. Have fun together and suffer in the cold together.
Ting Ting car accident... and you see how the whole church gelled together to pray for her
Part of the committee meeting. Enjoyed the outings... so spurred on to do more... like just from Ena and Eexuan... working with new members...
Group Study with the girls...
The Group coming over for visit and pray just before exam.
Just glad that there's no strong cliques formed... cause i just love to get a piece of everybody. Just want to thank the Lord for each special and unique individual. And just want to pray that this contagious passion you all have for Christ will spread to everybody around you.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
It would not be possible if....
YiPPieEEee....
I have finished my final paper... 3 papers consecutively one after another. I would not have made it if wasn't for ... ....
1) God, who was there to give me the hope, strength and encouragement i needed.
2) For the friends around me. For J who got alot of questions especially Forwards and Futures. For those who spurred me on to do better.
3) For Gary to encourage me, root for me, cook for me, drive me to EVERY exam, pray for me for every exam, and as though that is not enough, COMFORT me after every exam. *smilLes* Thanks for being there... and providing me with the support i needed.
4) For my endearing mother and father who has been praying EVERYDAY before and during my paper.
5) For the trees and the resources. I used up 1 and a half foolscap and one G2-07 pilot pen in 8 days....
6) For the Unicellers who came over with the kit kats (they were great for motivation)
7) For everyone else who cared for me.... and prayed for me... thank you!!!!
Now have to plan for the next big thing. Will be updating again soon. Chao!
I have finished my final paper... 3 papers consecutively one after another. I would not have made it if wasn't for ... ....
1) God, who was there to give me the hope, strength and encouragement i needed.
2) For the friends around me. For J who got alot of questions especially Forwards and Futures. For those who spurred me on to do better.
3) For Gary to encourage me, root for me, cook for me, drive me to EVERY exam, pray for me for every exam, and as though that is not enough, COMFORT me after every exam. *smilLes* Thanks for being there... and providing me with the support i needed.
4) For my endearing mother and father who has been praying EVERYDAY before and during my paper.
5) For the trees and the resources. I used up 1 and a half foolscap and one G2-07 pilot pen in 8 days....
6) For the Unicellers who came over with the kit kats (they were great for motivation)
7) For everyone else who cared for me.... and prayed for me... thank you!!!!
Now have to plan for the next big thing. Will be updating again soon. Chao!
Monday, November 06, 2006
Loneliness?
You might be surprised. Yes, there are plenty of times that i will be feeling lonely and lost.
A relationship cannot fill these loniliness but by depending on God alone.
John 8
7 So when they continued asking Him, He raised Himself up and said to them, “He who is without sin among you, let him throw a stone at her first.” 8 And again He stooped down and wrote on the ground. 9 Then those who heard it, being convicted by their conscience, went out one by one, beginning with the oldest even to the last. And Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst.
15 You judge according to the flesh; I judge no one. 16 And yet if I do judge, My judgment is true; for I am not alone, but I am with the Father who sent Me. 17 It is also written in your law that the testimony of two men is true. 18 I am One who bears witness of Myself, and the Father who sent Me bears witness of Me.”
John 16
31 Jesus answered them, “Do you now believe? 32 Indeed the hour is coming, yes, has now come, that you will be scattered, each to his own, and will leave Me alone. And yet I am not alone, because the Father is with Me.
Jesus seems to be always alone. Even times where i would think support would count the most. It is true that it is always nice to have that someone to lean on, but even then so, love as between two human beings is not sufficient and will NEVER be sufficient to cover all. The only love that is truly nobel, truly pure, would be the one that comes from God.
Though at times... we may appear to be 'standing alone', with no one who understands, i am reminded once again that the Lord will be with me. His presence is always here and i'm comforted once again.
A relationship cannot fill these loniliness but by depending on God alone.
John 8
7 So when they continued asking Him, He raised Himself up and said to them, “He who is without sin among you, let him throw a stone at her first.” 8 And again He stooped down and wrote on the ground. 9 Then those who heard it, being convicted by their conscience, went out one by one, beginning with the oldest even to the last. And Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst.
15 You judge according to the flesh; I judge no one. 16 And yet if I do judge, My judgment is true; for I am not alone, but I am with the Father who sent Me. 17 It is also written in your law that the testimony of two men is true. 18 I am One who bears witness of Myself, and the Father who sent Me bears witness of Me.”
John 16
31 Jesus answered them, “Do you now believe? 32 Indeed the hour is coming, yes, has now come, that you will be scattered, each to his own, and will leave Me alone. And yet I am not alone, because the Father is with Me.
Jesus seems to be always alone. Even times where i would think support would count the most. It is true that it is always nice to have that someone to lean on, but even then so, love as between two human beings is not sufficient and will NEVER be sufficient to cover all. The only love that is truly nobel, truly pure, would be the one that comes from God.
Though at times... we may appear to be 'standing alone', with no one who understands, i am reminded once again that the Lord will be with me. His presence is always here and i'm comforted once again.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
To persevere and not doubt.
James 1
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,
3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.
7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord;
8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
Linda's thoughts:
Pure joy when faced with trials of ALL kinds.
Hmm.. i didn't know joy could be described as pure.
i guess James knew its virtually impossible to be joyful in trials. That's why he said consider.
So you may be feeling down, upset, dissapointed with the current situation. But consider it a joy.
Just hope this exam can truly be a blessing. By faith, i will do well for my papers as he guides and leads me each step of the way as i prepare for the final papers.
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,
3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.
7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord;
8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
Linda's thoughts:
Pure joy when faced with trials of ALL kinds.
Hmm.. i didn't know joy could be described as pure.
i guess James knew its virtually impossible to be joyful in trials. That's why he said consider.
So you may be feeling down, upset, dissapointed with the current situation. But consider it a joy.
Just hope this exam can truly be a blessing. By faith, i will do well for my papers as he guides and leads me each step of the way as i prepare for the final papers.
Monday, October 30, 2006
Friday, October 27, 2006
Friday Evening
Friday Morning started off with me facing the computer.
*tap*tap*tapping on the computer keyboard. Dateline for assignment is today and i took a really long time to get it done up. Could have been alot more efficient if i was more organised. Kinda forgotten how to go about getting it done. Thankfully for G and TT, they were really nice and patient with helping me get along with the essay. Referencing takes on a whole new light on writing essays. Its so different from how its done in Poly.
Got it done and handed it up.
We went to do some grocery shopping. Bought heaps of stuff and was almost broke at the end of it. We were left with afew dollars... G wanted dou hui, i wanted taro bubble tea. With the little we had, we first headed towards the dou hui store. *surprise surprise* I saw my ex-colleague over there!!!! She gave us a discounted price and the rest of the cents we had were enought to get the taro!!!! *yippie* Linda gives thanks.
*giggles* yes....i can become and impulsive buyer (even for food) and thus i do need the Lord's wisdom to manage my money well. So far, God has been truly faithful in providing and meeting all my needs.
Now left to focus on studying for the exam. I have to learn to commit these into God's hands too. Will continue to pray for wisdom as i continue to try and have faith in the Lord God Almighty hands... ...
*tap*tap*tapping on the computer keyboard. Dateline for assignment is today and i took a really long time to get it done up. Could have been alot more efficient if i was more organised. Kinda forgotten how to go about getting it done. Thankfully for G and TT, they were really nice and patient with helping me get along with the essay. Referencing takes on a whole new light on writing essays. Its so different from how its done in Poly.
Got it done and handed it up.
We went to do some grocery shopping. Bought heaps of stuff and was almost broke at the end of it. We were left with afew dollars... G wanted dou hui, i wanted taro bubble tea. With the little we had, we first headed towards the dou hui store. *surprise surprise* I saw my ex-colleague over there!!!! She gave us a discounted price and the rest of the cents we had were enought to get the taro!!!! *yippie* Linda gives thanks.
*giggles* yes....i can become and impulsive buyer (even for food) and thus i do need the Lord's wisdom to manage my money well. So far, God has been truly faithful in providing and meeting all my needs.
Now left to focus on studying for the exam. I have to learn to commit these into God's hands too. Will continue to pray for wisdom as i continue to try and have faith in the Lord God Almighty hands... ...
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Need to do work
HELP!!! SO much readings and concepts to grasps....
Father help me and give me the strength to continue....
to continue yet another day.
I did the feedback form for one of my lect the other day. THe comment i wrote was sth abt like millions of dollars are lost in the stock market in minutes.
You lose all your students when u blank out for that few minutes.
Father help me and give me the strength to continue....
to continue yet another day.
I did the feedback form for one of my lect the other day. THe comment i wrote was sth abt like millions of dollars are lost in the stock market in minutes.
You lose all your students when u blank out for that few minutes.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Uncontactable
Sorry, for the next few upcoming days, there will be days where you will not be able to contact me!
Why? Cause i have decided to off the handphone. Then can just focus on what's more important. Life can be such a hassel at times don't you agree? Enough 'excitment' and disappointment for the week.
This week kinda down. Not sure if its the stress... or what. Makes me wanna kong somebody's head. Excuse me while i make myself invisible the upcoming days and weeks.
Why? Cause i have decided to off the handphone. Then can just focus on what's more important. Life can be such a hassel at times don't you agree? Enough 'excitment' and disappointment for the week.
This week kinda down. Not sure if its the stress... or what. Makes me wanna kong somebody's head. Excuse me while i make myself invisible the upcoming days and weeks.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Painful to acknowledge
Yst was feeling queasy and uneasy. Thought that i was just being moody. ANyway, i called Gary. I i couldn't get through... ... was very uncomfortable... and i just kept calling... yar... i'm pretty impatient.
Anyway, after afew more hours have passed, i decided i will try again. And this time Gary picked up with shocking news. Gary is wounded on the back, hands, feet and even the head... ... *sob*
Some cuts were quite deep. *ouch*
And it didn't help that traffic yst was bad.
But even then so, i can see that God is so merciful. Our life is in His hands. He decides what to give, take away and what stays.
Spoke to M yest. HAven't heard frm for so long!! So glad that he's happy with everything there. God is indeed good. As always, very concerned for us. He's indeed a great friend. I doubt he'll read this, but if you ever do.... THANK YOU!!!!!
I was asked how does it feel to have two close friends get into a car accident? It is a heart filled with thankfulness. It does not need to be an accident that a life is lost. It could be just in your sleep. I guess its also important to treasure EVERYONE around me, more importantly, that they are saved. At least i know that if i lose them now, i know i'll get to meet them in heaven.
Went to work today. It was busy as usual. And again the boss expressed sadness to see me go. Giggles... glad that God had helped me in this job. Glad that i am able to be faithful in my work that God has blessed me with even though it does not pay me much.
Anyway, after afew more hours have passed, i decided i will try again. And this time Gary picked up with shocking news. Gary is wounded on the back, hands, feet and even the head... ... *sob*
Some cuts were quite deep. *ouch*
And it didn't help that traffic yst was bad.
But even then so, i can see that God is so merciful. Our life is in His hands. He decides what to give, take away and what stays.
Spoke to M yest. HAven't heard frm for so long!! So glad that he's happy with everything there. God is indeed good. As always, very concerned for us. He's indeed a great friend. I doubt he'll read this, but if you ever do.... THANK YOU!!!!!
I was asked how does it feel to have two close friends get into a car accident? It is a heart filled with thankfulness. It does not need to be an accident that a life is lost. It could be just in your sleep. I guess its also important to treasure EVERYONE around me, more importantly, that they are saved. At least i know that if i lose them now, i know i'll get to meet them in heaven.
Went to work today. It was busy as usual. And again the boss expressed sadness to see me go. Giggles... glad that God had helped me in this job. Glad that i am able to be faithful in my work that God has blessed me with even though it does not pay me much.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Genting International, Star Cruises reveal plans for Sentosa integrated resort
SINGAPORE : The Genting International and Star Cruises consortium has proposed to build four theme parks at a cost of S$5.2 billion at the integrated resort in Sentosa.
It includes a Universal Studios theme park and three water-themed attractions. Spanning 49 hectares, the proposed resort - Resorts World at Sentosa - will feature three water theme parks. They include the world's largest oceanarium - the Quest Marine Life Park - with 700,000 dolphins, bat rays and open ocean fish. Jeffery Jouett, CEO, Dolphin Quest, said, "There are all kind of experiences in our park. The opportunity to be in a shark cage and dive in with hammerhead sharks and tiger sharks and to feed them from that shark cage or to snorkel along...There will be restaurants and bars completely submerged where you'll be surrounded by fish of the ocean and whale sharks as you dine, drink and have a meal." Visitors can also enjoy "water-coasters" and rides that wind through lush greenery and forested areas, or try out the surf pool at the Equarius Water Park.
Winner will be announced at the end of the year.
*giggles*
Happy news for dolphin lovers. But just imagine if you are a marine lover... and you're eating in a seafood restaurant. Haha... the poor kids will be traumatised.
Last lecture for accounting ended today... REVISION TIME!!! Someone pls remind me not to wake up for 8am lect next week... ... ...
It includes a Universal Studios theme park and three water-themed attractions. Spanning 49 hectares, the proposed resort - Resorts World at Sentosa - will feature three water theme parks. They include the world's largest oceanarium - the Quest Marine Life Park - with 700,000 dolphins, bat rays and open ocean fish. Jeffery Jouett, CEO, Dolphin Quest, said, "There are all kind of experiences in our park. The opportunity to be in a shark cage and dive in with hammerhead sharks and tiger sharks and to feed them from that shark cage or to snorkel along...There will be restaurants and bars completely submerged where you'll be surrounded by fish of the ocean and whale sharks as you dine, drink and have a meal." Visitors can also enjoy "water-coasters" and rides that wind through lush greenery and forested areas, or try out the surf pool at the Equarius Water Park.
Winner will be announced at the end of the year.
*giggles*
Happy news for dolphin lovers. But just imagine if you are a marine lover... and you're eating in a seafood restaurant. Haha... the poor kids will be traumatised.
Last lecture for accounting ended today... REVISION TIME!!! Someone pls remind me not to wake up for 8am lect next week... ... ...
Monday, October 16, 2006
Dreams and ambitions
When i learnt about Banyan Tree, how exclusive it is and how well-runned it was, i endeavoured a dream to be one of their staff if i ever work in the service line.
What is Banyan Tree?
Banyan Tree is a resort, a Singapore company. It has few locations, but its locations are strategically picked. All with wonderful views of the sea with AWESOME view of the sunrise. It's so popular, that you have got to book a room in advance. Of course, all this comes with a price.
Can't believe that there's so many happenings going on back home! Sounds so foreign to me. It sounds too much of a fantasy and a nightmare at the same time. Can't imagine staying so close to the casino...
Hopefully all this investment will not corrode the strong morals and values in the country.
TODAY
Had a funny dream. Dreamt that i was chased by aliens. I was blackmailed and was at the point of being captured. Ah.. i don't like these dreams. I rather have none.
Don't like lecture, have to go and study the excel spread sheet later to understand today's lect.
I met almost everyone whom i havent met since this semester today. All in one day.
Made a new friend from Brunei, SL. She also very lost with corporate finance. Gladly we're not the only ones.
Shall continue on with my essay. I over write. Write too much... ... later have to go back and make my points more concise. With more references.
What is Banyan Tree?
Banyan Tree is a resort, a Singapore company. It has few locations, but its locations are strategically picked. All with wonderful views of the sea with AWESOME view of the sunrise. It's so popular, that you have got to book a room in advance. Of course, all this comes with a price.
Can't believe that there's so many happenings going on back home! Sounds so foreign to me. It sounds too much of a fantasy and a nightmare at the same time. Can't imagine staying so close to the casino...
Hopefully all this investment will not corrode the strong morals and values in the country.
TODAY
Had a funny dream. Dreamt that i was chased by aliens. I was blackmailed and was at the point of being captured. Ah.. i don't like these dreams. I rather have none.
Don't like lecture, have to go and study the excel spread sheet later to understand today's lect.
I met almost everyone whom i havent met since this semester today. All in one day.
Made a new friend from Brunei, SL. She also very lost with corporate finance. Gladly we're not the only ones.
Shall continue on with my essay. I over write. Write too much... ... later have to go back and make my points more concise. With more references.
Developments in Sentosa
Las Vegas firm Eighth Wonder has roped in Singapore luxury resort operator Banyan Tree Hotels and Resorts to strengthen its bid for a Singapore integrated resort license, the companies said Monday. Should Eighth Wonder win the bid for the project on Sentosa island, Banyan Tree will manage and operate a high-end resort that will feature exclusive private villas set in a lush tropical garden setting, a joint statement said. Banyan Tree's sister brand, Angsana Spa, will also be incorporated into hotels within the "integrated resort" complex, the statement said.
Although it is a Singapore company, Banyan Tree has yet to set up its signature brand on home soil. Its operations are spread out in 19 hotels and resorts, 51 spas and two golf courses worldwide. "The project presents a great opportunity for Banyan Tree to return to its roots by establishing its signature brand of hospitality on home ground," said Paul Chong, assistant vice president of business development at the company. Eighth Wonder chairman Mark Advent added: "Our vision for the Sentosa integrated resort is to make it truly world class and yet uniquely Singapore." Eighth Wonder has also tied up with Starwood Hotels and Resorts Worldwide Inc in its bid for the Sentosa integrated resort project, a concept that includes hotels and other facilities alongside gaming. Starwood, whose brands include Sheraton, Westin, and Le Meridien, will manage and operate four hotels if Eighth Wonder wins the bid. Eighth Wonder is undertaking its bid with Australia's Publishing and Broadcasting Ltd and Hong Kong's Melco International Development Ltd, and Isle of Capri Casinos Inc.
They are competing against two other contenders: a partnership of Bahamas-based Kerzner International and CapitaLand, Southeast Asia's biggest property group, and a team from Genting International-Star Cruises, part of Malaysian casino operator Genting Group. A winner is to be announced by the end of the year. If it wins, Eighth Wonder has vowed to invest 3.5 billion US dollars in the Sentosa project. Las Vegas Sands in May won the right to build Singapore's other integrated resort on downtown Marina Bay. Marina Bay Sands, as the project is called, will open in 2009. It will feature a casino and other facilities like hotels, convention areas, retail shops and restaurants.
Although it is a Singapore company, Banyan Tree has yet to set up its signature brand on home soil. Its operations are spread out in 19 hotels and resorts, 51 spas and two golf courses worldwide. "The project presents a great opportunity for Banyan Tree to return to its roots by establishing its signature brand of hospitality on home ground," said Paul Chong, assistant vice president of business development at the company. Eighth Wonder chairman Mark Advent added: "Our vision for the Sentosa integrated resort is to make it truly world class and yet uniquely Singapore." Eighth Wonder has also tied up with Starwood Hotels and Resorts Worldwide Inc in its bid for the Sentosa integrated resort project, a concept that includes hotels and other facilities alongside gaming. Starwood, whose brands include Sheraton, Westin, and Le Meridien, will manage and operate four hotels if Eighth Wonder wins the bid. Eighth Wonder is undertaking its bid with Australia's Publishing and Broadcasting Ltd and Hong Kong's Melco International Development Ltd, and Isle of Capri Casinos Inc.
They are competing against two other contenders: a partnership of Bahamas-based Kerzner International and CapitaLand, Southeast Asia's biggest property group, and a team from Genting International-Star Cruises, part of Malaysian casino operator Genting Group. A winner is to be announced by the end of the year. If it wins, Eighth Wonder has vowed to invest 3.5 billion US dollars in the Sentosa project. Las Vegas Sands in May won the right to build Singapore's other integrated resort on downtown Marina Bay. Marina Bay Sands, as the project is called, will open in 2009. It will feature a casino and other facilities like hotels, convention areas, retail shops and restaurants.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Saturday!
Today wanted to go and it dao hui at Sunnybank, but realised that it's closed. Wonder if they're upgrading or are they closed, like closed for good.
It was closed so hence we went to a nearby shop, Little Singapore to eat. Heehee... the char kway teow is AUTHENTIC Singapore food. Oh my gosh... i didn't realise how much of Singapore i have missed till i ate the first mouth!
Yesterday, I ate a bar of Hershey's chocolate! HAha... and i thought that i wouldn't be able to get it here. It's a very special chocolate in my tummy. Giggles. Quite sure that i will gain weight. Sobs. Feel like my effort to lose weight aint gonna succeed. I mean, if i have to eat i will eat. No point starving myself. I need the energy to study and work.
*smiLes* Chocolate makes me happy.
It was closed so hence we went to a nearby shop, Little Singapore to eat. Heehee... the char kway teow is AUTHENTIC Singapore food. Oh my gosh... i didn't realise how much of Singapore i have missed till i ate the first mouth!
Yesterday, I ate a bar of Hershey's chocolate! HAha... and i thought that i wouldn't be able to get it here. It's a very special chocolate in my tummy. Giggles. Quite sure that i will gain weight. Sobs. Feel like my effort to lose weight aint gonna succeed. I mean, if i have to eat i will eat. No point starving myself. I need the energy to study and work.
*smiLes* Chocolate makes me happy.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Would you Listen or would you Turn Away
The next step always is hard.
Awaken and not asleep.
I made afew difficult choices but sometimes the choice is not mine alone.
I feel like a spinning top going round in circles. What do i really want?
I want to just drop my baggage and run... but then the question of responsibility arises. How much then have i grown this past few months? I have heard but do i really know? I have experienced but have i really learnt from past mistakes?
Father I know that i am nothing without you. An empty vessel which only you can fill. Fill me with your presence, till my cup runneth over. I know that you see and know all that i've done. I know you see all of me. Change me then Father, do not give up on me. You know what is the best way to teach and correct me. I lay all at your feet and may you do as you wish with me... ...
Awaken and not asleep.
I made afew difficult choices but sometimes the choice is not mine alone.
I feel like a spinning top going round in circles. What do i really want?
I want to just drop my baggage and run... but then the question of responsibility arises. How much then have i grown this past few months? I have heard but do i really know? I have experienced but have i really learnt from past mistakes?
Father I know that i am nothing without you. An empty vessel which only you can fill. Fill me with your presence, till my cup runneth over. I know that you see and know all that i've done. I know you see all of me. Change me then Father, do not give up on me. You know what is the best way to teach and correct me. I lay all at your feet and may you do as you wish with me... ...
Monday, October 09, 2006
Blue and Moody
Woke up... not feeling awesome.
Not sure why...
Maybe i haven't completed what i set out to do last week hence the crap feeling?
I turned to God and to His word.
1 Peter 5:7
Casting all your cares on Him, for He cares for you.
I know that only He can fill this insecurity of mine, only He can uplift this down and dishearted heart of mine. Shall continue to pray and wait.. ...
As for now, i shall just continue to move and walk forward. I don't know what its up ahead. Could be good. Could be bad. Hmm.. but I know that God is walking beside me, so i need not fear. He knows what's ahead.
My finger is hurting right now as i am typing. Particularly my 3rd finger. Was trying to play the guitar the other day. Then i realised how hard you have to press the string just to get that nice 'ting' sound. My finger is so weak... press so hard still cannot get it right. Especially the D chord. Now i remember why i decide not to pick up guitar when i was 12. Maybe all i need is alittle more prac huh... ...
Oke! Half an hour more to prepare and walk to sch... May it be a fruitful day for the Lord. Have to do it with a pleasing heart for the Lord...
Not sure why...
Maybe i haven't completed what i set out to do last week hence the crap feeling?
I turned to God and to His word.
1 Peter 5:7
Casting all your cares on Him, for He cares for you.
I know that only He can fill this insecurity of mine, only He can uplift this down and dishearted heart of mine. Shall continue to pray and wait.. ...
As for now, i shall just continue to move and walk forward. I don't know what its up ahead. Could be good. Could be bad. Hmm.. but I know that God is walking beside me, so i need not fear. He knows what's ahead.
My finger is hurting right now as i am typing. Particularly my 3rd finger. Was trying to play the guitar the other day. Then i realised how hard you have to press the string just to get that nice 'ting' sound. My finger is so weak... press so hard still cannot get it right. Especially the D chord. Now i remember why i decide not to pick up guitar when i was 12. Maybe all i need is alittle more prac huh... ...
Oke! Half an hour more to prepare and walk to sch... May it be a fruitful day for the Lord. Have to do it with a pleasing heart for the Lord...
Thursday, October 05, 2006
How much do i believe
Today was reading on Hezekial when he was king over Israel. The things that he did so different from the many many many kings before... like he made a mark in History. Hmm... i can imagine breaking the tradition from the hundreds of years where pple were worshipping idols. Idols that are nothing but things that are crafted from human hands. The political upheaval must have been tremendous.
To gain a popular view from the multitude, or please God. The ambivalence of it all.
The changing of tradition means changing of mindset.
Our hands are indeed powerful tools.
What am i using it for?
Hmm.. if i look at a broader context, it would be what am i using my life to glorify God? If i really cared about God, what are the little little details that i will want to take note of?
Hezekial made a very sincere solemn prayer to God about the whole situation. How it seemed bleak and hopeless. At the same time acknowledging the soverign power of God.
God listened to 2 very important prayers that Hezekial made. One was when Israel was threatened by Assyrians where they mocked the nation and tried to demoralise them. I call it emotional weapon.
2nd was when Hezekial was about to die. He weaped and prayed for the Lord God to remember him as how he has followed closely in his walk with God. And God heared his prayer and EXTENDED his life by another 15 years!
One thing i learn... is that i should BELIEVE in my prayers. God is really listening and He'll do something about it. He's not just sitting and watching and nodding. He's the shepherd!
Sometimes i feel like a life sentence has already been made. Like when i flunk my exam, or like i made a dumb mistake, or a stupid decision. Like oh no... this is it... gone already... i made a dumb move and now i am... condemned or ... ... blah blah... but as from what i read, God really knows our hearts. Just talk to God daily, He'll do what He believes is best, what is just. Letting God give the outcome and let me not assume and predict or even conclude the outcome of the situation.
To gain a popular view from the multitude, or please God. The ambivalence of it all.
The changing of tradition means changing of mindset.
Our hands are indeed powerful tools.
What am i using it for?
Hmm.. if i look at a broader context, it would be what am i using my life to glorify God? If i really cared about God, what are the little little details that i will want to take note of?
Hezekial made a very sincere solemn prayer to God about the whole situation. How it seemed bleak and hopeless. At the same time acknowledging the soverign power of God.
God listened to 2 very important prayers that Hezekial made. One was when Israel was threatened by Assyrians where they mocked the nation and tried to demoralise them. I call it emotional weapon.
2nd was when Hezekial was about to die. He weaped and prayed for the Lord God to remember him as how he has followed closely in his walk with God. And God heared his prayer and EXTENDED his life by another 15 years!
One thing i learn... is that i should BELIEVE in my prayers. God is really listening and He'll do something about it. He's not just sitting and watching and nodding. He's the shepherd!
Sometimes i feel like a life sentence has already been made. Like when i flunk my exam, or like i made a dumb mistake, or a stupid decision. Like oh no... this is it... gone already... i made a dumb move and now i am... condemned or ... ... blah blah... but as from what i read, God really knows our hearts. Just talk to God daily, He'll do what He believes is best, what is just. Letting God give the outcome and let me not assume and predict or even conclude the outcome of the situation.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Reflect
Went out yst with a sister in Christ.
So nice of her to invite me out... it was a gd time of reflection.
Like makes me realise how much or how little i have progressed.
There are the good the bad, the sad and the happy.
But i guess what's important is through it all we shld stick close to God. God is faithful, always there... but are we clinging on Him. Am i seeking, am i looking towards him in all that i do. Sometimes i don't, and i'm still learning.
I am so thankful for another chance. That he trusts me enough to give me another go at life...
Just gonna pray for RAIN today! SO that business at the new outlet won't be so bz... or else i would be tired out and wouldn't want to do anything after that. Pray for strength too... dunno why feel so hungry nowadays... ...
So nice of her to invite me out... it was a gd time of reflection.
Like makes me realise how much or how little i have progressed.
There are the good the bad, the sad and the happy.
But i guess what's important is through it all we shld stick close to God. God is faithful, always there... but are we clinging on Him. Am i seeking, am i looking towards him in all that i do. Sometimes i don't, and i'm still learning.
I am so thankful for another chance. That he trusts me enough to give me another go at life...
Just gonna pray for RAIN today! SO that business at the new outlet won't be so bz... or else i would be tired out and wouldn't want to do anything after that. Pray for strength too... dunno why feel so hungry nowadays... ...
Monday, October 02, 2006
Updates!
23rd Sept... VIP arrival.
Holiday starts.
Must say that this holidays is VERY tiring!!!
Kinda exhausted actually... the sun was blazing...
But its really nice to be part of a family outing...
Hmm... God's timing is amazingly perfect. Let's see... Sunday, went airport and met a friend MS. She was so so upset that her bf was leaving!!! Eeps.. and yea.. just glad that i could invite her to have BBQ with us! Hmm.. hope it brighten up her day alittle.
I never actually talk to her... it just seems so coincidentally that i always bump into her... and when i do, i find out something interesting that relates me and her! Uh huh... and like we all know that God doesn't make this kinda coincidence happen for nothing. Hmm.. should catch up with her again some time soon... if time allows... ... ... ...
Sometimes, i get really disappointed... upset... agitated.. like why must upsetting things as such has to happen. I dun have the answers... sometimes... feel like banging on the wall.. life really aint a bed of roses... its not! Roses have torns yar?
Just so thankful for Jesus who is so merciful and kind... the only who truly understands and knows me... he is so pure forgiving and yet just. Always look at the cross and i wonder just wonder... what he saw in me that is so worth saving... a still small voice will whimper... am i worth it? what do you see so precious in me... what am i to you?... and all the answers are on that very same cross. *Linda heaves a sigh*
A few poem i came across... a very interesting one indeed... ...
A promise of yes that does turn to no, is a sad and painful review.
It runs through your mind, thoughts bad and unkind, self doubt displaces the truth.
You tend to accept your inner most faults instead of just looking toward pain.
You beat yourself down, your head to the ground the feeling just drives you insane.
So if you give your word, a promise to one, prepare to make it come true .
For if you turn sour, change your mind in the hour then you're painting the others world blue.
--- Stay true to your promises... it will make this easier for other around you.
Last night I said a little prayer
For all who are ill out there. For all who have no home at all, No place to call their lair.
I rememberd the hungry Who are dying without bread.
All who need medicine But received nothing instead.
I asked the Lord in His mercy To shower His blessings on them.
To move the hearts of others To share their bread with them.
Be compassionate And one day you will know.
That the Lord saw your kindness And will reward you so.
Holiday starts.
Must say that this holidays is VERY tiring!!!
Kinda exhausted actually... the sun was blazing...
But its really nice to be part of a family outing...
Hmm... God's timing is amazingly perfect. Let's see... Sunday, went airport and met a friend MS. She was so so upset that her bf was leaving!!! Eeps.. and yea.. just glad that i could invite her to have BBQ with us! Hmm.. hope it brighten up her day alittle.
I never actually talk to her... it just seems so coincidentally that i always bump into her... and when i do, i find out something interesting that relates me and her! Uh huh... and like we all know that God doesn't make this kinda coincidence happen for nothing. Hmm.. should catch up with her again some time soon... if time allows... ... ... ...
Sometimes, i get really disappointed... upset... agitated.. like why must upsetting things as such has to happen. I dun have the answers... sometimes... feel like banging on the wall.. life really aint a bed of roses... its not! Roses have torns yar?
Just so thankful for Jesus who is so merciful and kind... the only who truly understands and knows me... he is so pure forgiving and yet just. Always look at the cross and i wonder just wonder... what he saw in me that is so worth saving... a still small voice will whimper... am i worth it? what do you see so precious in me... what am i to you?... and all the answers are on that very same cross. *Linda heaves a sigh*
A few poem i came across... a very interesting one indeed... ...
A promise of yes that does turn to no, is a sad and painful review.
It runs through your mind, thoughts bad and unkind, self doubt displaces the truth.
You tend to accept your inner most faults instead of just looking toward pain.
You beat yourself down, your head to the ground the feeling just drives you insane.
So if you give your word, a promise to one, prepare to make it come true .
For if you turn sour, change your mind in the hour then you're painting the others world blue.
--- Stay true to your promises... it will make this easier for other around you.
Last night I said a little prayer
For all who are ill out there. For all who have no home at all, No place to call their lair.
I rememberd the hungry Who are dying without bread.
All who need medicine But received nothing instead.
I asked the Lord in His mercy To shower His blessings on them.
To move the hearts of others To share their bread with them.
Be compassionate And one day you will know.
That the Lord saw your kindness And will reward you so.
Friday, September 22, 2006
Good Morning Sunshine
Today got up about 5+ am... went for a run. Initially, i thought of just jogging for 15mins. Or... maybe even 10mins but lasted for a good 20 mins. I would really thank God for the good run today! The weather is awesome. Not hot, not too cold. There were a good number of cyclist and runners. After the 20 mins jog, didn't really feel any kick. So jogged again for an additional 5 to 10 mins. But even until now, i still feel no kick.
Even though i feel no kick, but i'm abit worried for my joints. I wouldn't want my legs to be aching like crazy the next day.. which normally happens. I will never forget the two painful incidents where the cramps were so bad.. that i honestly couldn't walk. Any sudden movements and i would feel like the muscle is tearing apart. Hmm... i already warm up and down, so hopefully it'll help. I coupled it with sit-ups and just afew push ups. Its been a loOoong while since i exercised for a full one solid hour. Although i feel no kick but ya... it is definitely satisfying and fulfilling to know that i have accomplished what i thought was impossible.
Oh... and really glad that i exercised today... coz last night i ate at cybercity with G. I had the curry beef brisket with rice. Anyone going there... please don't choose that dish. It's first NOT healthy... secondly not very tasty... (at least not to my liking). G said it tasted like... can beef. The rice was alot! So hmm... i believe today's exercise should make it up for it. Haha... ya... now i feel less guilty. Last night felt so bad for eating so much. Must watch what i eat nowadays. Graduation is coming up... must look my best for the pictures! *CHeeZe*
For the next few days, i would like to focus on God alone. Don't want to focus on my life or my problems... only make me wanna worry. Think of His goodness, think of His love.
Meditate on These Things
Philippians 4
8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.
9 The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.
Upcoming things to do later in the day.
--> Wash Car Day!!!
--> Unicell BBQ day!!!
yippie! So happy... hope i remember to bring my digital camera. *snap*snap*
Even though i feel no kick, but i'm abit worried for my joints. I wouldn't want my legs to be aching like crazy the next day.. which normally happens. I will never forget the two painful incidents where the cramps were so bad.. that i honestly couldn't walk. Any sudden movements and i would feel like the muscle is tearing apart. Hmm... i already warm up and down, so hopefully it'll help. I coupled it with sit-ups and just afew push ups. Its been a loOoong while since i exercised for a full one solid hour. Although i feel no kick but ya... it is definitely satisfying and fulfilling to know that i have accomplished what i thought was impossible.
Oh... and really glad that i exercised today... coz last night i ate at cybercity with G. I had the curry beef brisket with rice. Anyone going there... please don't choose that dish. It's first NOT healthy... secondly not very tasty... (at least not to my liking). G said it tasted like... can beef. The rice was alot! So hmm... i believe today's exercise should make it up for it. Haha... ya... now i feel less guilty. Last night felt so bad for eating so much. Must watch what i eat nowadays. Graduation is coming up... must look my best for the pictures! *CHeeZe*
For the next few days, i would like to focus on God alone. Don't want to focus on my life or my problems... only make me wanna worry. Think of His goodness, think of His love.
Meditate on These Things
Philippians 4
8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.
9 The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.
Upcoming things to do later in the day.
--> Wash Car Day!!!
--> Unicell BBQ day!!!
yippie! So happy... hope i remember to bring my digital camera. *snap*snap*
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
When all runs dry
Today was kind tired...
After i blogged, i went to do my laundry...
did something different for 2 friends today. I personally whipped sth quick for them to eat! It wasn't anything fanciful, but hope it kept their stomachs satisfied.
After which i rushed down to the city, collect mooncake from my boss. So kind of her. *GleaMs* Yay got mooncake to eat. I moved on quickly to the old shop, collect my jacket which i left behind last week, and went to the library to read alittle.
After that went to study. Hmm... quite a tiring day... Just when i tot this was how it was gonna end... mummy called AGAIN!!! Panick hit... and i was like... argh.. dooms day is here... i know that that's negative thinking. But... yea... every slight little thing just makes me agitated after that. Some just hit the nail on the head... ... ... BleH!
i went home, called back and ended up as some motherly concern she has... u know normal jittery mom questions.
Tomorrow, a start of a new day. Wanna try running again.
Lose the calories, gain more energy... most importantly keep healthy
zzZzzz signing off!
After i blogged, i went to do my laundry...
did something different for 2 friends today. I personally whipped sth quick for them to eat! It wasn't anything fanciful, but hope it kept their stomachs satisfied.
After which i rushed down to the city, collect mooncake from my boss. So kind of her. *GleaMs* Yay got mooncake to eat. I moved on quickly to the old shop, collect my jacket which i left behind last week, and went to the library to read alittle.
After that went to study. Hmm... quite a tiring day... Just when i tot this was how it was gonna end... mummy called AGAIN!!! Panick hit... and i was like... argh.. dooms day is here... i know that that's negative thinking. But... yea... every slight little thing just makes me agitated after that. Some just hit the nail on the head... ... ... BleH!
i went home, called back and ended up as some motherly concern she has... u know normal jittery mom questions.
Tomorrow, a start of a new day. Wanna try running again.
Lose the calories, gain more energy... most importantly keep healthy
zzZzzz signing off!
made an example
I woke up early today. *GleAms* No work this week, but next week would be alittle more busier as boss said that she probably will assign me more duties. HmMm... which means today i should try to do as much as i can for my tutorials, readings and assignment.
Reflect back to Sunday, was really glad to see the music team come this far. To have 2 pianist , two string instruments (guitar and bass), drummer and singers. Yup, instruments are instruments but how are we gonna use them? It's amazing to see how everybody is a part of it... yup, i'm really glad to be given this opportunity to serve God. It's been a priviledge to be part of it every month... even though i think i can barely play...
Monday started off alright, but tutorial for CF (corporate finance) was rather difficult. So many calculations... and you can just see the division of quality in students.. the good are REALLY good. Like 10 minutes finish calculating everything... and the rest are still struggling half way(like me)... need more practice...finals is 70%. Got back my results for my business module. kinda disappointed that i was off by afew marks to get a gd grade... hmmm hope my assignment can make up for it.
Tuesday... which was yesterday, worked out alright. Didn't do much though becoz i slept my afternoon away. Was tired out... felt that it was largely due to the lack of exercise. There are some events coming up in afew days time. The bbq event to be precise. Got quite afew things scheduled on that day itself...just have to commit it all to God.
Today!! Hmm.. no work & no school. Yippie.. haha.. can do whatever i want today! Started the day with bible reading... cause like yesterday there was afew car accidents on the road. And.. it kinda once again reminded me how fragile life really is. I mean... if i were to have an encounter with God, I will want to be prepared. My soul to be fed. To be faithful servants, fervant in keeping the lamp burning and patiently waiting upon the Lord.
After doing my bible reading, i went for a run... quite a gd start... although i couldn't run for very long. Lost stamina... must keep training to get back in shape...
haiz... mummy just called. I dunno why she starts it off by saying sth mean or negative. I felt there was a better approach to handling it. But who am i to tell her what to say or how to put things across. She's the boss after all... i saw all the boss characteristics coming out... not one of motherly love. Abit sad... sad that i allowed it to get to me.. and i repelled and was very defensive. Not saying if there are issues, we should avoid bringing it out... but she was rather aggressive... and it makes me wanna run away everytime she calls.
Anyway, putting that aside, i still love my mom and knows that she cares alot. And yes... she is right, i ought to call home more often... maybe start next week. Coz right now... if i call... reason will be --> to make mom happy. Not becoz i myself want to call home.
=) *smiLes*
Will try to hold the smile throughout the day and not be dismayed.
Thoughts for the day.
how a conversation can ruin one's morning...
it doesn't have to be an explosive event.
Just a small tiny little issue as such...
Reflect back to Sunday, was really glad to see the music team come this far. To have 2 pianist , two string instruments (guitar and bass), drummer and singers. Yup, instruments are instruments but how are we gonna use them? It's amazing to see how everybody is a part of it... yup, i'm really glad to be given this opportunity to serve God. It's been a priviledge to be part of it every month... even though i think i can barely play...
Monday started off alright, but tutorial for CF (corporate finance) was rather difficult. So many calculations... and you can just see the division of quality in students.. the good are REALLY good. Like 10 minutes finish calculating everything... and the rest are still struggling half way(like me)... need more practice...finals is 70%. Got back my results for my business module. kinda disappointed that i was off by afew marks to get a gd grade... hmmm hope my assignment can make up for it.
Tuesday... which was yesterday, worked out alright. Didn't do much though becoz i slept my afternoon away. Was tired out... felt that it was largely due to the lack of exercise. There are some events coming up in afew days time. The bbq event to be precise. Got quite afew things scheduled on that day itself...just have to commit it all to God.
Today!! Hmm.. no work & no school. Yippie.. haha.. can do whatever i want today! Started the day with bible reading... cause like yesterday there was afew car accidents on the road. And.. it kinda once again reminded me how fragile life really is. I mean... if i were to have an encounter with God, I will want to be prepared. My soul to be fed. To be faithful servants, fervant in keeping the lamp burning and patiently waiting upon the Lord.
After doing my bible reading, i went for a run... quite a gd start... although i couldn't run for very long. Lost stamina... must keep training to get back in shape...
haiz... mummy just called. I dunno why she starts it off by saying sth mean or negative. I felt there was a better approach to handling it. But who am i to tell her what to say or how to put things across. She's the boss after all... i saw all the boss characteristics coming out... not one of motherly love. Abit sad... sad that i allowed it to get to me.. and i repelled and was very defensive. Not saying if there are issues, we should avoid bringing it out... but she was rather aggressive... and it makes me wanna run away everytime she calls.
Anyway, putting that aside, i still love my mom and knows that she cares alot. And yes... she is right, i ought to call home more often... maybe start next week. Coz right now... if i call... reason will be --> to make mom happy. Not becoz i myself want to call home.
=) *smiLes*
Will try to hold the smile throughout the day and not be dismayed.
Thoughts for the day.
how a conversation can ruin one's morning...
it doesn't have to be an explosive event.
Just a small tiny little issue as such...
Friday, September 15, 2006
where cross roads meet
Today, went out to eat. Was initially waiting for TT to come home so that can ask her to join us for dinner. Giggles, praise God that we decided to go Hawken to eat because, TT was there with C. After C left, M and D surprised us by joining us for dinner. After which, we brought TT back home and arranged to meet M and S. M and gang turned up instead. But it was good!
Isn't great how God place pple ard...
A platform for support, encouragement...
I love this kind of surprises. Because to me, its like God place people ard to check on us. It's nice... and to just interacting with others. HmmMMm... no matter what. Must always check my own thoughts and actions. For the good of God and others around.
=)
Glad that some people dun feel like a lamp post. Really thankful for that. Heehee. I don't really like others to feel uncomfortable around me. Nothing has changed. I'm still me.
Still have the tendency to make mistakes and fall. So please, in love and kindness correct me if i'm wrong.
Thanks to all!!!
Isn't great how God place pple ard...
A platform for support, encouragement...
I love this kind of surprises. Because to me, its like God place people ard to check on us. It's nice... and to just interacting with others. HmmMMm... no matter what. Must always check my own thoughts and actions. For the good of God and others around.
=)
Glad that some people dun feel like a lamp post. Really thankful for that. Heehee. I don't really like others to feel uncomfortable around me. Nothing has changed. I'm still me.
Still have the tendency to make mistakes and fall. So please, in love and kindness correct me if i'm wrong.
Thanks to all!!!
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Dispersion of light within
It's really tiring to monitor and observe the thoughts that go through your head.
The multifarious thoughts that enter your head in a second.
So tedious to make sure that the thoughts are well-mannered, not shameful and all.
If thoughts are bad, then it should be becoz the behavious needs to be corrected, becoz its not right before the Lord and not one of self-judgement, perception, bias or stereotypist.
Doable with the help of the Holy Spirit, and the desire in heart to honour God.
It is hard not to pass a judgement or a comment based on a certain action, with gossips and media or singing the same tune. Where the Internet allows us to communicate our thoughts across to one another without giving what we want to say with much thought.
But just becoz its hard, doesn't mean the we stop trying. Just becoz we fail on the first attempt we give up...
Romans 5:3-5 (New International Version)
3Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;
4perseverance, character; and character, hope.
5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
The multifarious thoughts that enter your head in a second.
So tedious to make sure that the thoughts are well-mannered, not shameful and all.
If thoughts are bad, then it should be becoz the behavious needs to be corrected, becoz its not right before the Lord and not one of self-judgement, perception, bias or stereotypist.
Doable with the help of the Holy Spirit, and the desire in heart to honour God.
It is hard not to pass a judgement or a comment based on a certain action, with gossips and media or singing the same tune. Where the Internet allows us to communicate our thoughts across to one another without giving what we want to say with much thought.
But just becoz its hard, doesn't mean the we stop trying. Just becoz we fail on the first attempt we give up...
Romans 5:3-5 (New International Version)
3Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;
4perseverance, character; and character, hope.
5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
To-do list
List of things to do:
-Brother's bday card (must send out)
- Collect new hp
- Fix my spectacles (the screw came off)
- File my notes (they're all over the place)
- Catch up with tute (abit lagging)
- Clean up my room (messy again)
This week hasn't been particularly great. With the tests and results flowing in. Not something very delightful. Have started on another book, "many young women's battle" Another good read. Got this book from pastor on my 21st birthday. WAs looking for my nail cutter in the treasure box. But couldn't find it. Instead the book caught my eye. So... decided to read it. It sorts of help lighten things up abit. Put my mind off other things for awhile.
I'm looking forward to the upcoming holiday. yay... ...
-Brother's bday card (must send out)
- Collect new hp
- Fix my spectacles (the screw came off)
- File my notes (they're all over the place)
- Catch up with tute (abit lagging)
- Clean up my room (messy again)
This week hasn't been particularly great. With the tests and results flowing in. Not something very delightful. Have started on another book, "many young women's battle" Another good read. Got this book from pastor on my 21st birthday. WAs looking for my nail cutter in the treasure box. But couldn't find it. Instead the book caught my eye. So... decided to read it. It sorts of help lighten things up abit. Put my mind off other things for awhile.
I'm looking forward to the upcoming holiday. yay... ...
Friday, September 08, 2006
"Bee Box"
In this small box, my love,
you’ll not find a ring,
but instead, a brave, little bee.
He’ll be dead by morn, having given his life
defending his flowers against me.
I felt his stingwhile picking the small, purple pansies
growing wild along the roadside,
in hopes of an afternoon bouquet for you.
And I grieved the sting,more for him than me,
knowing full well the price he paid
for my small pain.
And I allowed him his victory,
leaving his flowers as a memory,
and brought you insteadthis brave, little bee,who proves there is love
even in the smallestof things.—Lowell Parker
Sorry if my last entry didn't make alot sense... was busy!
you’ll not find a ring,
but instead, a brave, little bee.
He’ll be dead by morn, having given his life
defending his flowers against me.
I felt his stingwhile picking the small, purple pansies
growing wild along the roadside,
in hopes of an afternoon bouquet for you.
And I grieved the sting,more for him than me,
knowing full well the price he paid
for my small pain.
And I allowed him his victory,
leaving his flowers as a memory,
and brought you insteadthis brave, little bee,who proves there is love
even in the smallestof things.—Lowell Parker
Sorry if my last entry didn't make alot sense... was busy!
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Mid Exams...
Went to work yesterday. Had to work extra hours cause a colleague got pregnent (she's married... in case u were thinking otherwise).
Morning, screw of my spectacles fell out. Grr... well... thankfully it happened at home. The screw is so tiny, i would be even more frustrated if it fell on the road or sth. I'll be frantic and handicapped without my specs.
Late for work. Didn't realise that the jam at the road was this bad... reminds me of the PIE or AYE back home. Hmm.. saw two asian man at the bus stop. They were talking quite loudly. One or them is a Malaysian. Two grown man talking about their frustrations about work and looking for jobs... made me think about work in general. Like, work can be both fun and depressing. They'll be many frustrations and disappointments along the way. More reason for me to build a stronger foundation with God.
Boss never scold despite me being 10min late for work. Phew. But, there were so many new things to learn. ANd, the weather change has seen an increase in the number of drink orders. Bustling once again. Head, shoulder knees and toes... have to coordinate well and be quick.
Morning, screw of my spectacles fell out. Grr... well... thankfully it happened at home. The screw is so tiny, i would be even more frustrated if it fell on the road or sth. I'll be frantic and handicapped without my specs.
Late for work. Didn't realise that the jam at the road was this bad... reminds me of the PIE or AYE back home. Hmm.. saw two asian man at the bus stop. They were talking quite loudly. One or them is a Malaysian. Two grown man talking about their frustrations about work and looking for jobs... made me think about work in general. Like, work can be both fun and depressing. They'll be many frustrations and disappointments along the way. More reason for me to build a stronger foundation with God.
Boss never scold despite me being 10min late for work. Phew. But, there were so many new things to learn. ANd, the weather change has seen an increase in the number of drink orders. Bustling once again. Head, shoulder knees and toes... have to coordinate well and be quick.
Monday, September 04, 2006
Be sleepless no more
Psalm 127:22
It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows; for so He gives His beloved sleep.
Me, guilty for the times i made statements as such
“I slept only for two hours — I was trying to improve my presentation.”
"I gotta study more, an hour more would be good."
The Bible says that God “gives His beloved sleep”. Who are His beloved? You and I! Because we are in Christ, we are His beloved. (Ephesians 1:6, 2 Thessalonians 2:13)
God is the one who builds your career and guards your marriage. He is the one who watches over your children and future. He is the one who guards your bank account, and watches over your financial investments and business ventures. You are not the one!
So don’t worry and stay up late as if you are the source of the increase or the one who has the power to make things happen and save the situation.
God is the one and He says to you, “My beloved child, throw that care, that burden to Me and go to sleep.” For when you are sleeping, He is working on your situation. He, who neither slumbers nor sleeps (Psalm 121:3–4), works the night shift for you as you sleep!
But because we are such doers and performers, it is hard for us to let go and let God take over. But when we actually do, casting all our cares, anxieties, worries and concerns once and for all into His hands, we will see how He cares for us affectionately and watchfully. (1 Peter 5:7) We will see Him taking care of our problems and working things out for our good. (Romans 8:28)
So trust your Father’s love for you. Cast your cares on Him and have no more sleepless nights!
Something along the same lines as S shared on Saturday. Surrender all.
It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows; for so He gives His beloved sleep.
Me, guilty for the times i made statements as such
“I slept only for two hours — I was trying to improve my presentation.”
"I gotta study more, an hour more would be good."
The Bible says that God “gives His beloved sleep”. Who are His beloved? You and I! Because we are in Christ, we are His beloved. (Ephesians 1:6, 2 Thessalonians 2:13)
God is the one who builds your career and guards your marriage. He is the one who watches over your children and future. He is the one who guards your bank account, and watches over your financial investments and business ventures. You are not the one!
So don’t worry and stay up late as if you are the source of the increase or the one who has the power to make things happen and save the situation.
God is the one and He says to you, “My beloved child, throw that care, that burden to Me and go to sleep.” For when you are sleeping, He is working on your situation. He, who neither slumbers nor sleeps (Psalm 121:3–4), works the night shift for you as you sleep!
But because we are such doers and performers, it is hard for us to let go and let God take over. But when we actually do, casting all our cares, anxieties, worries and concerns once and for all into His hands, we will see how He cares for us affectionately and watchfully. (1 Peter 5:7) We will see Him taking care of our problems and working things out for our good. (Romans 8:28)
So trust your Father’s love for you. Cast your cares on Him and have no more sleepless nights!
Something along the same lines as S shared on Saturday. Surrender all.
Friday, September 01, 2006
Hebrews 10:23
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.
Got 2 more mid semesters to go.
Completed one on Thursday - Conflict and Negotiations. First time taking a business module. Impression after the paper - 100 times easier than i perceived it to be.
Afew factors probably influenced the questions. Lecturer was sick and the textbooks only came in last week.
Managerial Cost Accounting tomorrow.
11th Sept Corporate Finance.
A little part of me still fearful about exams... I must exercise faith. There is a God, a God who is in control.. ...
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.
Got 2 more mid semesters to go.
Completed one on Thursday - Conflict and Negotiations. First time taking a business module. Impression after the paper - 100 times easier than i perceived it to be.
Afew factors probably influenced the questions. Lecturer was sick and the textbooks only came in last week.
Managerial Cost Accounting tomorrow.
11th Sept Corporate Finance.
A little part of me still fearful about exams... I must exercise faith. There is a God, a God who is in control.. ...
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Jesus shall take the highest honour
Jesus shall take the highest praise
Let all earth join heaven in exalting
The name which is above all other names
Let's bow the knee in humble adoration
For at his name, every knee shall bow
Let every tongue confess,He is Christ God's only son,
Sovereign Lord, we give you glory now
For all honour and blessing and power
Belongs to you, belongs to you
All honour and blessing and power
belongs to you, belongs to you
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the living God.
Jesus shall take the highest praise
Let all earth join heaven in exalting
The name which is above all other names
Let's bow the knee in humble adoration
For at his name, every knee shall bow
Let every tongue confess,He is Christ God's only son,
Sovereign Lord, we give you glory now
For all honour and blessing and power
Belongs to you, belongs to you
All honour and blessing and power
belongs to you, belongs to you
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the living God.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Unheard Conversation
Today did alot of reading... so much to study. Applied for a day off tml just so that i can study more. Grr...
Tomorrow marks a significant day for a decision to be made. Most likely gonna drop one module. Hopefully it will free up more time to study, after all that was the main motive for coming over.
Have been distracted by afew factors here and there. Super nice of lady boss to call me and reassure me that she has found a replacement and asked me to take it easy. She shared part of her life with me as well, about how our life is a journey and made up of so many important valuable things in life than just studies. She said that success takes on many perspective and that there are many who have strive and excelled in managerial roles. However, she did mentioned that they were unmarried individuals as they have given so much of their time to achieving what they want in life. I do not disagree. She is right. To say that only studying can get me where i want to go is like peering through a pinhole. The horizons are much more than that. However, it is a stepping milestone. A ticket for me to open more doors of oppotunities. (Quoted from my Mom.)
However, i have to also critically evaluate the reasons for me to stay. It shld be objective, not clouded by emotions. Less than 24 hours and i decide to drop or just stick to the module. Grrr... *Linda grits her teeth.
Let me re enact the thoughts that run through my head. I shall use two Linda's. Linda1 and Linda2
Linda1: Never thought of being an accountant before because my parents didn't like the idea of me being an accountant. But i never try, how would i know that i don't like it. Besides its only 6 months. Maybe i will like it?
Linda2: You must be nuts. You're doing Auditing and Managerial Accounting... you tell me if you enjoy it anot.
Linda1: But studying and working is two different things!
Linda2: Don't kid yourself. If studying it already is as boring as it is, imagine working!!
Linda1: Not like i totally enjoy finance also...
Linda2: Ya true, but Finance opens up so many other possibility as comapred to accounting. Ah... and you already so tired doing one major and you're thinking of doing another one. Before you know it, you're gonna want to study law, psychology and art. All of which you have interest too. So its never gonna end. Stress level would run high.
Money would run dry.
Linda1: Ya... you're making sense. Learning is a never ending phase. I study just so that i can open the opportunity of doors. But staying here is pretty cool too don't you think?
Linda2: Correct so just like your mother say. Study one more major only if you're SERIOUSLY thinking of getting a PR here. So have you seriously considered working here?
Linda1: No.
Linda2: Then go back home! Besides if you really detest working back Home. You can always save up come back here and do a masters... agree?
Linda1: Ya... Linda2 always makes alot of sense. Oke.
I Will Be Here
Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I will be here
I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here
Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here
I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here
I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me
Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here
Oh, I will be here.
Tomorrow marks a significant day for a decision to be made. Most likely gonna drop one module. Hopefully it will free up more time to study, after all that was the main motive for coming over.
Have been distracted by afew factors here and there. Super nice of lady boss to call me and reassure me that she has found a replacement and asked me to take it easy. She shared part of her life with me as well, about how our life is a journey and made up of so many important valuable things in life than just studies. She said that success takes on many perspective and that there are many who have strive and excelled in managerial roles. However, she did mentioned that they were unmarried individuals as they have given so much of their time to achieving what they want in life. I do not disagree. She is right. To say that only studying can get me where i want to go is like peering through a pinhole. The horizons are much more than that. However, it is a stepping milestone. A ticket for me to open more doors of oppotunities. (Quoted from my Mom.)
However, i have to also critically evaluate the reasons for me to stay. It shld be objective, not clouded by emotions. Less than 24 hours and i decide to drop or just stick to the module. Grrr... *Linda grits her teeth.
Let me re enact the thoughts that run through my head. I shall use two Linda's. Linda1 and Linda2
Linda1: Never thought of being an accountant before because my parents didn't like the idea of me being an accountant. But i never try, how would i know that i don't like it. Besides its only 6 months. Maybe i will like it?
Linda2: You must be nuts. You're doing Auditing and Managerial Accounting... you tell me if you enjoy it anot.
Linda1: But studying and working is two different things!
Linda2: Don't kid yourself. If studying it already is as boring as it is, imagine working!!
Linda1: Not like i totally enjoy finance also...
Linda2: Ya true, but Finance opens up so many other possibility as comapred to accounting. Ah... and you already so tired doing one major and you're thinking of doing another one. Before you know it, you're gonna want to study law, psychology and art. All of which you have interest too. So its never gonna end. Stress level would run high.
Money would run dry.
Linda1: Ya... you're making sense. Learning is a never ending phase. I study just so that i can open the opportunity of doors. But staying here is pretty cool too don't you think?
Linda2: Correct so just like your mother say. Study one more major only if you're SERIOUSLY thinking of getting a PR here. So have you seriously considered working here?
Linda1: No.
Linda2: Then go back home! Besides if you really detest working back Home. You can always save up come back here and do a masters... agree?
Linda1: Ya... Linda2 always makes alot of sense. Oke.
I Will Be Here
Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I will be here
I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here
Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here
I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here
I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me
Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here
Oh, I will be here.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
A voice that yearns to be heard
Today, i practically have no voice to speak. There were several situations which i really wanted talk and be heard but... *Squeak*squeak* is all that is coming out... Reminds me of some rusty old machine that needs to be tuned or oiled.
But i guess its a nice change, challenges pple to speak more and i keep quiet and listen.
Glad that my throat doesn't hurt that much. Fever has gone down.
Since i'm at the topic on voice. Shall blog abit about it.
I think its important to say what you really feel. If you don't say, how would other pple know? It's good to tell other people your thoughts. Makes room for improvement.
At the same time, i think its important to think before you say what you really want to say. It shouldn't be something said out of impulse or becoz of anger. Many a times, what we say influence or affect the other party. So yes. Being mindful of what we say.
Finally if you're doubtful of your own answer, then don't answer at all. It's perfectly fine to not give an answer. Haha.. think this is really for me. Like i would always feel that i need to answer every question that is given to me. Like the exam, don't know how to answer but still must attempt to answer. Maybe i don't have the answers right now, maybe i need more time to think about it. I know that there are ways which God can direct me to answer the many questions i have.
But i guess its a nice change, challenges pple to speak more and i keep quiet and listen.
Glad that my throat doesn't hurt that much. Fever has gone down.
Since i'm at the topic on voice. Shall blog abit about it.
I think its important to say what you really feel. If you don't say, how would other pple know? It's good to tell other people your thoughts. Makes room for improvement.
At the same time, i think its important to think before you say what you really want to say. It shouldn't be something said out of impulse or becoz of anger. Many a times, what we say influence or affect the other party. So yes. Being mindful of what we say.
Finally if you're doubtful of your own answer, then don't answer at all. It's perfectly fine to not give an answer. Haha.. think this is really for me. Like i would always feel that i need to answer every question that is given to me. Like the exam, don't know how to answer but still must attempt to answer. Maybe i don't have the answers right now, maybe i need more time to think about it. I know that there are ways which God can direct me to answer the many questions i have.
Monday, August 21, 2006
Monday Morning
1Kings 22: 6-8
6 So the king of Israel brought together the prophets—about four hundred men—and asked them, "Shall I go to war against Ramoth Gilead, or shall I refrain?"
"Go," they answered, "for the Lord will give it into the king's hand."
7 But Jehoshaphat asked, "Is there not a prophet of the LORD here whom we can inquire of?"
8 The king of Israel answered Jehoshaphat, "There is still one man through whom we can inquire of the LORD, but I hate him because he never prophesies anything good about me, but always bad. He is Micaiah son of Imlah."
"The king should not say that," Jehoshaphat replied.
Ahab during this point of time was the King of Israel. He inquired if he should hence go forth and attack Ramoth Gilead. He inquired of 400 prophets, but none were of the Lord.
Guess many times when I face a problem, there are tons of solution, but which way is of the Lord. Which way does He wants me to turn?
There is still one man through whom we can inquire of the LORD, but I hate him because he never prophesies anything good about me, but always bad. He is Micaiah son of Imlah.
"The king should not say that," Jehoshaphat replied.
Isn't it true how we get angry with people becoz they never say anything good? It's always hard to hear others criticise and even harder to look at it objectively and positively.
It is but amazing how Jehoshaphat took the stand and told the king not to say what he said. He risked being hated by the king himself by choosing to be on the Lord's side instead of agreeing with Ahab. The courage it takes to stand up for what is right when the whole world sings a different and opposite view is huge. One of the struggles of life... to be in the world but not of the world.... ...
6 So the king of Israel brought together the prophets—about four hundred men—and asked them, "Shall I go to war against Ramoth Gilead, or shall I refrain?"
"Go," they answered, "for the Lord will give it into the king's hand."
7 But Jehoshaphat asked, "Is there not a prophet of the LORD here whom we can inquire of?"
8 The king of Israel answered Jehoshaphat, "There is still one man through whom we can inquire of the LORD, but I hate him because he never prophesies anything good about me, but always bad. He is Micaiah son of Imlah."
"The king should not say that," Jehoshaphat replied.
Ahab during this point of time was the King of Israel. He inquired if he should hence go forth and attack Ramoth Gilead. He inquired of 400 prophets, but none were of the Lord.
Guess many times when I face a problem, there are tons of solution, but which way is of the Lord. Which way does He wants me to turn?
There is still one man through whom we can inquire of the LORD, but I hate him because he never prophesies anything good about me, but always bad. He is Micaiah son of Imlah.
"The king should not say that," Jehoshaphat replied.
Isn't it true how we get angry with people becoz they never say anything good? It's always hard to hear others criticise and even harder to look at it objectively and positively.
It is but amazing how Jehoshaphat took the stand and told the king not to say what he said. He risked being hated by the king himself by choosing to be on the Lord's side instead of agreeing with Ahab. The courage it takes to stand up for what is right when the whole world sings a different and opposite view is huge. One of the struggles of life... to be in the world but not of the world.... ...
Sunday, August 20, 2006
With All I Am
Key: DVerse 1:
D A/C# Bm
Into Your hands I commit again
Bm/A G A D
All I am for You Lord
A/C# Bm
You hold my world in the palm of Your hands
Bm/A G A Em7 Asus
And I am Yours Forever
A D A/C# G/B
Jesus, I believe in You
D/F# F#m G
Jesus, I belong to You
Em
You’re the reason that I live
Asus A
The reason that I sing
D
With all I am
Verse 2:
D A/C# Bm
I walk with You wherever You will go
Bm/A G A D
Through tears and joy I’ll trust in You
A/C# Bm
And I will live In all of Your ways
Bm/A G A Em7
And Your promi – ses for - ever
God sure knows our heart. Sometimes, i find it hard to phantom what a great and mighty God we serve. One who loves and gives freely and yet just and powerful. What a priviledge it is to be called His children.
Sometimes, we break our promise and we attribute it to special circumstance situations or cases. But when God promises, it never changes. No. It does not change with his mood ir anything of that sort. When he promises, he sticks to it be it 10 years or 20 years down the road. So its important to claim his promises and not doubt!
He has Angels watching over us
Psalm 91:10–11
10 “No evil shall befall you, nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
11 for He shall give His angels charge over you, to keep you in all your ways.”
Monday, August 14, 2006
Never Alone.
Monday's... here again.
Went for lecture and tutorial. Was lost... and i did feel like i was dumb for not understanding what the lecturer was trying to teach. Went for tute and after which, went up to the tute to clarify some questions. There were afew other students who were talking to the tute. So we just stood behind and listened. They were actually giving feedback abt the lecturer. It appears that we aren't the only ones struggling. I figured about 80% of the students has got question marks on top of their heads. We ought to have our speech bubbles made visible. He can't teach! Argh... what am i gonna do... sigh*
Anyway, despite the difficulties, it is of no excuse to be slack in this module. More reason to try even harder.
Feeling abit letargic though. It's only 3 in the afternoon. My body is screaming for coffee... but must refrain... cannot give in to the flesh.
Will probably rest later... study again tonight. The never ending task of studying... ... welcome to the world of a student.
Went for lecture and tutorial. Was lost... and i did feel like i was dumb for not understanding what the lecturer was trying to teach. Went for tute and after which, went up to the tute to clarify some questions. There were afew other students who were talking to the tute. So we just stood behind and listened. They were actually giving feedback abt the lecturer. It appears that we aren't the only ones struggling. I figured about 80% of the students has got question marks on top of their heads. We ought to have our speech bubbles made visible. He can't teach! Argh... what am i gonna do... sigh*
Anyway, despite the difficulties, it is of no excuse to be slack in this module. More reason to try even harder.
Feeling abit letargic though. It's only 3 in the afternoon. My body is screaming for coffee... but must refrain... cannot give in to the flesh.
Will probably rest later... study again tonight. The never ending task of studying... ... welcome to the world of a student.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
An Enjoyable day at school
Alittle update about myself through a Q&A session with yours truly(me).
Q: What are you doing now?
A: I'm currently taking 4 subjects when all that is required of me is just 3 subject. All 4 of the subjects are of level 3 (highly challenging).
Why am i taking 4 subjects when i only need 3?
I have one compulsory module called Corporate Finance. THe other two are electives.
I am considering doing a double major. If i decide to do a double major, i should use my electives to do accounting subjects. However, i also want to do this Business course called Conflict and Negotiations. Have more interest in that area than accounting. Also, its gonna be less taxing on myself considering that Corporate Finance is already using up 70% of my brain.
I am left with three options:
1) Do all 4. Very taxing... but still a possible option.
2) Just stick to original plan, do single major and take sth less taxing
3) Do the double major....
Today i went for my Conflict and Negotiations tutorial. There's tute once every 2 weeks. So today was my first. I went for today's lesson feeling kinda lost... lonely... cause i don't know anybody who's doing this course.
Went in, sat in one corner of the computer lab. Then the teacher talked about pairing up and introducing yourself to the person. From a pair, to group of 4s to groups of 8 and so on. Upon hearing that, i got kinda tense... like oke who to pair up with?
Majority of the people in class are ang mohs. So anyway, one guy stood up and sat beside and introduced himself. It was real cool... like the conversation was mainly about like what i miss about Singapore and stuff. He came to Singapore but it was a stop over. He drove around and liked the clean Singapore. So i told him about Singapore being a "fine city" and the well known king of fruit called durian. ANyway, the teacher came around and joined in the conversation with us. Haha... talked about food oh glorious food. I guess i talked abt food becoz it was 12pm. LUNCH TIME! First time being able to converse with the ang mohs. It changed my impression quite abit. Like some of them are really hardworking and open! I guess that's one of the many reasons for coming here. For the diversity.
After pairing up we went into a group of 4s. The two other guys joined in. They were really interested in knowing like what i have got to say. So i just kept talking. Haha... quite interesting to hear their views as well. And then we went into 8! In the other group there is this other Singaporean! Haha.. so happy. and like yar... i recalled that i met her during orientation here! No wonder she looks so familiar. And i even got her telephone number during orientation. Just that i never keep in touch with her. Too many new friends at one time can be very overwhealming. Hard to give your attention to each one of them.
We also did a role play on like how different pple will react to a same situation. I did it with 3 of the ang moh guys. Haha.. think i made the class laugh alittle. Won't spill it out over here what i exactly did during role play. But yea. It was quite interesting.
Really glad for today. Today is a happy and interesting day.
Q: What are you doing now?
A: I'm currently taking 4 subjects when all that is required of me is just 3 subject. All 4 of the subjects are of level 3 (highly challenging).
Why am i taking 4 subjects when i only need 3?
I have one compulsory module called Corporate Finance. THe other two are electives.
I am considering doing a double major. If i decide to do a double major, i should use my electives to do accounting subjects. However, i also want to do this Business course called Conflict and Negotiations. Have more interest in that area than accounting. Also, its gonna be less taxing on myself considering that Corporate Finance is already using up 70% of my brain.
I am left with three options:
1) Do all 4. Very taxing... but still a possible option.
2) Just stick to original plan, do single major and take sth less taxing
3) Do the double major....
Today i went for my Conflict and Negotiations tutorial. There's tute once every 2 weeks. So today was my first. I went for today's lesson feeling kinda lost... lonely... cause i don't know anybody who's doing this course.
Went in, sat in one corner of the computer lab. Then the teacher talked about pairing up and introducing yourself to the person. From a pair, to group of 4s to groups of 8 and so on. Upon hearing that, i got kinda tense... like oke who to pair up with?
Majority of the people in class are ang mohs. So anyway, one guy stood up and sat beside and introduced himself. It was real cool... like the conversation was mainly about like what i miss about Singapore and stuff. He came to Singapore but it was a stop over. He drove around and liked the clean Singapore. So i told him about Singapore being a "fine city" and the well known king of fruit called durian. ANyway, the teacher came around and joined in the conversation with us. Haha... talked about food oh glorious food. I guess i talked abt food becoz it was 12pm. LUNCH TIME! First time being able to converse with the ang mohs. It changed my impression quite abit. Like some of them are really hardworking and open! I guess that's one of the many reasons for coming here. For the diversity.
After pairing up we went into a group of 4s. The two other guys joined in. They were really interested in knowing like what i have got to say. So i just kept talking. Haha... quite interesting to hear their views as well. And then we went into 8! In the other group there is this other Singaporean! Haha.. so happy. and like yar... i recalled that i met her during orientation here! No wonder she looks so familiar. And i even got her telephone number during orientation. Just that i never keep in touch with her. Too many new friends at one time can be very overwhealming. Hard to give your attention to each one of them.
We also did a role play on like how different pple will react to a same situation. I did it with 3 of the ang moh guys. Haha.. think i made the class laugh alittle. Won't spill it out over here what i exactly did during role play. But yea. It was quite interesting.
Really glad for today. Today is a happy and interesting day.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Lift up your head
Luke 13:11
11And behold, there was a woman who had a spirit of infirmity eighteen years, and was bent over and could in no way raise herself up.
Looking down. Hmm... don't really like that phrase. Never liked to look down upon others. Anyway, the woman was bent over! I guess all she could observe was her own feet.I guess looking down can also be interpreted as thinking of one's self (self-centered). Cause when you look down, you kinda block out what's happening around you (Kinda like the ostrich who stick its head into the ground).
Instead of looking at my own failures, i guess i could look to Christ who has delivered me from every defeat and see the way God sees me — righteous and holy in Christ.
(Colossians 3:12, 2 Corinthians 5:21)
Gotta straighten myself up!
Friday, August 04, 2006
Reach Up
I didn't have school today, but got up early cause there are important issues to handle. Something i should have leant a long time ago, is not to look back after making a decision but to trust. Funny this problem of choices and decision just keep popping up. And i keep going round in circles.*tsk tsk* never learn. But it is through such process that i'm beginning to understand why i keep going round and it also reflects how closely am i walking with God. Checklist.
I can only take one step at a time. Slowly slowly. Sometimes i feel i'm rushing God to give me the answers. Typical kiasu Singaporean. Maybe he has his reasons for not revealing the whole picture to me just yet. I just have to exercise patience.
Weary, i take the next step, trusting that He is leading, He is there to break my fall.
I guess its normal to want/desire a smooth sailing life. But that's not what God has in mind.
WAves come in different forms. Big, small...
But the important thing is being on a ship. A solid ship that's gonna take you through the storms. I'm just a passenger on the ship... God is the captain. He knows my final destination and what's up ahead.
Isn't it funny how we can so easily sit on a plane at ease when we haven't even met the pilot. All we hear is his voice. " Good Morning! This is name speaking. Sit back and relax..etc" And we really sit back and relax. Why then am i fretting when my life is in the all powerful God?
Fret not!
I can only take one step at a time. Slowly slowly. Sometimes i feel i'm rushing God to give me the answers. Typical kiasu Singaporean. Maybe he has his reasons for not revealing the whole picture to me just yet. I just have to exercise patience.
Weary, i take the next step, trusting that He is leading, He is there to break my fall.
I guess its normal to want/desire a smooth sailing life. But that's not what God has in mind.
WAves come in different forms. Big, small...
But the important thing is being on a ship. A solid ship that's gonna take you through the storms. I'm just a passenger on the ship... God is the captain. He knows my final destination and what's up ahead.
Isn't it funny how we can so easily sit on a plane at ease when we haven't even met the pilot. All we hear is his voice. " Good Morning! This is name speaking. Sit back and relax..etc" And we really sit back and relax. Why then am i fretting when my life is in the all powerful God?
Fret not!
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