Monday, November 28, 2005

The laughter has faded away with time

Has just been thinking... when was the last time i had a hearty laugh. Must be long... coz i don't even remember when was that. Oke... so what's going on today?

Today.... donald's friend move in more stuff. But, it doesnt have effect on me already. Coz now i dun wash my own dishes. I put in the sink until they wash it up. And, i actually outwardly show my displeasure. Haha i've always been this frank i guess... when i'm not happy u'll know it. So, today no smiles, no hi's, i treat them as invisible moving objects, with occassionally rolling of eyes. For your information i am no angel (especially when my toes are being treaded upon).

Been looking for better paying jobs. Look until i had a stiff neck. Tml then i shall customise each and every resume and send it out. Looking for jobs are such a pain!

Oh oh... i broke Housemate's glass. So now we're even. He spoil my clothes indirectly, now i unintentionally break his glass. No apologies, although i am indeed sorrie (oxymoron).

Gonna do alot of reading this holiday. Alot of practicing on the piano and.... alot of blogging.

Man, i'm feeling very apologetic right now... maybe i should just go out and apologise lah huh. YEa... i'll do that... after they finish moving that washing machine of theirs... dunno what their up to man. Think i can start counting down the days to Christmas already. 27 more days to Christmas.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

One little step for me, one big step for Christ

Clap Clap... fulfilled a promise... am playing the piano as a service for God. Got a long way to go... lotsa room for improvement. Haha one day i take picture with my mentor and show you all...

Look its the WHITE ANGELS!




LoL... The White Angels first debut album!


The whole gang! Everybody say CHEESE!!!!!!!!!!!!! All SmiLes! Love this picture.

Friday, November 25, 2005

I WILL EXPOSE YOU!!!


How will anyone like to wake up in the morning to be welcome with such a 'pleasent' sight'. @#!$#@$#!#!$ . They have WAY pass the mark of tolerance. My patience is due. Get ready for a showdown. Soon... i shall bid my time. Don't take me for granted. Don't think i can be pushed around so easily. You're looking at a ticking time bomb.

Feeling Blue.......

Sigh, not sure why i feel so blue today. Perhaps it was last nite. I went to do my wash, place my clothes into the washing machine as usual, but but!!!!! THE CLOTHES CAME OUT DIRTIER. Stupid machine... its spoilt and nobody told me... haiz... i'm so tired that i dun even wanna hand wash it. I doubt the stains will ever come out. Thank God i only placed 4 pieces of clothes. Nonetheless... my clothes! Was hopping around mad last nite, till i got real tired and went to sleep. Woke up real early this morning, but i din know what to do so i went back to sleep... and here i am, now typing this whiny blog out.

Ha. Hey, i too need to whine... i'm no angel. Well, just gonna pray my day gets better. Gonna play for church on Sunday! Yea, gonna do abit of practice on the piano down at church with mentor later. Abit nervous, haven't touched the piano for a real long time. The only keys i've touched are the keys on my laptop.

Maybe later i'll continue packing my stuff. Linda's gonna stay in a new place. Linda is not happy staying here. Housemate brought friend and gf in. so there's 4 pple cramped in a 2 room apartment. If you were me, you wont be happy too. Can't wait for papa and mei mei to come over. Jie jie very lonely... missing home like crazy... i'm going nuts, bizzare even. Today is just made up of alot of uncontrollable frustrations and feelings. Trying to calm down and think happy tots, it is after all the holidays. Afew more days and summer sch starts. That REALLY sucks! Big time... I really dread sch. Will somebody save me... save me from this pathetic situation that has somemore befallen on me. I don't need pity. I need a solution. I need to get out of here.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Chilling After the exams




Yea this was some gathering we had at Theolynn's place (my senior in GB). So nice of her to open up her place for all of us. I made the sushi together with afew of my other friends! Haha.. looks nice anot. Next time can make for you all!!! Yup. Their fantastic cooks. I was only a small helper in the making of shushi.

Lately i had a bad day. Some things turned bad between me and my housemate. And... my boss called me to say i do things too slow!! AHHH... oke.. but still so far God has been good to me. Things could have been worse. I am so happy he is watching over me. So much things i do not deserve. Yet, he watches and helps me through difficult times. Yesh... God is good all the time.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Unfazed by Solitude

I just got home from work! Yea... now i have finally mastered how to make pearl drink. Pretty simple really. Today was pretty quiet at work. Business was not as brisk as the other days. Perhaps it is because it is a Friday.

Everything is getting more silent ard here. Shops are suppose to be bustling with activities and full of people shopping and chatting. In contrast, i saw a quiet mall, with few people sitting around. Maybe i was there at a wrong hour... i reckon. Christmas songs are played and suddenly, i thought of home. There is indeed no place like home. This is truly going to be one lonesome Christmas. Nevertheless, i shall be unfazed and keep looking for stuff to occupy myself.


Ten things you can do when you're bored (Specially for Denise).


1) Post blog! (It's always good to keep updating your blog)
2) Shop on Ebay or Yahoo! (Get some great deals!)
3) Check who's birthday it is Today (Great way to spend time)
4) Play online games (You're bound to be hooked one way or another. Even if its a dumb game like neopets.)
5) Learn a new dish (Coz its a great way to bring friends together or... make NEW friends).
6) Check out new places to visit over the weekend (love travelling).
7) Read other people's blog! (I've found some secondary sch friends blog and it's nice to know where and what their up to).
8) Check out the coolest places to eat. (AMERICA has so many unique dishes. Gotta try them all).
9) Read news on Channel News Asia. (Gotta know what's going around in this messed up world).
10) Read up on stars and the latest gossips. It's not alright to gossip abt friends but perfectly fine to gossip about stars! That's the price tag in exchange of their privacy.)

YEa... gonna go for a little run later on. Got to keep healthy... my big brother is already nagging. "Got to exercise man. Go for a run. Go Gym. go go GO!"

BleH... oke.. shall go for alittle jog and then... think of what to cook for dinner later. Maybe i'll blog again. Shall see how the run goes... tata!

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Lyrics

Like the song? It's a old song really. I've been searching high and low and finally found it! heehee... it was a real big hit back then.

Lyrics to the song

You have so many relationships in this life
Only one or two will last
You're going through all this pain and strife
Then you turn your back and they're gone so fast
And they're gone so fast
So hold on to the ones who really care
In the end they'll be the only ones there
When you get old and start losing your hair
Can you tell me who will still care
Can you tell me who will still care

*Mmmbop, ba duba dopBa du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba duMmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba dy bop, ba duba dop
Ba du*

Plant a seed, plant a flower, plant a rose
Yon can plant any one of those
Keep planting to find out which one grows
It's a secret no one knows
It's a secret no one knows
* Repeat


In an mmm bop they're gone. In an mmm bopthey're not there
In an mmm bop they're gone. In an mmm bopthey're not there
Until you lose your hair.
But you don't care.
* Repeat

Can you tell me? You say you can but you don't know.
Can you tell me which flower's going to grow?
Can you tell me if it's going to be a daisy or a rose?
Can you tell me which flower's going to grow?
Can you tell me?
You say you can but you don't know.

Miles Away From Home

YIPPIE!!!
It's been 8 hrs since i finished my last final paper! It was a statistics paper, it went relatively well. I'm glad that exams are all over. Yes, gone are those nerve recking situations, late nights with only the companion of coffee, dragging a tired and fatigue body to bed.

First thing i did after the paper was to EAT! Had lunch with friends at Chinatown Ate a big plate of a combination of roast duck, roast chicken and pork. After that i went back home, cleared my table and tidied up my room. I also watched "The Red Tape" a war kinda show. Pretty gruesome, but i believe the focus was the mental, physical and emotional torture that the Americans were going through while fighting with the Japs. And now, typing out this post while watching some "HOUSE" on TV.

During this period of examination, i was suppose to work for ONE day after one of my papers. Becoz my next paper was something like 4 days away. However, it is important to me to have very single day spent studying and focusing on nailing the paper to my best ability. Hence, i prayed. I prayed my hearts out that the boss will be so kind as to grant me space for myself to study. So here's what happened.

Sunday 20th November
1) I was sitting in front of the television. Work was not exactly the the top list of priorities i had in mind. No, definitely not on a Sunday, when suddenly my handphone rang.

The thing about Austalias telephone network is that the phone only rings 4 to 5 times. It IS very COSTLY to miss a call. because every call you make to someone cost 20cents. And if that person doesnt pick up the call, it will still cost the caller 20cents. -Poor caller, so i do my best to pick up eery call-

I didn't make it in time to answer the call. Checking my missed call, i realise it was my boss. I knew what i was in for, i knew why she called. I was lost and didn't know what to do. To go along with her and agree to work, or refuse? What should i do? So i prayed: If i am to work, then she'll call me in 5 mins. Else, i will call her back and tell her i'm not working till my exams are over. So, after 5 mins i returned the call and we talked. She requested that i work on TWO days, but i told her it would not be possible as i would like to concentrate. She was very agreeable, and understanding. Praise GoD!

Now that the exams are over, my friends, ALL my friends are heading back for home. To be united with their family, friends, pets... etc. Trying hard not to think about how fortunate i am and start being thankful for everything i have right now. In fact, yesterday i already started thinking of my family. Looking forward to them coming over, spending quality time with me and being embraced with love that was once familiar to me.

Tomorrow, i waste no time and get to work. Work is good, it helps you to accomplish little things and pays you for it. I am glad for all the things and exhilerated that the exams are over.

I now look to the arrival of my family, and the coming of Christmas Day. How will it be like to spend Christmas all alone in a foreign country? Well, i am just about to find out.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Revealation

Happy Birthday Mei Mei! (Today my sis 17th bday. So sad i can't be there to celebrate it with her. Anyway, i called her and wished her a wonderful sweet 17 bday.)

My life is full of revealation. Revealation comes from the word reveal. So yes... God has revealed something so timely to me in the midst of all the studying. I thought i would never get up. I never thought i can get myself to study. Everytime i try to get my engine to start up, my heart races in phobia of knowing that i would not make it... it questions, it doubts. It's faithless, without strength, without knowledge of what lies ahead.

I've always felt that results were deemed based on my own efforts. But as we all know... hard work doesn't equal to good results. So... in all the times i've fallen here.. the number blows that i have been hit with (emotionally, mentally, physically), really questioned if i am at even qualified at all to be at a degree level.

However, just the other day, when i was studying for my 1st paper, suddenly, something just came to my mind! You know... its like how u are enlightened out of the blue! I dunno about all of you, but i talk to myself alot alot. If you see me standing alone... you would think i am stoning or dreaming. When asked what am i doing... i always say... stoning... but in all truth, i am either taking in breaths of fresh air to relieve stress or... i am talking to myself though sometimes i really do stone.

So... in the midst of trying to concentrate and grasp the concept of the topic, i said something to myself. I said

"Everyday is a fresh start, a new beginning. Hence, it matters not what happened yesterday. No, not my successes, not my failures."

What comfort it brought me. Words are so powerful when spoken. I always tell myself that i can do it... i can make it... but somehow... it did not bring about the same kinda motivation. It was comforting, refreshing, renewing of the mind.

Another interesting thing i said to myself...
"The drinks are for the guest, if you are a guest, then be my guest"
Hahaha... actually... not actually interesting... it's more for entertaining myself.

Had a good laugh this week at my friends place. A hearty laughter is good for the heart! Yea.. laughed it out becoz one of the guys did something stupid... wahaha... he went to hug his housemate... for what? I also dunno think they were playing ard or something.. then somebody saw it and told me!!! WHAHAHAHA after that no mercy was shown... suan suan suan... just like i did back in Poly...anyway, it was only for awhile.. the guys here super sensitive.. i call them monkey only their face turns black as charchoal... BLEH!!!!! Joking only mah

Hmm.. another thing i realise... actually, pple always think that to be an accountant you have to be very careful. I'll make that more specific. Pple thought that it means being careful with numbers. But... more importantly, it means having an eye for detail and being VERY attentive about WORDS. Yesh.. majority of the question i do wrongly is not becoz i got the numbers wrong... its becoz... i misinterpreted the question or... misunderstood the sentence. Lately i got to realise a very hardworking fellow. He seldom attends lectures, but he SCORES!! So, in just one day, i noticed some things.

1) He catches concept VERY FAST! That is becoz he ANALYSES the paragraph. He goes through EVERY single tiny information, and his mind actually processes it.

Majority of us will just skim through, and our mind just catches bits and pieces of important information and link them together.

2) He QUESTIONS every single step! Meaning... he actually understands the working.. not just memorise the formula. He works out HIMSELF how to derive the formula. Basically he thinks out of the box. I can tell from the questions he ask ME that... he really think through everything meticulously.

3) He doesn't leave a SINGLE thing OUT! Most of us are lazy... only know the whole picture... maybe the summary. But this fellow don't leave out anything... no matter how tiny or how insignificant it is. I realise this is very crucial and useful for a very good understanding of the whole topic.

4) He is just smart lah... even if i went through in detail of everything... i wouldnt have thought of the questions he asked... everytime he brings up a question, i will always go.. YAR HOR... why ah? He takes half the time i take to grasp the concept.

Studying in University is very different.. cannot reply on past year paper because the teacher changes questions... besides, the questions they ask are not similar to those from tutorials. They are not striaght forward! So... you have to REALLY have a good understanding of EVERYTHING jus to answer one question. Have to view it at every angle. Hai~~~ Yup. Hard work.

I've gone through 3 major papers already. And through God's grace and guidiance... i think i did relatively well!!! We'll see how it is all being penned out in the end. I've left one more paper to go. Will work hard at it again tml... coz tml brings forth a new day, a fresh start another beginning.

So many events have happened... too much to recall and put it down here... till next time when time allows me to and when circumstance requires me to enact what happened.... till then. *

Saturday, November 05, 2005

All Psyched Up for the challenge

It's 2:30pm.. I finally arranged my pointers all down on paper... geez... din know it will take me so long last night and the whole of this morning... My housemate lah... on air con last night and it rained early in the morning.. so its doubly cold... and i didn't want to off the air con... coz its a central kinda thing... i off that means his room also no air con... didn't want to be insensitive and thus... just left it as it is. Felt like i was in a frigerator... frozen... so... i kept moving around in my little room... trying to keep warm. Couldnt keep my butt stuck onto the chair no matter how hard i tried.. too cold!

Anyway... He woke up late... 1pm plus... then he off the air con. Yup. So next step is memorise the points! I already memorise one of it... so left 2.

Yup... 2 to go... must persevere on... perseverance... i wanna shine.... oke at least AT LEAST a gPA of 5 for this paper... praying i'll be able to impress and get a 6. Gonna psycho myself.. that studying is fun... fun fun fun... interesting.. enjoyable.. practical...

It was never this hard... coz in the past... studying WAS REALLY interesting...not all modules... but AT LEAST SOME!!! Projects were so much FUN (only coz the people were fun too). ANyway... i am NOT AFRIAD of HARD WORK! I will work HARDER in my studies, put in even more effort... this is not the best i can do... even though maybe it is... there's always room for improvement!!! YUp YUP! Getting all psyched up for the challenge that is ahead of me... Must treat this like a netball tornament, lots of hardwork, but FUN!!!!

Friday, November 04, 2005

Putting the pointers down on Paper

1) Bad Morning, woke up feeling homesick (dreamt of family)
2) Studied and got stressed... so cleaned the toilet...
3) Studied a chapter and tutorial... after which went to do push ups...
4) studied a chapter... ate chocolate (it's therapetic)
5) Mom Called! Yup... missed her!!
6) Had Lunch
7) Watched10 mins of Oprah
8) Watched 5 min of Dr Phil
9) Blogging...

THis is the most boring entry ever!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH
Not that i can't think of anything else to type, but... don't want to get too absorbed into this...

next.... Gonna memorise the points and try to write out 2.5 pages for each question... so a total of 7.5 pages... it's now4:35 pm. Oke... if i complete it... then i'll come back and announce that i have!!! Let's see how long i take....

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

WAH.... everybody all going for consultation...

Heehee... yesh... today i am in school studying my butt off while you Singaporeans are happily enjoying ur public holidays. Unifair* Tot there was gonna be more enjoyment then sorrows here.. ahh.. wat a irony.

Moving on... lots of work, progressing... i think i progress very slowly.. then i look at my friends and realise... wahaha... actually i'm quite fast... but i still think very slow... juggling studies and work is no joke... solid stuff we're talking abt... though i work very very short hours, but... after work i'm more or less exhausted... leaves less energy and concentration for work.

oke... gonna carry on studying!!! Lyana don't burn out.... hang in there man... i'm we'll all make our mark... somehow in life...

keep in touch !

*food for the brains*
Parts of US, AUstralia and England are changing in time!!! WHat am i talking about? Out of the blue, i am suddenly ahead of singapore's time by 3 hours instead of the usual 2 hours! Just what has happened to all the clocks in the world. IT is embodied around the concept of "daylight saving time". Here's a short paragraph about what it is all about... gd general knowledge! So that you wont get lost in time...

Daylight saving time
(DST) time observed when clocks and other timepieces are set ahead so that the sun will rise and set later in the day as measured by civil time. The amount of daylight on a given day of the year at a given latitude is fixed, but over the year the hours of sunrise and sunset vary from day to day. During the summer months, the sun rises earlier and sets later and there are more hours of daylight. If clocks and other timepieces are set ahead in the spring by some amount (usually one hour), the sun will rise and set later in the day as measured by those clocks. This provides more usable hours of daylight for activities that occur in the afternoon and evening, such as outdoor recreation. Daylight saving time can also be a means of conserving electrical and other forms of energy. In the fall, as the period of daylight grows shorter, clocks are set back to correspond to standard time.
Benjamin Franklin, when serving as U.S. minister to France, wrote an article recommending earlier opening and closing of shops to save the cost of lighting. In England, William Willett in 1907 began to urge the adoption of daylight saving time. During World War I the plan was adopted in England, Germany, France, and many other countries. In the United States, Robert Garland of Pittsburgh was a leading influence in securing the introduction and passage of a law (signed by President Wilson on Mar. 31, 1918) establishing daylight saving time in the United States. After World War I the law was repealed (1919). In World War II, however, national daylight saving time was reestablished by law on a year-round basis. National year-round daylight saving time was adopted as a fuel-saving measure during the energy crisis of the winter of 1973—74. In late 1974, standard time was reinstituted for the winter period. In 1987 federal legislation fixed the period of daylight saving time in the United States as the first Sunday (previously the last Sunday) in April to the last Sunday in October. Arizona, Hawaii, and sections of Indiana do not use daylight saving time.