Busy day at work

Went to work today after my one week break. It was good to go back to work, but... i was the only one scheduled today to work for whole of today. Usually there's like 2 of us including the lady boss herself. But.. today was just me and her.. and also the lady who is suppose to be just concentrating making sushi, was ropped in too. I was made to work all the juices. But i felt i was alittle slow and tardy today. Felt letargic, not really sure why. But anyway, managed oke. Thank goodness the customers are not impatient. I can't imagine this situation being repeated in Singapore. the customers will probably walk right up and hurry you... "excuse me, i wait for 20 minutes already leh! I got important business to do! Can you please hurry up!" YAR! Thank goodness the people here are nice. In my course of working, i have realised that there is a growing number of asians who are working here. Yes, especially Singaporeans. All they have to do is open their mouth. It's in our blood.

Although was alot of customers to serve, i managed to squeeze in afew minutes of short conversations with some of them. One have just gotten back from Japan, another having her very late lunch, another who loves wasabi especially in such cold weather (so i have her an extra pack of wasabi). It makes working a whole lot more happy. Oh oh.. and one customer so funny!! He say thank you then he winked at me! LoL And i think he was trying to look cool or sth... but he old already, cannot look so cool. It was a funny sight.

Boss seemed to be in a good mood today. Kept talking to me about Singapore lifestyle, food and govt.. he's more chatty then usual. Maybe he's hoping that through our conversation, i will be able to give him some useful ideas of what new dish he should introduce next. He has recently introduced a new dish, called Singapore noodles. Keep telling me that its very good and very nice. BuT NEveR let me Try how am i suppose to knoW! Next time i ask him if i can try.

Oh oh.. and i think the next dish he is going to introduce is bak kut teh. He hasn't tasted it yet, but he kept talking to me about it. Actually i don't want to talk to him lah... but he keep talking to me in CHINESE!!! Had some trouble explaining what i want to say... especially when he starts talking about politics...

The heavens are the work of Your hands. —Psalm 102:25

Came across this verse, and it sort of made me think abit. SOmetimes like when i see a really wonderfully crafted out piece of art, i would go like WOW that is really amazing! But what i conceive as amazing is nothing next to what God has created. If what i conceive as amazing is done by human hands, then the heaven that God has created would be like totally WOW!!!

I guess i won't be able to comprehend what is AMAZING to God.

Nobody said that it was going to be easy

Had afew friends feeling depressed, low in spirit... this period is definitely not easy for many. Not even myself. I don't know the exact words to say.

But maybe we can all try to trust in Him right now, put our best foot forward.

Remembering no problem is too big for God.

Faith is an adventure.

Twinkling of an eye

Had a 8am lecture this morning. Woke up earlier than usual cause i wanted to stroll to school instead of my usual panicky rushing to school pace. But, ended up rushing anyway cause it was too cold!!! On the way, there was this cyclist. He whizzed past down the hill... he was so so fast! He was almost as fast as the cars. In afew seconds, he was outta sight.

Seems like everybody is in a hurry, urgent, irritated and frustrated mood. Just yesterday in lecture the lecturer was talking about some points on the graph. And i knew i heard "pure" but my friend insisted that it was "peer".
Linda:" pure"
friend:"peer"
Linda:"issit? i think i heard pure"
friend:" NO NO PEER!!!"

Linda relents... so scary... never seen friend so agitated before. So i erased pure and wrote peer.

Into a few slides later... a point was stated that it was PURE!!! So *ahem* i kindly pointed it out.

It's common to hear wrongly... but friend sounded so irritated. Hmm... other friends as well... all the censored words all incorporated into stressful life.

Must keep working... i'm waiting for the day i can give a huge sigh of relief... waiting..

Not a day in regret

Was happily chatting with my housemate yesterday!! I give thanks to God for the time of rest he bestowed upon me. I thought this week i had to work!!! To my great surprise and relief, i am not scheduled this week. I didn't knew how much this break meant to me until i heard the news. Some might think it bad... i thought i would too.. but i was glad. My heart felt like leaping the moment i hung up.

Every day is a day given by God, and hence i ought to make the full use out of it. However, i found myself only struggling not to be tempted by the TV or be distracted. It's difficult! Yes, i'm only human... its knowing what i ought to do and that point of time and doing it, so that i will not live that day in regret. It's easy to say... i'll leave it to tml. But what if tml never come?

Had a good rest for 4 days now. Yup, i've slept each night... although sometimes it seems like sleep wouldn't come... but eventually it did. Praise God. I can see the results already... eye bags slowly clearing up. I thank the Lord for all those around me who prayed. Oh oh... and one of my church memebers did something really thoughtful for me. It's a little bookmark with the verse Psalms 127:2 on it.. i shall think of where to place it.

Went out on Monday pretty late after BSf to celebrate a friends bday. Here's some pics

















Oke i think i kinda spoil the group picture... but i didn't know where else to place myself.

Leave you all with Psalm 127:2
In vain you wake up early and stay up late,
toiling for food to eat,
for He grants sleep to those He loves.

Comeback

OooOO Yummy Yummy... *SLuRp SlurP* Food at Yum Cha

*Linda ponders hard... ...

Think life's abit of a mess right now... think it's all my fault.

Along the way, i stumbled along... lost focus... and i haven't been consistent.

*Linda repents... ...

I know that this is the time to come back to what is important... maintain my cool in the heat of it all. God is in control... it's time to exercise faith... and do what is right. Play time is over... ...

Now is the season to work very hard and concentrate.

Yes... ... play time is over... ... ...

So cute..copy and paste from friend

http://www.syfc.org.sg/events/dvc/cinema.html

Reaching for Greater Heights

*smiles*

Today i kinda got out of bed late... decided to skip morning tute cause was feeling abit dizzy. Though i didn't sleep last night, it didn't really affect my mood that much. I couldn't sense any bitterness. Was just glad that i could get up and continue on from where i left off.

I'm ready to go again!!!!! Haha... YES!!! Sometimes must take such things in life like a pinch of salt. It's oke. Had so many concerned friends out there to talk with me throughout the night. Just want to thank God for placing so many of them around me. ThAnk YOu!!! It's was your little kind words that made me smile again.

Today i went to school missing one tute in the morning, i had to catch up alittle by asking my friends on what happened. Everything went on as usual. Then i wanted to go Coles buy afew stuff... but was really lazy. Praise God, my friend gave me a lift there... and we kinda shared afew stuff with each other... upon arriving at Coles, felt kinda lost... cause i don't usually shop at Coles at hawken... it's super small. Then... met another friend... talk and shop at the same time. After buying felt abit sian... cause have to climb that steep hill with my stuff. Then... another friend was driving past and saw me!!! So stopped and gave me a lift back. Was so relieved, and thankful. Really appreciated everything that was given. Coincidence as such don't happen all the time... His timing is perfect.

Yesterday, friend sort of arranged to come over to see me. And i had no clue that my housemate was going to watch movie... if not tonight i'll be super lonely!!!! Yay... ... See... perfect timing. But still feel kinda numb right now... must be the leftover effect from yesterday.

Dishearted

Today i had to go for morning lecture followed by work and then camp committee meeting. Everything went alright until the meeting... Very upset and dishearted. Felt like all my efforts was such a waste.... i wake up earlier then usual and stayed up late into the night to draw...

I wouldn't have mind that they criticized my work, but i was really taken back when uncle Richard said something about graphics software... so i thought hmmMmm.. abit difficult to incorporate the design into the computer... then someone said something like... clip art and then i was totally shocked and stunned, i just didn't know what to say. It was like my mind cannot register that.

Ah? I put my heart and soul in designing, racking my brains and drawing. I even took my colour pencils out and colour... then in the end... .... ... ... CLIP ART?!!!!

ORIGINALITY CAN!!!!

AND!!!! AND!!! ACTUALLY UNCle RICHarD ALREADY had a design in mind. SOOOOoooOOo... when he look at my drawing right... HE WAS LOOKING FOR HIS DESIGN!!!!

*LINDA PUKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After that the whole entire meeting... i didn't want to participate... or.. i just wasn't listening to what they were saying... heart broken can... *glass breaks*

Why couldn't he tell me what he want in the first place. Why? And to think that i was afraid that i wan't putting in my best.

Came home and did something very stupid... i went and cry... ... felt so stupid crying... ... because...actually its not exactly a waste... i ought to just take it as a learning experience, the design can always use for something else in future, never know when it might come in handy.

I ought to be happy that i put in my best effort instead of being upset. At least i know i have not short change God in my service in any way.

Just want to add .. my design was probably too modern and youthful for uncle and auntie to wear. Haiz... .... guess i'll just give them what they want. If it's clip art they want, then it's clip art they get.

There was more very inconsiderate things that was said. But i shall not elaborate... i'm tired... i need a break

Losing Spree

Scatterbrain me... lately i'm losing stuff.. important not important, name it, i've been losing stuff. Goodness knows what is happening to me. Could it be to my funny sleeping habits? Haiz... So upsetting. Got to be more careful...


Work has been tough today... there's so much stuff to do. Sigh*

Bad day... gonna play my bad day song track.

Got to return back to the drawing board after a short rest and after i get out of this dumpster.

I've got no time to waste on being upset and sulking and regretting and crying over spilt milk. *SmiLes* Life's too short to waste it like that. signing off.

Whose standards?

Hmm... just something i thought about this morning. Couldn't help but ponder whose standards am i measuring up to? God's standards or my own standards. Whose eye lens am i looking through?

Did do alittle studying last night for Cost Accounting. There's a quiz due soon. Also i have to remember that there's an assignment that is due in 2 weeks time as well. There's gonna be afew stuff that is going to happen in this weekend alone. Haha... i guess its good in a sense that i am bz during the weekend. At least they do not go to waste with me sitting at home sleeping, stoning or watching tv.

speaking of which, last night i nv sleep again... but it was very cold. Strangely i think this blog is becoming a blog for me to keep track of my sleeping patterns. I guess i can do without sleep once in awhile and yet perform as per normal.

Oh oh... and i'm beginning to like to eat Avocado. I have been eating it for 2 mornings already and its pretty yummy. You have to eat it with honey so that it melts in your mouth. Haha.. just thinking that i'm beginning to be winnie the pooh. Where's my honey pot?

Yup. I have to finish my avocados anyway. I bought them at the brisbane market for 50cents each. It was a real bargain coz initially they were selling it for a dollar each. So i bought 10 avocados. All tucked away nicely in the fridge.

Yesterday at work, i met a church member. He's working nearby my workplace and it was lunch time when he came over. Chat alittle and handed him over an ice cream. It's just nice to bless someone. I also brought back abit of fruit salad for my housemate too. Work is so bz!! Like the customers just LOVE to come after my colleague leaves and i'm the only one at the counter. Run about doing pao pao cha and fruit juices. Think the popular orders today were really the yogurts and the pao pao cha. The pearls were all gone! The greek yogurt is really yummy. Very fresh. First time i do so many yogurts in a short periof of time. Customers have a funny habit of buying at the same time. When one customer appears, suddenly everybody appears. When one customer orders an ice cream, suddenly all the other customers want an ice cream too. I've definitely worked the finger trying to scoop the ice cream out. But its all manageable. It's quite cool like some of the customers who haven't seen for a long while (coz i was posted to the new outlet for a period of time) will come and talk to me... chit chat. There's alot of regular customers... so i remember their orders.

Have to get back to work right now, shall update again later if time permits. *smiles*

LAst chance to make a connection, gotta start heading in the Right Direction

So much for the poetic heading.

Just got back from work. My legs feel alittle worn and tired from the the standing and running about. I'm gonna go for another job next semester. New environment and better pay. I don't know how will it all work out but will put in my prayer list.

here's the picture of the most good looking monkey i've ever seen.

Guess what's for Dinner?















It's Prawn and Vegetable Wrap!

That's my dinner. It's very yummy and healthy at the same time, with vegetable and mint and the nice soft noodles all wrapped into one. Dipped with the delicious sauce, mmMmmm. *Don't drool on my blog please.

This morning i was suppose to take a letter to post on the way to work. But it slipped my mind as i hurried out of the house. So had to climb the steep hill twice today. Go back home take the letter and post it. It's a letter cum Mother's Day card which is specially made by me. Wish i could do more for my dearest mom and spend time with her. She's always busy with work and all. I think i kinda got that bit of workaholic thingy from her. But mine is just a tip of the iceberg, nothing compared to her.

I took me great pains to come up with this design. Firstly becoz the material of the paper is so unique that i faced afew problems with it. It's not exactly transparent and the colour is so hard to match. I had to use special markers to colour on it so that the colour will not come off. The paper is so special i had to use special glue to stick it onto the paper. It took me quite long to do the mixing and matching of colours. Alittle plain, could have been better. First time i'm experimenting with papers as such. I really enjoyed doing it.

I got a parcel from Singapore today. It's from my dad. Inside containing some newpaper articles and other interesting stuff. Haha... my dad and mom are so concerned for my future. My mom will keep nagging and asking how come i don't have boyfriend. My dad does it in a more subtle way. He attached something about wedding! LoL I can't believe it, they are actually getting worried cause i'm 21 already and still single. But such things cannot be rushed. God will provide.

Don't exactly feel like doing anything tonight, but there are stuff to do.

There are some things that are on my heart last night and now. A concern for a not so close a friend. I knew her here. She's was my neighbour at indooroopilly. She was a pregnent women when i knew her. My mother would talk to her often, drink coffee with her at the Coffee Club downstairs. She has now given birth and i just found out that she is actually a single parent. What happened in her relationship is unclear. Was she married? Is she here to run from the shame? She has no relatives here, a non christian, no close friends... and with a baby. That's a huge responsibility on her shoulder. On top of that, she has to hold a job to support herself and her baby.... will be visiting her soon.

You ALone
A C#m
You are the peace that guards my heart
D E
My help in time of need
A C#m
You are the hope that leads me on
D E
And brings me to my knees
F#m C#m
For there I find you waiting
D A
And there I find release
Bm A
So with all my heart I'll worship
D E
And unto You I sing
D E
Reff: For You alone deserve all glory
C#m F#m
For You alone deserve all praise
D E
Father, we worship and adore You
C#m F#m
Father, we long to see Your face
D E
For You alone deserve all glory
C#m F#m
For You alone deserve all praise Father, we love You
E A
And we worship You this day

BE MAGNIFIED
I have made you too small, in my eyes
O Lord, forgive me
And I have believed in a lie
That you were unable to help me.
But now O Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show yourself strong
And in my eyes,and with my song
O Lord, be magnified
O Lord, be magnified.

Chorus:
Be magnified O lord,You are highly exalted
And there is nothing you can't do
O Lord, my eyes are on you, be magnified, O lord be magnified

Freaking Monday

It's Monday!! Argh... went for Economics tute today. Argh... i just don't know who can enjoy a module as such when it's so hard to understand what the lecturer and tutor are trying to say!!! Linda *groans* I'm already exhausted and yes... my brains already feels squished... i need a break. Linda SCREAMS. "AHhHHhhhh!!!!!"

Actually i do understand abit. But abit is not enough!!! Haiz... i thought today will not have a quiz, but once again, surprise surprise... quiz!! GrrRRr... kinda expected it actually... just hoping and wishing... it's just me and my wishful thinking.

It's so frustrating... because you keep trying and it keeps coming to knots.

I just want to complain today... so if you're reading this.. sorry you have to see me complain.

But kinda happy because i had like a free coffee! Some coffee truck came by and pple were giving out free bottles of BREAK coffee. I always thought that they would taste blend but hmm... it was actually quite yummy. It was what i needed in the morning really... coz i was already quite tired after the quiz.

How to survive bsf tonight? Gosh... i ought to pray and trust more. Oke.. i'm gonna shut up already and go take a walk.

What Market?!

This morning market was so hillarious. I thought my friend was going to WEstEnd Market... i had no idea that the market they were going to all this while was the BrISBanE MarkET. It's like a whole lot smaller and the food items are neither fresh nor cheap. So little to choose from! And i brought with me afew empty bags. Anyway, did buy quite alot of stuff... but still feel that i could have gotten better quality at the same kind of price at the WestEnd Market!

Anyway, it's good that i know so that i can now direct them to another market where they can get better food stuff!

After doing the usual marketing and stuff, decided to go with the group to eat. Since we were at westend market we went to a nearby chinese and vietnemese stall to eat. Eat until i was really full. My other friend wanted to see me at my peak (meaning i can alot alot). Haha... then we ordered another side dish. It was yummy... rice paper dish. my friend never eat before, so introduce them sth new. Glad that they enjoyed it. I quite like it too... but alittle pricey. Really happy to go out with this group of friends because i feel like i've been neglecting them for quite some time. Some of them wil be graduating this semester.. so like in about 2 months time. Will miss them. Perhaps i should spend more time with them. They are a really wonderful bunch and i just thank the Lord for me knowing them and a chance for me to bring them to church. I can always count on them for support and help if i run into problems with my ex housemate coz we were living at close proximity.

was abit tired when i got back. Yup have to store the meat properly into the fridge and all. Had a really short nap (30mins?) and i had to rush for unicell. Handed up my drawings for the church logo. Glad that some of them really liked it... it seemed like the little comments that i was writing amused them more then the drawing itself. *giggles*

Oke... now i really have to go to sleep... i wouldn't want myself to be falling asleep during the sermon. Must give God the respect that he deserves and my fullest attention.

good night!

SLowly FadiNg into the BacKGrouNd... ...

It's 9:33am! Washed up and got ready to go to the market. I know its very late to go to the market but like my friends who are driving me there don't want to get up so early. It's a Saturday and i don't really blame them.

Yesterday i didn't take any pictures. Nothing to take also... but had alot of fun. I'm going to draw to a conclusion that people will start doing the strangest things and come up with the most "out of this world" ideas when its late in the night. I won't elaborate further cause it will ruin the originality and authenticity or the game.

Really tired when i got back home so i just got to sleep. Which is good, very good.

And yes, i would like to fade into the background... think my aura is abit overwhealming. I'll try to slowly quieten down, and hopefully take the back seat. Why? Well, i feel that its good to have more time to ponder and spend time doing things that i cannot do when there are others around.
Like maybe more quiet time, drawing, cleaning up... the more mundane stuff that i tend to put off even when i have the time. Thinking if i should take pictures at the market anot. Hmmm.. maybe next time, not this time round. I need to restock on stuff like vegetables, meat, fruits, lemon and garlic. I think i have not been eating very well, as in I can actually improve my meals, make it more nutritious. I should spend more time cooking as well.

Dancing to the weekend

woohoo!! It's a Friday, and i'm going out later to meet some friends. So excited because the weekends are finally here... after a long and tiring week. *phew* I can get my life in order... my life last week was upside down... with my mind all over the place (physically and mentally) and it definitely didn't help with my abnormal sleeping patterns.

Will try to take some pictures... abit sleepy already haha *yawn*

Oh yar... today i almost missed my 8am lecture... was late and i couldn't catch what she was saying... abit lost becoz the figures was flying all over the place! Alot of revision and work have to be done and i need sleep too.

Craving for some desert to eat.. hmm looks like i have to bake chocolate cake again!! Haha.. it's time to put on somemore weight! Pimples are getting lighter which is good. I miss those days where i have gd complexion.

ANyway, some things which i am working on every now and then: church logo and camp retreat shirt. I have got some ideas which i can play with. It's funny how these inspiration come to you. For me, it's during lecture. Like when i'm finding it hard to concentrate, i doodle around with shapes while listening at the same time. At least it keeps me away from falling asleep. So i draw shapes, curves, dots and out of it i see a picture. That's how my pictures turn out abstract, because they are formed from basic shapes.

Next page...

Next page. Not a new chapter yet, but next page. Finally i can say the mid exams are over... BUT BUT... there's quizzes to do and revisions to do. On top of that, work, and other nitty gritty tasks to do.

And... also gotta remember my prayer group. I'm not the only one who needs help. we all need to survive. Yup, and to remember what is my real purpose here... It's funny how studies were my first and foremost important mission when i came here, but now i see a different point of view of life. Maybe its the many events that i've been through, what i know and what i experience. So, everything is not certain in this world, but one for certain is that there is only one God who is real and true in my life. Still remember one of my friend who led in worship last week Saturday. Friendships may fail, relationships that we have built might turn sour, but the one whom we can always depend on is Him.

I'm so happy... last night i know i slept for 7 hours WITHOUT DISTRUPTIONS... and it was SO EASY to sleep... Sleeping Beauty is BACK! Yea... its really good to rest... my mind dun feel so stretched.

Tml is Friday! Woopie doo... Got time for revision and other stuff... Tml will be doing another assignment. Hopefully all of us will be REALLY productive and complete it tomorrow... I need to start unloading some assignments if not they'll keep building.

Just finish reading the Australian newspaper. Some interesting articles caught my eye. They always got controversial issues. Like lack of skilled workers and yet limiting the number of immigrants who wants to come here and work because they are afraid that they will take the jobs away from them. A familiar problem which many other countries face.

Gonna sign off soon to do some revision and preperations for tomorrow's lesson. *sMiLes* bye bye!

Remedy for Sleepless nights

Yes... Here are my wonderful remedies which i have conjured up with if you my readers are having trouble sleeping... be enlightened!

When there's a will there will be a way... ...

1) COunt sheeps
2) PRay.. Prayer is Power
3) Read your textbook
4) Exercise
5) Go for a massage
6) Drink Milk
7) Have a hot bath
8) Drink wine
9) Think happy thoughts

and if all else fails, see a doctor and get some sleeping pills!!!!

So anyway, i slept last night! I drank wine in desperation. Always store away a bottle of wine... you never know when the occassion calls for it.

Everything's Gonna be Alright

YEs... i slept well last night! It's been such a long busy and tiring week for me. Had been having sleepless nights(3 nights in a row)... think i suffered from insomia or sth... i'm not stressed out... i dunno why. I just can't seem to put my brain to sleep. Tried counting sheeps, tried reading textbok... but it just doesn't put me to sleep.

Some interesting reasons that my friends gave...:

1) You're subconsciously you're stressed out.
2) Probably Miss home
3) You're thinking of a boy

Haha... i've tried so many things... including exercise! But nothing seemed to work. So thankful for the prayers for me to sleep. It's absolutely madness to not sleep for 3 nights. You can physically feel a certain point in your brain that is stretching and releasing again and again and you can feel a burning sensation in that part of your brain. YAr.. i didn't tell anyone about how it feels... will probably freak pple out.

I don't want to see doctor... just don't like the idea of taking medicine pills. I hope i will be able to continue to sleep well. It's absolutely neccessary given my hectic normally bz week.

"Father Father... i need your strength to carry on... please carry me on this journey."

Some interesting stuff which happened this week. Someone in my apartment got really pissed the other day. It was late in the night when he started yelling "F**K the FRENCH, F*** all the Aborigines." And this was repeated like a couple number of times. A fight was going to happen, but thankfully it didn't. There are a number of french people and aborigines living around the area, but i'm just happy nothing bloody happened.

My thoughts for that person... "You really have to undergo some anger management!"

I think i'm suffocating unknowingly. The other day i went for some committee meeting. THere was NUMEROUS task stated our for my role... AHHHH... so much to do!!!! helping out in the program is no easy task... i didn't read the fine lines that comes along with the task! I dunno if i can handle the task because i just do all i can do in a day... whatever i cannot finish is being brought forward to the next. So... i just hope that i can get everything done in time... ...

Really need some support... at times think i'm taking in more than what i can digest.
Sometimes feeling abit weak and wanna cry... but its just a waste of energy to cry... so i try to laugh abit harder... (sometimes..the happiest person is the saddest person in the world)

I try not to think about what i have to do in a week.. coz it feels alittle overwhealming and often it would lead up to me feeling all weak and that's all self pity. Must read my encouraging board (That's my personal board where i pin up alot of personal stuff and some of which are to encourage myself especially when i'm losing focus.) Think i'm kinda losing focus really... time to seriously sit and pray about it.

Signing Off!