Just looking back at the last entry, i'm just happy to say that its all over! Yup, i rushed all over university on the first day of school, met up with my lecturer who taught me in summer... i'm just so thankful for her. She's so bubbly and so easy to talk to. A pity that she's not teaching any finance courses this semester... if not i would DEFINITELY sign out for it. She holds no airs... shes humourous... she's patient and very kind. YUp, she's gonna do the last bit of my scholarship for me and send it in. I'm praying i'll get it... it's take a huge load off my parents and myself. Less pressure and all. I know i can do with alittle bit of extra money (who doesn't right?!)
I'm really REALLY thankful for the strength and energy that God has given me... its a amazing hyper energy! Let's see..
Friday, i missed the church party coz i got all cranky for the scholarship and slept at 1am that day.. after which the next day,
Saturday i woke up at 6am, got a friend to rush me to the airport just so i can send the package at 8am...after which i went to church for prac... and then dinner i got home at abt 8pm that day.
On Sunday, i got out of the house at 8:15 and only got home at around 9pm.
On Monday... SCHOOL! Got the last bit of scholarship done. Ran around like crazy.. rushed for lesson... rushed back home....went for bible study.... home ard 10pm.
And today, i woke up and worked from 8am to 4pm.. STANDING without toilet breaks and lunch!! GROANS leg hurts!!! yet... here i am wide awake like i havent done much today. Today work was HECTIC. Becoz my friend quit and we are very under staffed. Made 50 cups is just 2 hours. I'm impressed with myself... customers always want difficult smoothies... 'I want a mango, banana, strawberry smoothie"! Argh can't they just do with ONE SINGLE FLAVOUR! Make life so difficult for me... GRRRR... from smoothie rush to do juices... rush to do sushi... rush to take order... rush to get the order... rush to top up fruits... I thank the Lord for the strong and healthy body to survive this ordeal and angels that have been watching me each step of the way.
The boss better find someone to replace my friend soon... coz i might just be quitting as well... praying for another better job. With the energy stored in me... i'm gonna do my bible study. SmiLes.
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Another tomorrow
Everyday is significant. YEs... a slight glitch in plans... and i dunno if there would be a U-turn. Sigh... i was suppose to receive a package today! A VERY important package, but it arrived when i was working!! So... tomorrow its gonna be the last day. I've got to hurry and grasp the seconds on the clock. WHy is Linda always in a hurry?!!! Don't ask me why, but i'm trusting the Lord that i'll make it in the nick of time. Tomorrow there's this gathering. I'll say that its important as well. From my view point, its gonna be a deciding factor for many as to whether to join the church or not. I ought to quit worrying.. coz there's no point... but all of us wants the best... but sometimes the best thing to do is just to leave it to God. Yup!
Got alot of stuff to handle tomorrow... but i'm quite sure that everything will turn out fine.
Just want to thank God that the situation in the workplace has turned around. I'm very sure that everytime i go to work... its Him who is protecting me. Everytime i'm about to do something stupid or clumsy, He'll stop it... and everything just turns around. I kinda feel sorry for my collegue who has to stand the unreasonable expectations from the boss. I know how she feels coz i've been through the process... i try to give her as much tips as i can. I'm sure she'll get through... she's a bright girl.
I want to be the best that i can be for God... that's my focus... that's my ultimate goal.
Got alot of stuff to handle tomorrow... but i'm quite sure that everything will turn out fine.
Just want to thank God that the situation in the workplace has turned around. I'm very sure that everytime i go to work... its Him who is protecting me. Everytime i'm about to do something stupid or clumsy, He'll stop it... and everything just turns around. I kinda feel sorry for my collegue who has to stand the unreasonable expectations from the boss. I know how she feels coz i've been through the process... i try to give her as much tips as i can. I'm sure she'll get through... she's a bright girl.
I want to be the best that i can be for God... that's my focus... that's my ultimate goal.
Monday, February 20, 2006
The Bustle and Hustle
I was awaken by my housemate! Haha.. he woke up very early today and i tot that it was time for me to get up too... after realising it was still early, i went back to sleep. Heehee *oink oink
Met some pple at school... did abit of out reach. Surprisingly met someone familiar... dunno her name... but know that she was in the same Secondary School as me. I can't help it. Everybody in my school has this FAIRFIELD look. What's with the look? I don't know!!! THere's just this look that identifies them with the school!!! Wahaha... i know it sounds ridiculous. But so far... my senses have not proven me wrong. She looked shocked... coz she don't know who am I. Haha... i'll say God led me to her... *SmiLes*
After that, i had afew calls to make. The person did not on his mobile phone... alittle bit upset that i couldn't complete what i intended to do.
After which, had to make some arrangements to get my bed and table to be moved to another place. Gonna need some helping hands on the 11th of MArch... geez... i wonder who will be free. It's such a hassle to move place! I shall not move again! Ha... once i move, i will lose weight, get a tight butt and be fitter than ever before. (Just in case u're wondering why... the new place is up this steep hill... which i would have to climb!!)
After that i went for bible study. Yup. Today's entry is short and sweet, coz tomorrow i've got to work. *Linda groans... gonna pray i won't have problem getting out of bed...
Met some pple at school... did abit of out reach. Surprisingly met someone familiar... dunno her name... but know that she was in the same Secondary School as me. I can't help it. Everybody in my school has this FAIRFIELD look. What's with the look? I don't know!!! THere's just this look that identifies them with the school!!! Wahaha... i know it sounds ridiculous. But so far... my senses have not proven me wrong. She looked shocked... coz she don't know who am I. Haha... i'll say God led me to her... *SmiLes*
After that, i had afew calls to make. The person did not on his mobile phone... alittle bit upset that i couldn't complete what i intended to do.
After which, had to make some arrangements to get my bed and table to be moved to another place. Gonna need some helping hands on the 11th of MArch... geez... i wonder who will be free. It's such a hassle to move place! I shall not move again! Ha... once i move, i will lose weight, get a tight butt and be fitter than ever before. (Just in case u're wondering why... the new place is up this steep hill... which i would have to climb!!)
After that i went for bible study. Yup. Today's entry is short and sweet, coz tomorrow i've got to work. *Linda groans... gonna pray i won't have problem getting out of bed...
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Why must we conceal what we think or how we feel
Today, i had this weird dream. It is the SAME location... and i've been in this dream (same location) for 6 times already! CAn you believe it? There is another location which i dreamt of for 4 times already. I have not been to either location before... and both brings about a eerie feeling. I woke up feeling upset. Glad that i slept... but disturbed by the dream. It's like a island with this humongous roller coaster... and i'm with someone... and... we just go up higher and higher... and there's no turning back... and when the roller coaster went down, i flung out of it... flew across the huge sea... and landed in a swimming pool. I dunno how to describe it. 6 times already... the other location is even more eerie... there's a temple... and someone chasing me... don't want to go into details... but its a nightmare...
So i have had demonic dreams...but in each fierce spritual battle, God has won the victory. AMEN! If not i wouldn't be alive today... ... I remember my first encounter... i was so traumatised... but it was only then did i know the power of the Lord... did i only totally graps how powerful is the blood of Jesus Christ... It is undenialable that indeed there is a spiritual war going on... yet, i can be so slack in my prayer... O Lord... open the eyes of my heart... that i will know and take my prayers to the next level with you. (Interested to know in detail... must ask me).
Alittle insight into sth that happened yst... erm... i went to 3monkey (place to hangout with friends) with 2 aunties... it felt weird... coz they were touching on a very sensitive topic... and in situations as such i rather be silent... not that i don't have my own tots or expectations, but i found it alittle too personal. Not very comfortable sharing at that point of time.. so i was very silent throughout. However, it was interesting to hear their views... some of which was very similar to what my mom will repeatedly tell me. Topics such as expectations of future husbands were raised... my first encounter with aunties... abit freaky.. coz it was like an insight to how it will feel if i'm still single in like maybe 3 years time? AHHHhhHH...
Sometimes i conceal how i think or how i feel... just to protect myself. Maybe i know that if i'm forced to reveal sth.. i will end up telling a lie... so might as well zip up!
It is hard to be true to yourself... it is hard... sometimes i think myself of being someone else... and i end up being someone else instead of myself... i end up lying to myself. IT is possible to wear a mask and fool the world... but i know i cannot fool my heart.
Everyone is returning back from their home country. I'm looking forward to their return. Time flies... i can't bear to see friends who have graduated leave... i'll miss you all so so soOOoo very much... *heart breaks*
Another semester coming up... another mental and emotional battle to conquer... battle is not mine alone but God's as well.
So i have had demonic dreams...but in each fierce spritual battle, God has won the victory. AMEN! If not i wouldn't be alive today... ... I remember my first encounter... i was so traumatised... but it was only then did i know the power of the Lord... did i only totally graps how powerful is the blood of Jesus Christ... It is undenialable that indeed there is a spiritual war going on... yet, i can be so slack in my prayer... O Lord... open the eyes of my heart... that i will know and take my prayers to the next level with you. (Interested to know in detail... must ask me).
Alittle insight into sth that happened yst... erm... i went to 3monkey (place to hangout with friends) with 2 aunties... it felt weird... coz they were touching on a very sensitive topic... and in situations as such i rather be silent... not that i don't have my own tots or expectations, but i found it alittle too personal. Not very comfortable sharing at that point of time.. so i was very silent throughout. However, it was interesting to hear their views... some of which was very similar to what my mom will repeatedly tell me. Topics such as expectations of future husbands were raised... my first encounter with aunties... abit freaky.. coz it was like an insight to how it will feel if i'm still single in like maybe 3 years time? AHHHhhHH...
Sometimes i conceal how i think or how i feel... just to protect myself. Maybe i know that if i'm forced to reveal sth.. i will end up telling a lie... so might as well zip up!
It is hard to be true to yourself... it is hard... sometimes i think myself of being someone else... and i end up being someone else instead of myself... i end up lying to myself. IT is possible to wear a mask and fool the world... but i know i cannot fool my heart.
Everyone is returning back from their home country. I'm looking forward to their return. Time flies... i can't bear to see friends who have graduated leave... i'll miss you all so so soOOoo very much... *heart breaks*
Another semester coming up... another mental and emotional battle to conquer... battle is not mine alone but God's as well.
Thursday, February 16, 2006
With Zeal and Determination
Actually there's so much to be said... but i only can say so much for now.
Had alittle difficulty getting out of bed. Was reluctant to go to work... and i was just praying God will change the situation. Then i realised that maybe i was just treating God like a genie... maybe the difficulties that i'm facing right now are not real problems and real issues. Problems divert our attention away from our real focus. Does it really matter how much i'm suffering... does it matter how many times i've fallen? (i just realise everything are all "I's")
Just look back at apostle Paul, he was imprisoned with Silas. They suffered for the name of Jesus Christ... the price they paid... and yet, in a situation as such, they rejoiced. I remember a friend who was telling me about how out of place she felt in church... and why everyone in church are so unfriendly and all. Fellowship is important to encourage in other.. but the main focus is God isn't it... so what if everyone keeps to their own clicks. Eyes focus on God.
In my life... there always seem to be a higher obstacle to overcome... and many times, it has detered me away from the focus. I don't know how much or how fast am i growing.. but i should not slack... was reading something recently which touched on mental laziness... sort of pricked me. OUCH!
Let's talk about the numerous things that happen today.
1) Smelt sth smelly in the kitchen today.. and realise that it was coming from a carton of eggs. Happened that there's a hole in one of the eggs... and the flies were happy laying their eggs in it. It's very gross! I saw like SWARMS of little wiggly white coloured worm like things SWIMMING in the rotten egg which is all GREEN like those u find in a sewage system! LINDA PUKES!!!!
2) Got up the bus in the morning... two bus conductors checking tickets... first time i see bus conductors... I felt a tinch of discrimination... like for everyone else, they just glanced at their ticket. But for mine!!!! They ask me so many questions!! Check ID.. where are you heading to... and the toot toot conductor took approximately 30 seconds looking at my ticket! I'm not a illegal immigrant!!!! AND what's wrong with my ticket! GRRRR...
3) Work.. as usual... haiz...i havent found joy working in this new outlet... not just yet.. i hope i will. (oops complaining already)
4) Got a nice encouraging sms from a friend. It is good to get encouraging smses when ur feeling really low. It did helped in the process of me getting out of bed...
5) I went walking around indooroopilly... wanted to get sth from the post office but it was already closed... so tempted to do my shopping. But i gave myself a thousand reasons why i should just go home straight.
Tomorrow i will have no trouble getting out of bed! DAY OFF! WOOHOO... Friday here i come! Oh yea... another day packed of surprises... dunno why life springs so many stuff at me. Hope i can handle whatever is being thrown at me... if i do... it is only because there's a higher power who's watching over me. *SmileS*
Had alittle difficulty getting out of bed. Was reluctant to go to work... and i was just praying God will change the situation. Then i realised that maybe i was just treating God like a genie... maybe the difficulties that i'm facing right now are not real problems and real issues. Problems divert our attention away from our real focus. Does it really matter how much i'm suffering... does it matter how many times i've fallen? (i just realise everything are all "I's")
Just look back at apostle Paul, he was imprisoned with Silas. They suffered for the name of Jesus Christ... the price they paid... and yet, in a situation as such, they rejoiced. I remember a friend who was telling me about how out of place she felt in church... and why everyone in church are so unfriendly and all. Fellowship is important to encourage in other.. but the main focus is God isn't it... so what if everyone keeps to their own clicks. Eyes focus on God.
In my life... there always seem to be a higher obstacle to overcome... and many times, it has detered me away from the focus. I don't know how much or how fast am i growing.. but i should not slack... was reading something recently which touched on mental laziness... sort of pricked me. OUCH!
Let's talk about the numerous things that happen today.
1) Smelt sth smelly in the kitchen today.. and realise that it was coming from a carton of eggs. Happened that there's a hole in one of the eggs... and the flies were happy laying their eggs in it. It's very gross! I saw like SWARMS of little wiggly white coloured worm like things SWIMMING in the rotten egg which is all GREEN like those u find in a sewage system! LINDA PUKES!!!!
2) Got up the bus in the morning... two bus conductors checking tickets... first time i see bus conductors... I felt a tinch of discrimination... like for everyone else, they just glanced at their ticket. But for mine!!!! They ask me so many questions!! Check ID.. where are you heading to... and the toot toot conductor took approximately 30 seconds looking at my ticket! I'm not a illegal immigrant!!!! AND what's wrong with my ticket! GRRRR...
3) Work.. as usual... haiz...i havent found joy working in this new outlet... not just yet.. i hope i will. (oops complaining already)
4) Got a nice encouraging sms from a friend. It is good to get encouraging smses when ur feeling really low. It did helped in the process of me getting out of bed...
5) I went walking around indooroopilly... wanted to get sth from the post office but it was already closed... so tempted to do my shopping. But i gave myself a thousand reasons why i should just go home straight.
Tomorrow i will have no trouble getting out of bed! DAY OFF! WOOHOO... Friday here i come! Oh yea... another day packed of surprises... dunno why life springs so many stuff at me. Hope i can handle whatever is being thrown at me... if i do... it is only because there's a higher power who's watching over me. *SmileS*
Monday, February 13, 2006
Pushing forward
Just got back from work.
Today, was my first day at work after a loOoong break. I was posted back to the new store. Boohoo... i was reluctant. But nonetheless... they needed pple BADLY. I actually tot of stopping and looking for another job... but, for now, this will just have to do. Their short handed and.. i don't want to leave them just when they need pple. Maybe i'll think about quitting again after i have officially moved house.
Now that i have the convenience of this place... and expenses are high, i'll just persevere. Getting afew hard knocks from the boss is good in the sense it reminds me of the reality and the cruelty of this world. And push myself to work harder in my studies... think i'm slacking off in all my duties and responsibilities. No good... Must focus and discipline myself. Now that i'm 21, i think its time to take on more roles and responsibilities, set a good example for others to follow. Time to pray and commit things to God.
One more thing... i'm putting on weight!!! NOOooOOo what happen to my metabolism rate! ARGH... No more snacks or extra meals. But with this temporary housemate of mine... i am unable to!!! He ask me to go out and eat with him... and after i order my meal, he orders side dishes!! His way of saying "thanks for showing me around and letting me stay in the apartment". Nice gesture... but i rather he stop buying more food!!I feel like a stuffed chicken already!!! How to lose weight!!! Looks like i really got to put in effort to exercise and pack my stuff. I will really miss this place... my five star hotel. My sacred place with God. Sigh... gd bye indooroopilly...
I am a dynamic capable and rich boss of a model company!!! WAHAHA... go google and search Linda Teo! My gosh... just reading things about her character... is like reading things about myself!!! Coincidentally she bought the prospering and striving company in the year which i am born and named after her!!! What she has achieved is remarkable and worth taking note of. I wonder what my future holds for me. Only God knows... and whatever it is.. i know its secure in his hands. Fear only the Lord, strive and persevere... and humilty. I have not reach that level just yet... only time can tell.
Today, was my first day at work after a loOoong break. I was posted back to the new store. Boohoo... i was reluctant. But nonetheless... they needed pple BADLY. I actually tot of stopping and looking for another job... but, for now, this will just have to do. Their short handed and.. i don't want to leave them just when they need pple. Maybe i'll think about quitting again after i have officially moved house.
Now that i have the convenience of this place... and expenses are high, i'll just persevere. Getting afew hard knocks from the boss is good in the sense it reminds me of the reality and the cruelty of this world. And push myself to work harder in my studies... think i'm slacking off in all my duties and responsibilities. No good... Must focus and discipline myself. Now that i'm 21, i think its time to take on more roles and responsibilities, set a good example for others to follow. Time to pray and commit things to God.
One more thing... i'm putting on weight!!! NOOooOOo what happen to my metabolism rate! ARGH... No more snacks or extra meals. But with this temporary housemate of mine... i am unable to!!! He ask me to go out and eat with him... and after i order my meal, he orders side dishes!! His way of saying "thanks for showing me around and letting me stay in the apartment". Nice gesture... but i rather he stop buying more food!!I feel like a stuffed chicken already!!! How to lose weight!!! Looks like i really got to put in effort to exercise and pack my stuff. I will really miss this place... my five star hotel. My sacred place with God. Sigh... gd bye indooroopilly...
I am a dynamic capable and rich boss of a model company!!! WAHAHA... go google and search Linda Teo! My gosh... just reading things about her character... is like reading things about myself!!! Coincidentally she bought the prospering and striving company in the year which i am born and named after her!!! What she has achieved is remarkable and worth taking note of. I wonder what my future holds for me. Only God knows... and whatever it is.. i know its secure in his hands. Fear only the Lord, strive and persevere... and humilty. I have not reach that level just yet... only time can tell.
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Sabotage time
Heehee.. this post is actually for yesterday...
Did quite afew stuff yesterday... although it didn't go as planned. My Housmate went back home yesterday and there's this new guy in the house! YEa... he just arrived in Singapore, supposed to stay in a International Hostel, but the cost does not match the condition. He wants freedom and thus is living me right now. I don't want to comment so much about him becoz i don't want to jump to conclusions and end up judging him wrongly.
He needs alittle help getting around coz he's not sure with the roads, so i sort of be his little compass. Overall, very friendly.
The main agenda of the day was to celebrate a friend's birthday. A bunch of friend's gathered together and had like birthday cake. heehee... he got it good (sabotage). cake on face, hair. The person who sabotaged him did a awesome job. Haha... abit freaky watching them wrestle. Both had cake, both had fun. Yea.. then it was time or alittle sharing... something abit more like we didn't know about him... so i discoverd.
Couldn't sleep last night. Mind was wide awake... must be the coffee which i had in the afternoon... it is sure powerful i tell you. The only problem is my eyes are super tired. They need a break.
Woke up early this morning... suppose to have go for practice... but it was postponed to a later time... received the news when i was half way to church. So had to make a U-Turn. Still can't get to sleep... just stone for pretty long before deciding to blog.
Actually i was beginning to think that this blog is getting too transpareant. Like people got the key to my inner thoughts. I think some things are best that people don't know about. Not that i'm conscious or afriad of people commenting and stuff... but this is really meant to be a very personal thing. Not something which you let everybody know about.. like news broadcast or something... so i'm thinking of like putting more personal stuff somewhere else... and just general updates and all here... hmmMMmm... shall start thinking of a name for the new place to place my very personal private thoughts...
Did quite afew stuff yesterday... although it didn't go as planned. My Housmate went back home yesterday and there's this new guy in the house! YEa... he just arrived in Singapore, supposed to stay in a International Hostel, but the cost does not match the condition. He wants freedom and thus is living me right now. I don't want to comment so much about him becoz i don't want to jump to conclusions and end up judging him wrongly.
He needs alittle help getting around coz he's not sure with the roads, so i sort of be his little compass. Overall, very friendly.
The main agenda of the day was to celebrate a friend's birthday. A bunch of friend's gathered together and had like birthday cake. heehee... he got it good (sabotage). cake on face, hair. The person who sabotaged him did a awesome job. Haha... abit freaky watching them wrestle. Both had cake, both had fun. Yea.. then it was time or alittle sharing... something abit more like we didn't know about him... so i discoverd.
Couldn't sleep last night. Mind was wide awake... must be the coffee which i had in the afternoon... it is sure powerful i tell you. The only problem is my eyes are super tired. They need a break.
Woke up early this morning... suppose to have go for practice... but it was postponed to a later time... received the news when i was half way to church. So had to make a U-Turn. Still can't get to sleep... just stone for pretty long before deciding to blog.
Actually i was beginning to think that this blog is getting too transpareant. Like people got the key to my inner thoughts. I think some things are best that people don't know about. Not that i'm conscious or afriad of people commenting and stuff... but this is really meant to be a very personal thing. Not something which you let everybody know about.. like news broadcast or something... so i'm thinking of like putting more personal stuff somewhere else... and just general updates and all here... hmmMMmm... shall start thinking of a name for the new place to place my very personal private thoughts...
Thursday, February 09, 2006
A time of destressing
There's a new sister in town! Yea.. she's gonna study in the same university as me. So today i went down to school, get some information from the info centre regarding some interesting modules.
Anyway, didn't quite manage to show her around as much as i would like to. She seemed like she had other plans for the day... and i didn't want to hold her back. Maybe she's scared of me or sth... or maybe i talked alittle too much today. I'm sure they'll be other opportunities to talk to her....
When i got back home, i just went back to sleep. Still alittle unwell.. i really ought to go for a run. Maybe that's what i need... a run to kick start everything again.
Haha... as i'm typing, the guys are wrestling in the house. LoL.. they are trying to get each other out of the house... coz they haven't had their dinner yet. Gaming addicts...
Didn't really do much today, except editing afew pictures... think i edited like 40 over pictures of which i only uploaded afew. Which you guys can view at the right side. Kept resizing and all.. now i'm superb with the shortcut keys for adobe.
Friend's who left for home are returning soon for the next semester. How time flies (i think i have over used this phrase).... Haven't really did much of thinking today. Give my brain cells a day of break.
I'm just thankful today, thankful for a day of rest, thankful for friends who care for me, thankful for a wonderful family and most of all, grateful to the one and only God, who gave His only son to die for me. I guess too many times, i take things for granted, but i'm beginning to realise and i really hope i can change.
I know i can never be perfect, but i that won't stop me from trying to get better... *smiles*
Anyway, didn't quite manage to show her around as much as i would like to. She seemed like she had other plans for the day... and i didn't want to hold her back. Maybe she's scared of me or sth... or maybe i talked alittle too much today. I'm sure they'll be other opportunities to talk to her....
When i got back home, i just went back to sleep. Still alittle unwell.. i really ought to go for a run. Maybe that's what i need... a run to kick start everything again.
Haha... as i'm typing, the guys are wrestling in the house. LoL.. they are trying to get each other out of the house... coz they haven't had their dinner yet. Gaming addicts...
Didn't really do much today, except editing afew pictures... think i edited like 40 over pictures of which i only uploaded afew. Which you guys can view at the right side. Kept resizing and all.. now i'm superb with the shortcut keys for adobe.
Friend's who left for home are returning soon for the next semester. How time flies (i think i have over used this phrase).... Haven't really did much of thinking today. Give my brain cells a day of break.
I'm just thankful today, thankful for a day of rest, thankful for friends who care for me, thankful for a wonderful family and most of all, grateful to the one and only God, who gave His only son to die for me. I guess too many times, i take things for granted, but i'm beginning to realise and i really hope i can change.
I know i can never be perfect, but i that won't stop me from trying to get better... *smiles*
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Bloopers
Last night when i was trying to mug for the exam today... suddenly felt chilly... throat felt unusually dry. I was tired too... and i tot of studying through the night... but after i popped one panadol i slept for 4 hours. Stuidied hard again in the morning. My hands and feet were icy cold... just felt very unprepared for the paper...i got to school early and met my friend friend on a bus... chatted abit... and ended up studying with her in the library. Clarified some doubts she had... and time flew real quick.
The paper was pretty tough... cause there were some questions which i was not sure what they were asking about... and half way through... the chilly feverish feeling came back. I prayed for strength to carry on.. coz i was already starting to feel dazed. I wasn't sure if i was answering to the question after that... i just kept answering and answering... think i was beating round the bush at some point. Sigh* Gonna leave everything in God's hand... i've studied as hard as i could. Definitely there was room for imporvement in studying habits and methods. could have been more prepared...
Just spoke to mom over the phone... haha... she also know that i feeling homesick even though i never mention anything to her. She sounded pretty worried over today's paper... cause she knows there was alot of disruptions and she also know that i didn't study hard enough for the paper... but you know.. a part of me just feels that i couldn't have been more better prepared for the paper then i was! I have faith that He'll see me through it all...
Gonna go to sleep now.. can hardly keep my eyes open. Head kinda hurts too... It's gonna be an exciting day tml... tell ya all about it tml! Stay tuned!
The paper was pretty tough... cause there were some questions which i was not sure what they were asking about... and half way through... the chilly feverish feeling came back. I prayed for strength to carry on.. coz i was already starting to feel dazed. I wasn't sure if i was answering to the question after that... i just kept answering and answering... think i was beating round the bush at some point. Sigh* Gonna leave everything in God's hand... i've studied as hard as i could. Definitely there was room for imporvement in studying habits and methods. could have been more prepared...
Just spoke to mom over the phone... haha... she also know that i feeling homesick even though i never mention anything to her. She sounded pretty worried over today's paper... cause she knows there was alot of disruptions and she also know that i didn't study hard enough for the paper... but you know.. a part of me just feels that i couldn't have been more better prepared for the paper then i was! I have faith that He'll see me through it all...
Gonna go to sleep now.. can hardly keep my eyes open. Head kinda hurts too... It's gonna be an exciting day tml... tell ya all about it tml! Stay tuned!
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
If time could stand still
Saw mom off.
Came back home.
Started crying again.
I hate to cry.
Waste of tears.
Upset. Stupid housemate choose this time to talk to me about my stay here.
Spoke to him in between sobs as i tried to gather my thoughts together.
Later have to report back to mom.
Even housemate is going back this Saturday... return back to home sweet home. I just miss my home.
Tomorrow there's the exam. Yea.. THE EXAM!
Honestly... i don't really care what happens... whatever happens happens. I can't study anymore.
Maybe i'm not thinking straight... With a teary eye and stuffed up nose. Stupid me... i should have prevented the first drop. Maybe i should shut up already and make gd use of my time. MY HOUSEMATE HAS NO COMMON SENSE! STill upset that he picked a "PERFECT TIMING" to talk to me. Someone really ought to KNOCK some sense into him.
Can't believe he's doing PSYCHOLOGY... 'MR you've got SERIOUS PSYCHO PROBLEM WITH YOURSLEF!!!'
EQ FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't talk to me lah... cause i look like a dumb idiot screaming and crying for no stupid reason.
Came back home.
Started crying again.
I hate to cry.
Waste of tears.
Upset. Stupid housemate choose this time to talk to me about my stay here.
Spoke to him in between sobs as i tried to gather my thoughts together.
Later have to report back to mom.
Even housemate is going back this Saturday... return back to home sweet home. I just miss my home.
Tomorrow there's the exam. Yea.. THE EXAM!
Honestly... i don't really care what happens... whatever happens happens. I can't study anymore.
Maybe i'm not thinking straight... With a teary eye and stuffed up nose. Stupid me... i should have prevented the first drop. Maybe i should shut up already and make gd use of my time. MY HOUSEMATE HAS NO COMMON SENSE! STill upset that he picked a "PERFECT TIMING" to talk to me. Someone really ought to KNOCK some sense into him.
Can't believe he's doing PSYCHOLOGY... 'MR you've got SERIOUS PSYCHO PROBLEM WITH YOURSLEF!!!'
EQ FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't talk to me lah... cause i look like a dumb idiot screaming and crying for no stupid reason.
Saturday, February 04, 2006
Eyebrows got waxed!!!!!
Taking a break from my studies. Mummy's not around so... can blog! HEehee.
Just looking at the pictures that i took on my birthday, i just couldn't help but look at my eyebrows. It's properly shaped... cause i got it waxed! Yea... OUCH... mummy's idea that i got my eyebrows done. It hurts like crazy! i sat in the chair with my lips tightly pursed. i almost tot my skin was gonna go together with the wax. After the PAINFUL waxing... it was followed by tortureous session of plucking!!! I tot it would never end. The tool plucked more than a 100 times on each side (yes i counted). When it was over, my eyes were already damp.
Spoke to many people online... so many well wishes... so many prayer request. When God remains silent it's hard to keep the faith. The road never seems to end... its like running in McRitchie.... i don't know where is the finishing line... just keep running and its so exhausting.
In whatever i do and whenever i go... I have to keep believing he is there.
Studying is tough... some concepts are so hard to grasps. I don't have much time and i'm still not ready for the exams. I don't know what's gonna happen in time to come... i have to keep going... and praying.
I'm tired... i'm exhausted... i've stopped running... i'm jogging... till my strength is renewed once more.
Just looking at the pictures that i took on my birthday, i just couldn't help but look at my eyebrows. It's properly shaped... cause i got it waxed! Yea... OUCH... mummy's idea that i got my eyebrows done. It hurts like crazy! i sat in the chair with my lips tightly pursed. i almost tot my skin was gonna go together with the wax. After the PAINFUL waxing... it was followed by tortureous session of plucking!!! I tot it would never end. The tool plucked more than a 100 times on each side (yes i counted). When it was over, my eyes were already damp.
Spoke to many people online... so many well wishes... so many prayer request. When God remains silent it's hard to keep the faith. The road never seems to end... its like running in McRitchie.... i don't know where is the finishing line... just keep running and its so exhausting.
In whatever i do and whenever i go... I have to keep believing he is there.
Studying is tough... some concepts are so hard to grasps. I don't have much time and i'm still not ready for the exams. I don't know what's gonna happen in time to come... i have to keep going... and praying.
I'm tired... i'm exhausted... i've stopped running... i'm jogging... till my strength is renewed once more.
Friday, February 03, 2006
My Birthday Bash!
Linda Gleams and Smiles. Had a early birthday celebration yesterday. Hmm.. actually i'm not the kind of person who reallie likes party. Mummy had it all prepared single-handedly. Did quarrel with her abit here and there because she wanted things to be done her way... Was her little barbie doll for the day... make-up, dress. Quoting from my mom "You just smile on that day!" sigh* NO say At ALL! Ahh... mummy ah... at least give me some leeway mah.
But i was still glad that she's here, she's after all my mom. A mother's good intention can't go that wrong. She just wants everything to be perfect. She wants to be able to go back and tell everybody that she's a good mom and that i had a memorable birthday. She's been rather bossy lately. HMmm to me she's more bossy before! Or maybe i'm too used to the freedom that i have. Come to think of it, i should just give in to her as much as i can... after all she'll only be here for afew days.
The birthday party was great. Like i ALWAYS say, good food with good company of friends = Great party! I hope everybody enjoyed the food at sizzler (Thanks for sponsoring mom!). Really thankful that everybody took time to come and celebrate with me, though i wish it was more dress down (i was abit uncomfortable oke!). Yea.. handing the key over is just a symbol... more keys more responsibilities. My journey with God continues on... we shall move... we shall conquer.
Right let's move on to the presents! haha... hmm... actually i didn't really expect presents. Cause... presents are just material stuff and for formality purposes. It's just deemed as compulsory for attending parties if you know what i mean. But reallie, i won't hold it against anybody if there were presents or not. It's the thought that counts... so i didn't expect presence. I just expected that they brought their smiles and their laughter along to celebrate the occassion with me. But they sprung up this huge BLUE box and it looked like the shape of a printer. OH OH... and they all made an effort to like come in the same colour, BLUE and WHITE! SO SWEET MY FAVOURTIE COLOUR!!! Of course i knew who was behind the scenes... who could be more thoughtful and sweet then Serene herself.
So i ripped open the big blue box and was totally OVERWHEALMED! HAHa 21 little PRESENTS all neatly wrapped in blue with white ribbons (what consistency!). AND AND there were little notes attached to each little gift... cause each gift symbolises something!!!*Linda gasps! Just wanna thank everyone who contributed to Linda's Treasure Box! I'm gonna be biase and state which were my favourite gifts out of the 21!
THE ANGEL!!!! AH it's super uniqueEEEeee... gosh! Looks like i'm stuck with being labelled an angel! FOlloWed By THE CD that SAMUEL DID !! WAAHHHH.... it must have took him ages to do it... my pictures of the many outings that i've been to and all.. must have too him quite awhile to collate the pictures together.. SO SWEET!!!! I'm MELTING!!!! AND coming in third is the STRESS BALL! Squeeze!
I just love the treasure box! It's been less than 24 hours and already i have opened and close it 5 times!!!! HAHA... can you imagine the time and effort just wrapping writing and putting it all together... Time consuming!! Especially the CD... Unforgettable unforgettable.
Thank you to everybody who has made this birthday a smash! Those behind the scenes... I thank God that he has brought all of you into this little life of mine......
But i was still glad that she's here, she's after all my mom. A mother's good intention can't go that wrong. She just wants everything to be perfect. She wants to be able to go back and tell everybody that she's a good mom and that i had a memorable birthday. She's been rather bossy lately. HMmm to me she's more bossy before! Or maybe i'm too used to the freedom that i have. Come to think of it, i should just give in to her as much as i can... after all she'll only be here for afew days.
The birthday party was great. Like i ALWAYS say, good food with good company of friends = Great party! I hope everybody enjoyed the food at sizzler (Thanks for sponsoring mom!). Really thankful that everybody took time to come and celebrate with me, though i wish it was more dress down (i was abit uncomfortable oke!). Yea.. handing the key over is just a symbol... more keys more responsibilities. My journey with God continues on... we shall move... we shall conquer.
Right let's move on to the presents! haha... hmm... actually i didn't really expect presents. Cause... presents are just material stuff and for formality purposes. It's just deemed as compulsory for attending parties if you know what i mean. But reallie, i won't hold it against anybody if there were presents or not. It's the thought that counts... so i didn't expect presence. I just expected that they brought their smiles and their laughter along to celebrate the occassion with me. But they sprung up this huge BLUE box and it looked like the shape of a printer. OH OH... and they all made an effort to like come in the same colour, BLUE and WHITE! SO SWEET MY FAVOURTIE COLOUR!!! Of course i knew who was behind the scenes... who could be more thoughtful and sweet then Serene herself.
So i ripped open the big blue box and was totally OVERWHEALMED! HAHa 21 little PRESENTS all neatly wrapped in blue with white ribbons (what consistency!). AND AND there were little notes attached to each little gift... cause each gift symbolises something!!!*Linda gasps! Just wanna thank everyone who contributed to Linda's Treasure Box! I'm gonna be biase and state which were my favourite gifts out of the 21!
THE ANGEL!!!! AH it's super uniqueEEEeee... gosh! Looks like i'm stuck with being labelled an angel! FOlloWed By THE CD that SAMUEL DID !! WAAHHHH.... it must have took him ages to do it... my pictures of the many outings that i've been to and all.. must have too him quite awhile to collate the pictures together.. SO SWEET!!!! I'm MELTING!!!! AND coming in third is the STRESS BALL! Squeeze!
I just love the treasure box! It's been less than 24 hours and already i have opened and close it 5 times!!!! HAHA... can you imagine the time and effort just wrapping writing and putting it all together... Time consuming!! Especially the CD... Unforgettable unforgettable.
Thank you to everybody who has made this birthday a smash! Those behind the scenes... I thank God that he has brought all of you into this little life of mine......
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