An entry from Brisbane

Ahh.. finally a chance to blog. Well holiday here has been slow. But could be more fulfilling.

Arrived here feeling really tired. My flight was delayed by an hour due to a need to fix the blades of the airplane. On the plane i wanted to recline the chair. However the lady behind had her food tray down and her tummy was leaning so close towards it. If i had reclined, it would have rudely awakened her. Besides the Australian man, seated beside me was just praising our country being so vibrant and versatile... etc.

I caught a flu bug a day it wasn't pleasant at all. So i slept through a day and a half i think. Brr... and it didn't help that there was a bad dust storm hovering in the air. According to the science department, A normal day would see around 10 micrograms of particles per cubic metre of air and a bushfire might generate 500 micrograms. However, levels soared to 15,400 micrograms per cubic metre of air at one location.

I still have plenty to thank the Lord for. Friends who have been wonderfully hospitable. Thanks Matt and Serene for the awesome treat at Pineapple hotel. Nice classy atmosphere. Thanks for comforting our dear Gary who is still feeling blue over the dismiss of Katie. Also, i met Wayne the dude and punkster from my ex-classmate. He's doing well and am glad he's happy at the church that i formerly attended while studying here. It's a small world indeed. Everyone else here is look good. Praise the Lord. Mikaela looks fantastic. A bright smart baby, simply adorable and i couldn't resist cuddling her.

I have made a trip down to danger point. A very refreshing day. Had nice steaming hot ramen. Hope to go down to Mt Cootha later.

I'm almost done reading the book "Thank God its Monday". A indeed challenging book. It really made me go ouch in many moments. Many things which society has already accepted as the norm but its really contradicting to our faith. For example, overloading staffs? You either do it or you leave cause there's plenty out there who's willing to do your job? What about the money... paying the bills? Going for a lower salaried job? The odds are sometimes startling well, just tons to consider.

Hazy Crazy Lazy

To sum my working days up, life has been too chaotic.

I feel suffocated and would feel burdened. Very frustrated and just happy i am home on a Saturday.

I have frustrated colleagues and particularly one who's son has been hospitalised. As such i really feel sorry for them. When they sacrifice their time at work and neglect their family in the process. I understand how they feel cause i myself feel that way too. So much work... and my family and loved ones sometimes bear the brunt of it. When i come home, they see and feel my huff and puff of hot air.

Father, you told me to lean not on my own understanding. The thing is i really can't lean on it as much as i would like to. Many things don't seem to make sense. I don't know if its me that is causing the imbalance of injustice at work. Or could i have just done better or more. If i did do that much more, would i be doing justice to myself as my reputation gets smeared. Oh Lord, i really don't know how to handle these sticky situations.

What would you say and do if you saw all this now Lord?

My vision of the world and people are being blurred. Ur the only one who can make logical sense out of all this.

Just like how you made perfect sense of Isrealites misery by displaying your awesome power and might and releasing them from Eygpt.

Was life meant to be so harsh? Hear my cries.