I speak truth

Just feel like saying some things that are on my heart. Thoughts that run through my head when i'm silent, and also to reveal what really matters to me right now. First and foremost, i'm now EMPLOYED! Yes... prayer answered. Totally believe that this job is given from God. Not sure if its timely though, i got employed just 2 weeks back. And the exams are really near... can smell it. One week more and its the papers. I don't want to be afraid of it, yet i do fear... it's like facing one of my toughest fears.

I'll fill in more details on my job next time... today it's matters of the heart.

Friends are important... yes... but to decide who i want as close friends those more than just saying hi to... its time to analyse my social circle here and eliminate those who are sadly, bad influence, who just arent making full use of life, a bunch of talking nonsense and wasting money. When i wanna do that... it means i have to be judgemental. It hurts to judge pple.. but then again... its no good to be penned down in life becoz of the few pple who always suggests or distracts ur whole purpose in life. Man... just thinking about it... means i'm gonna have to spend more quality time with the ones who reallie matter...

I really don't like to judge pple... but the way some of them spend their time and money.. the senseless things that are said without any depth... it pisses me off... i hate it even more when pple can LAUGH while backstabbing and gossiping about their friends... no respect for them... and yet... i see them in the most respectable place... the church....

I don't even know what are they doing in church! They are talking during the service, talking about other things... their hearts are not there... they are just fulfilling an obligation. WHAT'S the POINT! Shallow people... there will always be afew here and there... That's the fact!

Feel like screaming at them.. " IF YOU GOT NOTHING BETTER TO SAY THAN SHUT UP!"

Yup, this bunch of friends are not ones who i want to keep. They have yet a long way to go in their moral principals... they have to sort out areas of their lives... .... sad but true... they've got to go. I will tell them one day... tell them what is on my heart... but the time is not right... not now... but surely, i shall speak my mind. Of course no one is perfect... i'm not gonna ostracise them nor will i judge them any further, just putting them into the baskets labelled "Not to spend so much time with." There... got that one off my chest.

THe nexT BiG THinG... Exam and work.

Gonna leave with one last statement: "There are some things i value much much more in life than just money and earthly possessions... ... these are just shallow things of this world... .... "

Time is in His Hands

An hour more to go before my next lesson... tute. Feeling abit gloomy... just like the weather today. It has been looking like this all day! Eeps... affecting me. I don't feel secure... Have to learn to put my faith in God to see me through things right now. Alot of important stuff that is affecting me... there's the exams... so close! Ahhh.. and and... the weightage is so high! Oh oh.. and i just found a job... gonna work 4 hrs per week. but hey... every hour is impt.. oh i do hope everything falls into place. I don't know how everything is going to work out, but i've gotta keep telling myself to press on... press on... trust in Him.. trust in HIm... got to gear myself up for the heavy week ahead. Tomorrow will be the first day of work at Juice Wonderland. It is in the City. abt 15 min ride from my house to there. Have to memorise all the juice formula... tell you all abt how my work went when i'm more free next time. Gotta keep this short and sweet... going to study now...

take care ya all.
Studying in university IS tough!

Linda

SMilies

Yaya!! I know the bed looks so comfy! Haha... must get up! It's getting late! I opened up my eyes today, felt the sun shining on my face... Thank God its Friday!! Yippie.. All SmILes.



Oh look! My trusty wallet! Yes... a gift from precious friends in Singapore. Pretty Pretty? heehee... OF COURSE!! My birthday present.
Tim Tam!! Yummy... i drop in at the supermarket and picked up a pack of dark chocolate Tim Tam that was on OFfER!! $1.68. cheap? cheap? I have never bought tim tam in singapore before... ooOOoo but the time tam is great. Cannot resist it... haha Chocolate Lover. Getting fatter lah... and all the fats going to the wrong place. Haiz... see my face growing fatter... AHhhh
Me and my bed... Love it.. so soft... it accompanies me through the darkest and lonley nights... Must pose for the camera... *giggles
See how backdated Australia is... use this kind of ticket... haiz... it's like those worker must punch their cards everyday... its EXACTLY the same thing... pathetic... anyway... below is how front of the ticket looks like...
Yup its called the ten trip saver... why? Coz you pay for 8 trips and get 2 free... not really a great saver though... anyway... you can use it to take bus or ferry... doesnt it remind you of the old bus system we had in singapore...
Don't steal my pillow!! Hahaha...
All ready for school... oh i looks so blur... where are my glasses... *forgot where i placed them... alright enough pics for today yar? Hmm... by the way... my brother is recuperating VERY WELL! HAHAHAHAHA... *Linda bounces up and hits the ceiling!! Praise God... got to keep moving forward.. abit lagging in my work... gonna pull up my socks... More pics to come next time yar? Bye bye!!!!

What life throws at you

Life is so fragile... life throw every possible thing at you... life is so unpredictable...

In conclusion... one will never know what to expect from LiFe...

Mentally, emotionally and spiritually drained. I'm like sitting either stoning, sobbing or studying... yes i'm drained... but i'm not a quitter... at least not now... with each breath i take.. i drawn in strength.. little by little... i'll stand!!! I know i can...

Good news today.. brother's blood palate went up to 78!!! YES! I believe he is on his way to recovery. I await and look forward to better news...

Alittle insight to what this blood palate thing is all about... widen all you readers general knowledge... yes.. knowledge is power...

A normal person has apprximately 200 blood palates in their blood. WHen dengue hits, the blood palates depleates little by little.

There is no cure for dengue. It is stored in the liver.. and it can react up anytime after you have recovered from it... it's something like cancer... After the cells are killed, there is a possibility of it recurring again.

My brother's reading was 68 blood palates yesterday... yes... it's that low... it was a terrible time for my whole family and myself... the hurt inside... it was tearing me apart. With my heart torn... i was screaming for help inside... help save my brother...

and all the doctors could do was to put him on drips... he has to fight this battle... and i wanted so much to be by his side... the unbearable torture i have to put up with. I had no one to turn to... or.. i din know who to tell or who to turn to!

Only now have i opened up... and told one friend.. who then relayed the message to everyone else to pray for my brother... i don't wanna give up... i don't wanna give in

When will the waves stop.......

MOst recent my brother got dengue fever.....
I'm really worried right now.
I wanna go home... i really do... when i shut my eyes... i think of home.. i may put on a strong front.. but beneath that smile.. beneath all that laughter... deep within lies a worried, timid, girl.. with tears that well up her eyes... and tears roll down like raindrops that slide down the window pane.

When will all this end... disappointments, one after another, problems one after another, i've fallen more times then i've ever fallen in my life.. never have i drawn so much strength to pull myself up after falling... i've come this far... and there's still a long journey to go. When will my efforts pay off... when will i see the true results of the work that i've sowed.. i've toiled and reap nothing so far...

where will all this lead to?
i slumber back to bed each night...
thinking if all this is worth my might...
with tears in my eyes,
i tell myself hush hush dont you cry,
tml you have to try and try....
with my saviour watching over me...
the weeping cease...
silence surrounds me as i find peace
and slowly i fall to sleep.

Miracle... it has to be God... somehow

I guess all of you shld know by now... i, Linda Teo, have failed 2 modules. 1 is Risk and Derivatives and the other is some level 1 Statistics module. Well... i was already crushed after knowing i flunk the Risk and Derivatives modules... just picked myself up alittle when the next blow came... i failed my STATS!!!

i was totally caught off guard... coz all my other friends passed... so i happily assumed that i can't be too far off the mark. But gosh... all hell broke lose when reality sinked in. Butterflies in my belly, sleepless nites, endless tears, shattered heart... aiya... summary = depressed.

I remembered giving everything to God for the Statistics test... i just placed all my trust in him. But... execution was no gd... my bad... dunno how come... half way through i sort of panicked and i think i blanked out.. coz i couldnt quite understand what was the question asking. "WHAT'S the ProbLEm with me.." ANyway... it was not soon after i pulled myself together again, got my act together after venting all my frustration on running and crying. haha.. yar.. i cried over lousy results. Sigh*

Anyway, two days ago, i was at my friends place having dinner. When my friend was reading his email and exclaimed that there has been a change in the marking scheme. Apparently this is becoz in one of the exam halls, the lecturer did not allow the students to write during perusal time! So... to compensate everybody, CHANGE OF MARKING SCHEME. Meaning, though i failed my mid-sem, it doesnt matter anymore! Becoz... one of the marking scheme is 100% weightage on the finals! SO though i screwed up for my mid-sem, seems like God is giving me a second chance to shine. Yeah! feel more alive and having more hope in me right now. Perservering through tough times like this is really tiring. With one mind and one heart, i give all to God, and i focus on that one goal... to glorify him. Amazing isnt it... He is always faithful... always there... The Rock of my Salvation.

Lately, problems are hitting me like waves one after another. I received news that my big brother is down with fever for 6 days already. My mom brought him to SGH to take his blood test and the test results were not favourable. There are few blood palates in his blood... signs of dengue fever. Was very worried when i heard the news... think i took it quite badly coz everyone kept asking me why my face so pale. It's so hard to be far away and not be there when ur family needs you most. But, once again, i recovered and placed my trust in the Almighty Father. I fasted breakfast and lunch to pray for my brothers speedy recovery. I await for good news as my brother goes for his blood test again today. God is faithful, God is good... .

Bring Joy to your Stomach

In today's segment, i will bring you recepies that are easy to cook at home. We'll start at the beginners level and go on to more sophisticated recepies later. The objective of today... is to make all of you DROOL.... so go get your tissue box while i get started

Today it is

Korean Barbecued Beef

Ingredients
•250g beef

•2 cloves garlic (minced)
•1/2 onion (minced)
•2 spring onions (chopped)
•4 tblsp soy sauce
•1 tbsp mirin
•1 tbsp sesame oil
•2 tblsp sugar
•1 tbsp maple syrup
•Blackpepper (optional)
•Chilli paste (optional)

oke now here's how it's done...

Combine all ingredients to marinate beef
•Mix using hands
•Cover and leave it in the refrigerator for about an hour
•heat oil, fry beef till cooked

and then tada... you're ready to eat.

Actually.. i'm the one who's gonna try out the recepie... never try before.. but it's really easy

On Friday, i went ot my friend's place and had dinner... one of the guy is a really gd chef... he mastered one or two tricks from Oliver (the cooking show u guys watch on mobile tv..). YAr... so he's really gd... anyway.. we made cheesecake together... started from SCRATCH!!!

Anyway.. final result was not very gd... the crust stuck onto the pan.. Apparently he din add the greasepaper onto the tin before adding the mixture into it. so that explains... anyway.. the cheesecake still tasted fabulous. HOMEMADE CHEESECAKE.. YUMMY!!! haha.. eh one day i will make for EVERYBODY TO EAT!!! (Jinliang MUST eat also!!) haha...

Yep yep.. oke gtg that's all for now... see ya all

TiMeLess TaLes

Not smiling... Think i lost my smile... yes the sunshine smile is gone. Not for good i hope. Nothing to smile about really becoz everything seem so mundane... not that life has lost all meaning but just nothing to smile or laugh about. It's a tranquil kinda feeling. It's nice to have it... yet, it's too peaceful. Nobody cracks sensible jokes nowadays... not criticising my friends me myself has kinda lost the sense of humour! You know.. Singaporeans have our own style of jokes... it just doesn't fit into the picture in Australia.

Today i went to do some groceries in Woolworths (its similar to the FairPrice in Singapore). It's situated in the Indooroopilly Shopping Centre, just next to my apartment. Yep. It's so convenient. It's like having Suntec City Shopping Centre next to me. Haha.. but i don't shop alot becoz its so expensive. I won't mind spending if its my money, but IT'S NOT! It's my parents hard earned money and i don't wanna squander it for my own pleasure and comfort. At least ot here. Oh but the Roxy and Rip Curl items are just so CooL!!! *Argh*

I always quicken my past when i am about to reach the stall.. just so i won't be tempted to purchase uneccessary items. Yup... so i ALWAYS spend items on food! Haha.. and i can shop at Woolsworth for 3 hours or so.

The supermarket is HUGE!!! As big as Carrefore i should think. YES!!! Humongous store with a whole variety of unheard brands to choose for. The fruits are huge as compared to Singapore. the Onions are double the size.. they got triple the size... depends on how much onion u need. Anyway, went there with my company of friends... all girls! Hmm.. it shouldnt be weird ba... i don't know a single guy who bothers to cook himself a homecook meal. Lazy i guess... my flatmate is one good example. He can cook up a storm, but... on usual days, he just eats out or just settle for a pack of instant noodles.

Think my accent has changed. Usually when i speak to and Australian, i notice a frown and more than often, i have to repeat myself twice. AND I HATE REPEATING MYSELF! Don't ask me why, i rather forget about asking then repeat myself. So today my friend was looking for cloves and asked for assistance from the staff of Woolsworth. The lady couldn't understand her so my friend rope me in to help convey the message. It's just simple english mind you. Anyway, i just asked on her behalf and i was understood! Do you know the feeling of finally being understood! Haha.. obviously you guys in Singapore won't! I tell you i was like amazed! I thought i have to repeat myself and slang to get the message across.

Interesting bits for the day

Foreigners do not understand the word thumbdrive. The correct word is USB! Don't roll you eyes.. my friend had a hard time explaining what a thumbdrive is.

Birds are vicious! Oke not all.. but the magpies are! There has been news reports that magpies attack humans. You must be thinking... aiya the person deserves it.. who ask him/her to disturb it. YOU ARE TERRIBLY WRONG!!! These birds attach for no qualms or reason. What bird is this? This is called a MAGPIE!!!! How do i know? I had an encounter with it. I was walking out of the school building when the STUPID bird PERCHED on my head! And i shrieked! So embarrassing... i tell the bird was enjoying itself. stupid bird.

A picture of how the stupid bird looks like.


Plenty of magpies in spring. Alright got to go! Chao!

In the pits

Linda is feeling down, upset, dishearted, disappointed, hopeless, stupid, dumb, sian, sad, useless...


Don't bother asking me what happen... if you all see me on msn, can say sth to cheer this teary eyed girl up.

There's only so much i can take. One more blow and that's it.

Stop Crushing me with Quiz and Exams!

"Remember the past, and celebrate it if you want to, but put it behind you. Don't let the past stand in the way of your future. Because the future is going to be different. And we have to unlearn the way we dealt with the past in order to deal with the future. Of course the past is important. We need a sense of history. But you can't stumble backwards into the future." - Charles Handy, "Finding sense in Uncertainty"

MENtal illness
MENstrual cramps
MENtal breakdown
MENopause
GUYnocologist
When we have REAL trouble, it's a HISterectomy
Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN?

Countdown begins... 1 more month to the exams! Argh... How come time flies so fast... didn't know October has arrived till my friend told me to look at my calendar. Hmm.. today was a full fledged committed day to doing work... but i have such a problem just getting outta bed. Don't know what's wrong.. geez i couldnt get a wink outta last night. Yea... anyway, in the midst of it all, i committed my time to God, went to some bible study group which a friend invited me to. Haha... went becoz i really wanted to get out of the house. It's sickening to stay home all day... trust me... you can do it in Singapore but not here.

My flatmate was suppose to be in school today.. but goodness the pig was still in bed ard 1pm in the afternoon... skip lessons AGAIN! Ha... wonder how come psychology so slack... or maybe he just chose to be this way. Guess all cjc guys got the same pattern... skip lectures. I don't mean to stereotype... if ur a cjc and u dun belong in this group then oke i retrack my statement. Haha... but then again it could also mean you are in DENIAL! BLEH!!! Not happy ah... sue me then.

Right Right... i get a kick out of suaning pple. It's not just me oke... NUS pple are extremely gd at this. A thousand times better than me... if i could only outwit them (one day i will).

With loads of work and theory and concepts to absorb, how can i possibly blog at a time like this? It only goes to prove one thing, when there's a will, there is a way. Haha... oke oke... think i've crapped enough of my way. If whatever i've said proves to make logical sense to you then good for you. Stay tuned for more goody stuff ahead.

ARGH!!! WORK SUCKS... please please don't ever take Finance unless you are in love with numbers. I'm not, i'm just a irritatingly challenged person. Need to get a kick outta life. People talk to me on tagboard! It's awfully getting quiet ard here...

Whatever happened to the sweetie Lyana!!! Have yet to hear her comments...

Close to You

"If you miss the person once a day... that means that person have already found a place in your heart."

*Linda gasps*

Could it be? Could it be that he has found a place in my heart?!! EEPS!

*Linda shrieks*

*Linda chuckles* This funny thing called love... never know when it'll hit... and you'll never see it coming.