Queen of PackerS

I'm taking such a long time to pack!!!

Haha.. tml will be off to retreat camp tml!! Abit excited...

Hmm not really sure what to expect.. but definitely PICTURES!!!

Today work was tiring... after that i did abit of shopping too... shopped and bought very girl clothes... I was abit surprised at what i bought but.. nonetheless very nice... and they were on sale!!! That's the best part of everything.

Shall be back on Monday!

Take care everyone!!

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I must return... i must... ...

Work was hectic... made so many mistakes at the cashier today... but all minor ones... no big slip ups... praise God.. just want to give him all thanks and praise for that...

Today boss wanted me to do an additional task on top of my daily routine... abit ridiculous and impossible for me to handle... but praise God... haha.. the boss RAN OUT of containers!! HAHA... first time somemore... so i didn't have to do the task and could leave for home on time. Was so glad and thankful for that... if not i'll be so stressed out...

Came home... alittle tired.. and spoke alittle to my brother... he's abit out of sorts.. his burden is heavy.. and he doesn't know where to unload it... he made a wrong turn... and can't seem to find the U turn... and unknowingly.. he went all the way down with it. Tried to encourage him... and help him find hope in the Lord... but all was in vain.. half way he cut me off... and i was left hanging there... wondering if i got to him...

That's all i can do... ...

Sometimes... i have to accept that i cannot solve or change the way things are... but to believe and have faith that God can and WILL ultimately turn things around...

Returning home is not at option i suppose... though i would love to stay and work here... but looking at the way things are... there is a role that needs to be filled at home... there is a hole... that needs to be occupied by me.... sigh* The journey ahead seems to be getting thougher with each step i take... more reasons for me to be fervent in prayer... ...

PSALM 48
Great is the Lord, And greatly to be praised.
In the city of our God, In the mountain of His holiness.
Beautiful for situation, The joy of the whole earth.
Is mount Zion, on the sides of the north, the city of the great King.
Is mount Zion, on the sides of the north, the city of the great King.


HOW EXCELLENT YOUR NAME
O Lord, our Lord, how excellent Your name is,
How excellent Your name in all the earth.
Your glory fills the heavens beyond the farthest star,
How excellent your name in all the earth.
When I think about the heavens, the moon and all the stars,
I wonder what You ever saw in me; But You took me and You loved me,
and You’ve given me a crown, And now I’ll praise Your name eternally.


I Sing Praises
I sing praises to Your name, O Lord,
Praises to Your name, O Lord,
For Your name is great and greatly to be praised;
I sing praises to Your name, O Lord,
Praises to Your name, O Lord,
For Your name is great and greatly to be praised.
I give glory to Your name, O Lord,
Glory to Your name, O Lord,
For Your name is great and greatly to be praised;
I give glory to Your name, O Lord,
Glory to Your name, O Lord,
For Your name is great and greatly to be praised.

HOSANNA
HOSANNA HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST;
HOSANNA, HOSANNA, HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST.

LORD WE LIFT UP YOUR NAME,
WITH OUR HEARTS FULL OF PRAISE;
BE EXALTED O LORD OUR GOD,HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST.

GLORY, GLORY, GLORY TO THE KING OF KINGS;
GLORY, GLORY, GLORY TO THE KING OF KINGS.

LORD WE LIFT UP YOUR NAME,
WITH OUR HEARTS FULL OF PRAISE;
BE EXALTED O LORD OUR GOD,
GLORY TO THE KING OF KINGS.

*Tired*

I'm tired...

I know its the holidays. But i've been working and it can be tiring. Today i went to work and it was alittle bit chaotic at the counter because i'm working with this other colleague. I seldom work with her and haven't gotten used to her style. It was messy during the peak hour and it got afew customers upset as a result. A hungry man is a angry man. God was really there throughout the whole process... its just minor slip ups that occured. I did afew juggling acts today. Caught the cloth mid way in the air, caught a flying apple which flew out of the juice machine... like everything was just nice or mistakes were realised in a nick of time.

Tomorrow i'm gonna work with another girl... never work with her before, so I will be praying that God will see that everything runs smoothly. Everybody has their own strengths and its important to identify who is good at working with what so that during peak hour, the process can run smoothly.

After work, i went to do some paper shopping. Didn't see any fantastic or must buy deals. But i couldn't resist the crave to buy some paper... so i did. I just finished making afew cards. Hmm... i think the papers are not very nice but its good training to work with whatever you have on ur hands. I think its an asset to be able to create sth beautiful with minimal materials that you have on hand. It's not all about getting that wonderful beautifully decorated translucent paper or material. So... i'm still working on it. But the cards are looking pretty. Oh yar.. that's the other reason why i'm tired...make cards.

Had afew insights from today's bible reading...

I know the many times i would wish in my heart that the world would be a nicer kinder place to live it. However, as we all know... its far from a beautiful nice peaceful place. There's so many harsh punishments... even the slightest thing puts me off. Like my boss losing his temper, or getting reprimanded by somebody.

But God is wise and just. These might hurt us, disappoint us make us upset and all... ... but these might be His way of purifying us that we may come out of the fire, stronger and that we may not make the same mistake again. That after the fire, that we will not be foolish and be tricked by those who are out to trick us and bring about a downfall. To hang in there when you feel the heat.... so get ready to be burnt!

Easier said than done... i think i will most likely take sth to *kong* the persons head... but i'll try... i'll try.

Reflection

This semester has been a tough tiring one....

- Moving of house (Indooroo to St Lucia)
- TT car accident
- My losing stuff period
- Insomia
- Retreat Camp stuff
- Other personal problems

Just am glad that God has seen me and pulled me through it all.

You will be missed... ...

COFFEE CLUB in the city


Have got friends flying off to Melbourne, flying back home...etc. Hmm.. think i'm really gonna miss close friends who are graduating this sem.




Really gonna miss the 3 guys... i'll never forget them... especially C. He's a true blue friend who will stand up for me when pple backstab me. Yar... i'm not all that likeable.. there are pple lurking out there who actually do hate me.. behind my back. So yes... maybe my good intentions have turned out wrong, i can't make the whole world happy. A really nice person who really helped me to adjust to this place. A very friendly trustworthy and kind friend. C and P are just wonderful pple... had some totally wacky fun memories with them... including those crazy nites of just mugging together. I remembered being uncomfortable telling church pple abt my stuff... but like C and P, they never looked down on me in anyway. Instead they were really attentive, helped me shift out of my place, visit me, invite me over, ask me out... just very thankful for them. Really happy to bring C to church. He might not leave with a gd first impression but if you know him better, he really has a heart of gold. S is a FANTASTIC chef... he puts all the girls to shame cause he can whip up restaurant standard kinda dishes and deserts. Haha.. he can critcise all the outside food, too saltish ah... a super sociable guy. I nv hang around him that often because he converses mainly in Chinese and some other personal stuff. But as a friend, he is really nice, open and giving too. I count it my blessing to have them as friends. Friends who are there when your just happy are friends you can slap them on their butt and wave gdbye. These are friends who have stuck it in with me even in the worst times. Always a call away. Hope C will grow closer to God when he gets back Singapore... and that P and S will one day know God as their personal saviour too and change for the better.

A clean room

Previously, my room was really cluttered. When i first moved in, i didn't really organise the stuff. Just hid everything inside the closet. During the exams, i just dump everything inside. You don't know what lies behind the closed door. Ha... it took me whole day to just clean up one room! Made me realise what a load of stuff and rubbish i have accumulated. Changed bedsheets and cleared table. What's left right now is to organise all the notes and some other nitty gritty stuff. Heehee... now i'm not ashamed to open my closet for all to see. Have to do sit down and write out a list of grocery items to buy.

Yesterday went out with afew friends who were gonna graduate this sem as well as those who finished their exams today. There's the same sort of gloom hanging over everybody's head, but we all hid it. There's no point thinking about the paper, we already did what we had to do... now we just hope for the best... even if there's the 0.0000000000000000001 % chance of hope, we will cling onto it. I really am glad to have them... thankful because they were always willing to give a helping hand. Yesterday we hang out till we were all tired out. Some were like walking zombies. *giggles* but it was very early like... 10 plus only! But we talked and shared alot. Don't know when will we have this kinda big gathering again. Maybe back in Singapore? Only time will tell... ...

the match making business

TOday is a really busy day. Morning had something scheduled, afternoon had to work... and tonight friends called me out. Gosh... and i thought that i would be watching tv tonight. Haha.. right...

There's always sth out of the ordinary happening almost every other day. This morning, both bosses was in a super good mood. Goodness knows why. Anyway, there is this shop next to us and there is this guy who helps out at this shop. He came over today, delivering two plates of french toast with some yummy berries on top. It looked yummy! Lady boss divided the portions and gave me a portion of the spread.

Then... they started talking about him being cute and all.. yar oke so he's cute... but they couldn't stop there!!! THey had to go on saying that i ought to grab the opportunity! He's same age and me and all... WAHhhHHh... oke... then eat finish.. i cleaned the plate... and they ask me to go over and return it... and say sth nice... ARGH... oke so i went over to return the plates. Lady boss came along behind... and... after i return the plate... i wanted to quickly turn back.. then she stood there and started talking about me!!!! Saying that i'm single and stuff. Eeeks... i immediately left lah... she stayed there and talk talk.. then she went back telling me that he was blushing... aiyo. and then she ask me if i want his number anot cause she has it. *Linda shock* Then... she tell me he from Tasmania... and that i would be able to each salmon all the time. Haha... i couldn't stop laughing lah... Bosses went nuts. Then after that lady boss ask me to help her take some containers from a high shelf. And like its on purpose lah because she hoping that the cute guy will come over and help me. Knowing that she obviously didn't need the containers i just scooted back and did my stuff.

Lady boss is in a funnily good mood. Must be business has been really good. Like good for her, but bad for me. OVerworked! I really am on my toes each second. from the cashier to the juices, to delivering the dishes, to taking orders, to selling sushi... especially today. i wonder what's with the customers. Make me so busy. One in praticular, SO FIERCE. I was angry also. After that she came back again... and this time round i totally ignored her and served the customer behind her. *Linda shows definace*Let lady boss attend to this crazy woman's wants.

After that, guy boss became his crazy self. He was like chiding me for his own mistake. *Linda becomes angry and totally quiet after that*

Bleh... and he knows it... so he tried to talk to me... but it doesn't do the works.

Shall carry on... now have to change... going out!

Exams are over!!!

Exams ended yesterday, after which, went over to I's place to watch Dvds, after afew hours of sleep, was out of bed and off to work, went to woolies get some stuff, came back home to settle afew issues and manage to settle down for alittle quiet ME time to blog this entry out.

Not exactly elated that the exams over cause many unexpected questions came out. There's a cloud of insecurity and disaapointment hanging over my head everytime i walk out of the exam hall. It's always a question of "how can this be my best?"... "am i the only idiot who don't know how to answer the question?" However, there's really no point brooding over it as what is done is done. I left it in His hands before for i sat for the exam, in the same manner, i ought to trust Him after my exam.

I know i told practically EVERYONE that i'll be going to Sydney and Melbourne but i guess i'm won't be going after all. Not an appropriate time to go. Hmm.. am i dissapointed? Nah.... i'm sure God has his reasons. This holiday is only a months holiday. So hope i can use it wisely and not just spending it doing what i want. Cause this life is not exactly mine to begin with. God bought me with a price... it's not about me... ...

Still got friends who are taking exam this week and next. So i have to remain fervent in prayer for them. I really appreciate all those who prayed for me. The visitation, the comforting words, the survival pack (it really came in handy when i ran out of food)...etc. Each one of them a unique individual, each comes with their very special talent. I'm just so happy that God has blessed me with the time and the resources to know each one of them and to LEARN more about God through them. I'm just really thankful for this whole entire semester. I have truly been doing many many things... that time seems to move so slowly.. especially during the exams... the exam which i took 2 days ago would feel like i took it a week ago!!! Studying just clouds the mind.

Oh forgot to add..

Had a free bus ride home today. I went up the bus wanting to slot my ten trip ticket when the bus driver say... just move on... JUST MOVE ON!! Then i realised the machine is faulty.. the driver seemed to be having a super bad day... hmm... anyway.. free bus ride! Yippie.. yup... so happy... ....

Get over it....

Feeling kinda blue at the moment.

Miss my housemate already.. she left for Singapore TODAY! Yar.. she finished her paper already and i still got one last paper to go. Really happy for her.. cause i know she really miss home alot.

I feel like i lost steam.. exhausted from trying to pick myself up and working out all the solutions, sit for the exam only to answer a whole problem.

Not that there was anything wrong with today's paper, just tired... it feels abit meaningless to sit at the table all day and do nothing but look at numbers and stuffing more and more stuff into my brain....

oke enough of the blues...

here are some happy tots!

1) Called home this morning... so happy to talk to my mom and dad. My mother and father are still the same. Always anxious for me esp mum... always questioning every move and decision i make... just cause she wants to make sure i'm making the right choices and living right. It adds abit of pressure on myself... if anything goes wrong... i'm answerable for it. But isn't it wonderful to have God to lean on and to cast all things onto him because he understands, he knows and in control.

Things might look gloomy now (just like the weather) but... i'm sure God has his reasons.

2) Yst boss called me... she was asking me when i can go back work kinda thing.. then when i told her after my exams.. she sounded so elated! Then she went on saying she likes working with me.. cause she finds that i am patient and she got that SECURE feeling... other pple she say she tends to lose her temper HAHA... funny loh. I couldn't help but laugh... she didn't realise how kan chiong i am everytime i work.

3) ONE LAST PAPER TO GO!!! (HAppy and sad... wishing today WAS the final paper)

4) gd sleep last night. My brains last night was really fried... glad that i slept... although it was for a short while... but yes... it was what i needed. Thank you Father!

Defying Logic and Reasoning

Studying my finance stuff... i guess one of the most ridiculous thing that it says is that... no matter how little you earn, you will be able to save if you have the financial discipline to do so. If someone earns only 2 bucks a day, how to save huh... *Linda KONGS the authors head*

oke... i'm happy. If not happy.. i will KONG somemore... *KONG KONG KONG*

I made a big decision a little while ago.
I don't remember what it was, which prob'ly goes to show
That many times a simple choice can prove to be essential
Even though it often might appear inconsequential.

I must have been distracted when I left my home because
Left or right I'm sure I went. (I wonder which it was!)
Anyway, I never veered: I walked in that direction
Utterly absorbed, it seems, in quiet introspection.
For no reason I can think of, I've wandered far astray.
And that is how I got to where I find myself today.

Explorers are we, intrepid and bold,
Out in the wild, amongst wonders untold.
Equipped wit our wits, a map, and a snack,
We're searching for fun and we're on the right track!

My mother has eyes on the back of her head!
I don't quite believe it, but that's what she said.
She explained that she'd been so uniquely endowed
To catch me when I did Things Not Allowed.
I think she must also have eyes on her rear.
I've noticed her hindsight is usually clear.
At night my mind does not much care
If what it thinks is here or there.
It tells me stories it invents
And makes up things that don't make sense.
I don't know why it does this stuff.
The real world seems quite weird enough.

What if my bones were in a museum,
Where aliens paid good money to see 'em?
And suppose that they'd put me together all wrong,
Sticking bones on to bones where they didn't belong!

Imagine phalanges, pelvis, and spine
Welded to mandibles that once had been mine!
With each misassemblage, the error compounded,
The aliens would draw back in terror, astounded!
Their textbooks would show me in grim illustration,
The most hideous thing ever seen in creation!
The museum would commission a model in plaster
Of ME, to be called, "Evolution's Disaster"!
And paleontologists there would debate
Dozens of theories to help postulate
How man survived for those thousands of years
With teeth-covered arms growing out of his ears!
Oh, I hope that I'm never in such manner displayed,
No matter HOW much to see me the aliens paid.
I did not want to go with them.
Alas, I had no choice.
This was made quite clear to me
In threat'ning tones of voice.
I protested mightily
And scrambled 'cross the floor.
But though I grabbed the furniture,
they dragged me out of the door.
In the car, I screamed and moaned.
I cried my red eyes dry.
The window down, I yelled for help
To people we passed by.
Mom and Dad can make the rules
And certain things forbid,
But I can make them wish that they
Had never had a kid.
Now I'm in bed,
The sheets pulled to my head.
My tiger is here making Zs.
He's furry and hot.
He takes up a lot
Of the bed and he's hogging the breeze.

Canon by Funtwo

Charmed...

Writing essays in numbers

Today i sat for my Econometrics... It was so hard that... i believe no matter how hard i study... i would have never been prepared for it. It was really difficult. Looking at the past year papers, they upped the standard like 100%.. so with afew conversations, i heard that this is the first time THIS lecturer has set the paper. She really know how to work the brains out... i just hope i didn't screw up that badly.

I REALLY HOPE THAT I PASS ECONOMETRICS!!!!

Some of the questions are not answerable. Not taught in lecture or tutorial! I dunno where in the world did she think the students were gonna derive at the answer(whatever the answer that is). Everybody also dunno WHAT TO THINK! It really feels like i was writing an essay in numbers! You know.. the kind where you have to DISCUSS!!! DISCUSS NUMBERS !!!!#$%^&*&

I don't like lah... why bother to test us something that we never learn? What's the POINT? There is NO POINT! POINTLESS!!!!

Just super disappointed because this paper actually determines EVERYTHING! In that TWO HOURS, it determines between a 4,5,6 and a 7! That's how ridiculously we are being assessed. I repeat... RIDICULOUS!!!!!

IT's emotionally and mentally exhausting.

Feel like a total idiot now... ...

AHHhhHHhhh I really don't want to fail... Really.. really... ... *sigh*

Pouring Rain

I walked in the pouring rain!!! Went to toowong with TT and like... it rained on the way back... and i didn't have an umbrella with me... so... walked walked... waited at the traffic light and there was this little petite girl... shared her umbrella with me... AWWwwwWWw i was like warm all over inside although i was shivering like a naked sheep on the outside.

Oh... met D and K and toowong... nice short chat.

Now to hit the books!

so happy! so HappY!!!

SO HAPPY!! Cause Just now... my MUMMY ask me to call home!! SO i call home.. and i spoke to her! ANd she told me some interesting news! WAhahahahaha... although its not gonna happen, but just so happy!!! It's as though i won a million dollars! HAHA... short lived happiness now i have to go back and study... maybe next wk boss will want me to work lah... ARGH.. NOOooOO must pray i wont need to work... next week is damn important! Every single hour that pass me by would probably count for like 10marks. YAr... i know that crucial.... 5 hours gone to working equals to 50 marks! WAH... ... cannot cannot... hmm... oke maybe will blog again tonight cause later got visitation. SO exciting.. yar.. oke.. now the boring part.. i go back and study.

P.S I am banned from MSN... yar... i told God i was spending too much time of MSN and i need to ban myself... and guess what... he REALLY go and ban me lah! Today I can't sign on to MSN, not even webmessenger or emessenger... truly ALmighTY God...

Block out the noise

*why*why*why*

STATISTICS SUCKS!!!
ECONOMETRICS is a TOTAL TOTAL disappointment!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I DON'T like to interpret log function models WITH STUPID DUMMY VARIABLES!!!!
WHY must they put the 2 of them together!!! Because together i don't know what to interpret!!!! AHHHhhHH so FRUSTRATING...

and i always thought that mathematical stuff had a straight to the point standard answers... boohoo... economist are not pple... their not human!!! NOooOO NOT HUMAN!!!

TUTOR give different answer!! WAHHhhHHh KONG his head ah... HOW can give different answer and different explanation to lecture one.. huh! HOW CAN... then i follow which one.. tell me? tell me?!!! I tell you!! I will follow MYSELF!!

Oke... now that i'm done whining, i can go back and study... thank you for listening to Linda's classic whining.

Group Support

this morning got up and reached sch at abt 9am. Had alittle breakfast at this new place which sweet Ruth brought the group to. I never knew that such a nice comfy place existed in UQ. Well i guess the fact that not many pple was there makes the place comfy. It's swotvac week and i met up with the girls for breakfast to encourage each other. Everybody shared quite abit so it was really nice... here are some pictures to tell the story.

Group Photo!!! Breakfast so yummy!

Okay.. i just got out of bed... and went off to school to meet them... super sleepy... but very happy. How can one not be happy when greeted with such a sumptuous meal in the morning?

They look so pretty and sweet... really happy to start the week with them
Okay.. this was my study space... this picture can tell alot alot of story... okay
1) i drank alot alot of water... (water bottle empty)
2) yummy biscuits... yes i snacked.
3) tissue.. i had to sneeze... it was cold
4) handphone... i had to call my friend cause there was afew stuff i couldn't grasp or figure out while studying
5)paper and book.. YES I STUDIED!!!

Studying pals... they were so tired, and worn out after studying for approximately 4 hours plus. Really enjoyed their presence, companion, encouragement and support.

Called my boss awhile ago... and just so happy to hear that i am not scheduled this week! SO SWEET! haha... i'm exhilerated. More time to study... yes... i shall take the time i have for granted... blog more later? We'll see!!!

Today's reading was abit difficult for me to swallow... ...

22 At that moment the servants of David and Joab came from a raid and brought much spoil with them. But Abner was not with David in Hebron, for he had sent him away, and he had gone in peace.

23 When Joab and all the troops that were with him had come, they told Joab, saying, “Abner the son of Ner came to the king, and he sent him away, and he has gone in peace.”

24 Then Joab came to the king and said, “What have you done? Look, Abner came to you; why is it that you sent him away, and he has already gone? 25 Surely you realize that Abner the son of Ner came to deceive you, to know your going out and your coming in, and to know all that you are doing.”

27 Now when Abner had returned to Hebron, Joab took him aside in the gate to speak with him privately, and there stabbed him in the stomach, so that he died for the blood of Asahel his brother.

28 Afterward, when David heard it, he said, “My kingdom and I are guiltless before the LORD forever of the blood of Abner the son of Ner.

29 Let it rest on the head of Joab and on all his father’s house; and let there never fail to be in the house of Joab one who has a discharge or is a leper, who leans on a staff or falls by the sword, or who lacks bread.”

30 So Joab and Abishai his brother killed Abner, because he had killed their brother Asahel at Gibeon in the battle.

Like it seemed right and justifiable for Joab and Abishai to do what they did. And like.. David knew that their brothers were killed by Abner... and still made peace with him. Gave me the impression that David personality is one who is cold... but really.. his heart was only for one and that is God. Which was probably why he did what he did. To get Israel back to God.

It's also about submitting to authority. It's so hard... especially when it seems justifiable. But what seems justifiable to us may not be right and fitting in God's eyes. And so... God's ways are always higher than ours.

It's important not to be impulsive and act rashly when emotions run high... must contain myself. I guess one has to continuously walk with God in order to understand his ways and hence prevent actions that will lead to inevitable costly consequences. Something i have to learn.

Comfort

1Samuel 30
3 So David and his men came to the city, and there it was, burned with fire; and their wives, their sons, and their daughters had been taken captive. 4 Then David and the people who were with him lifted up their voices and wept, until they had no more power to weep. 5 And David’s two wives, Ahinoam the Jezreelitess, and Abigail the widow of Nabal the Carmelite, had been taken captive. 6 Now David was greatly distressed, for the people spoke of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and his daughters. But David strengthened himself in the LORD his God.


On window panes, the icy frost
awakes me as i got out of bed feeling alittle lost
With my feet on the cold icy ground i tip toed around
found nothing warm and i sat down and frowned

I reached out my hands for the book of life
the answers to many of my strife
The fonts were tiny and i squinted to read
these are the very words i knew i ought to heed

Words of comfort warmed up my cold bitter heart
as i got ready for school, off to a good start

Freezing... as temperature continues to dip

It's been REALLY REALLY cold in the night.

Was greeted by the cold freezing morning air. BrrrRRrr... Yesterday's lowest was 5 degrees. Gonna start wearing more layers of clothes... It's PENGUIN TIME!

Winter is here... when i think winter, i think of white fluffy snow... holidays... fun... relaxation.
it's so different over here... winter is now BRIGHT, and definitely not FUN as the exams draw near.

It gets dark really early in the evening. Might be staying late in school in the next few days... shall pray for safety.... it's usually deserted... and eerie... especially on Fridays... had some really bad experience afew weeks back... with some strange pple lurking in school. Reached home safely with God's protection.