Unheard Conversation

Today did alot of reading... so much to study. Applied for a day off tml just so that i can study more. Grr...

Tomorrow marks a significant day for a decision to be made. Most likely gonna drop one module. Hopefully it will free up more time to study, after all that was the main motive for coming over.

Have been distracted by afew factors here and there. Super nice of lady boss to call me and reassure me that she has found a replacement and asked me to take it easy. She shared part of her life with me as well, about how our life is a journey and made up of so many important valuable things in life than just studies. She said that success takes on many perspective and that there are many who have strive and excelled in managerial roles. However, she did mentioned that they were unmarried individuals as they have given so much of their time to achieving what they want in life. I do not disagree. She is right. To say that only studying can get me where i want to go is like peering through a pinhole. The horizons are much more than that. However, it is a stepping milestone. A ticket for me to open more doors of oppotunities. (Quoted from my Mom.)

However, i have to also critically evaluate the reasons for me to stay. It shld be objective, not clouded by emotions. Less than 24 hours and i decide to drop or just stick to the module. Grrr... *Linda grits her teeth.

Let me re enact the thoughts that run through my head. I shall use two Linda's. Linda1 and Linda2

Linda1: Never thought of being an accountant before because my parents didn't like the idea of me being an accountant. But i never try, how would i know that i don't like it. Besides its only 6 months. Maybe i will like it?

Linda2: You must be nuts. You're doing Auditing and Managerial Accounting... you tell me if you enjoy it anot.

Linda1: But studying and working is two different things!

Linda2: Don't kid yourself. If studying it already is as boring as it is, imagine working!!

Linda1: Not like i totally enjoy finance also...

Linda2: Ya true, but Finance opens up so many other possibility as comapred to accounting. Ah... and you already so tired doing one major and you're thinking of doing another one. Before you know it, you're gonna want to study law, psychology and art. All of which you have interest too. So its never gonna end. Stress level would run high.
Money would run dry.

Linda1: Ya... you're making sense. Learning is a never ending phase. I study just so that i can open the opportunity of doors. But staying here is pretty cool too don't you think?

Linda2: Correct so just like your mother say. Study one more major only if you're SERIOUSLY thinking of getting a PR here. So have you seriously considered working here?

Linda1: No.

Linda2: Then go back home! Besides if you really detest working back Home. You can always save up come back here and do a masters... agree?

Linda1: Ya... Linda2 always makes alot of sense. Oke.

I Will Be Here
Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here

I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here
Oh, I will be here.