How you guys like my new blog? Haha.. hope this keeps Lyana happy.
I'm on a rebounce... meaning... i've fallen... yes defeated (ya... i admit defeat). But it doesnt mean a total lost. Yes... i have already lost the battle but wait there's the war the conquer. Tears have been shed, morale has been low. But this aint the last that ur gonna see of me.
What i'm saying is... this girl here... FAILED her mid-exam... miserably. Yar.. probably the reason why this blog has been pretty dead. With grey clouds hanging over my head, with disappointments to manage... i don'y know how i even pulled through the week. With my heart battered and hopes dashed. It's been tough to think of how to survive next. If i could paint a picture to portray the situation that i'm in now... it would be my head bobbing up and down the ocean, calling out for help.
I've seen where i've gone wrong in analysing the question.. its so tough.. *Linda faints...
But i dunt wanna give up just yet... noOOOoo
Only God can help me pass this module... if not.. i am so so dead............ Gonna keep trying... keep striving... never give up...
keeping my dreams alive.
Friday, September 30, 2005
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Stay Grounded
Staying Grounded
Went makan for lunch with afew friends after church at 'Makan Place' in Westend. It serves fantastic asian food but very pricey as well.. It was a once in a while thing... so i ate abt 10bucks AUD. Had curry chicken rice and it reminded me of my mommy's curry chicken! mmmmmMmmm.. then i started to feel homesick... everything started to sink in... especially when everybody kept talking about their trip back home to Singapore. I just kept really quiet... i know i aint be back to Singapore until i get my degree. It was a sinking kinda feeling... though the food tasted great, i was feeling all blue.
Everybody keeps asking me why i'm not going back.
Everbody: 'WHY?! WHY?'
Linda: 'WHY NOT?!!!'
argh... everybody is going back and i'll be left here. Aint gonna complain sulk or anything. I believe strongly to being optimistic. I'll get a job in no time, earning aussie dollar, gaining experience... nothing can tie me down! I'll just roam Australia with loads of freedom! Can really be independent and all. Everybody is so worried for me... like wah... u'll be here all by urself?! Then they start giving me contacts of pple whom i can contact and all... i was thinking... i wont even need that. I'm stronger than they think... i'm not the kind of person who needs pple to entertain me. I'll find things to do... there's so much one can do here if u only open ur eyes and look ard. If there's really nothing... big deal, i'll buy a ticket, fly myself to melbourne or sydney and visit my friends or relatives. I do miss friends... i do miss my family (very much)... everytime i think of home and not being able to return only 1.5 years later... i feel extremely upset and a sense of longing just builds inside of me. The feeling is intense but no point thinking abt it. Got to put my two little feet down and keep moving. The time will arrive where i return back home... to my nest... where i truly belong. For now, i'll slog it out and push myself to the max.
Will be doing loads of things during mid-semester break! Bake cake, Make my own pancakes (w/o premix), maybe grill steak, see if i can make pizza, bake cookies, Roast Chicken and cook beef. I never actually cook any beef before... but think i'll pick up a thing or two over here. Oh.. can't forget the soup. Tomato soup, potato soup and chicken soup. yum yum. Linda has put on weight already. last time i never got pass the 42kg part... now i'm already 44kg! funny... i don't seem to feel like my waistline getting bigger or whatever... maybe its just the bone mass getting stronger or heavier? THink its the milk... i never drink milk on a daily basis back home... over here i have to eat cornflakes in the night and in the morning... i have to eat biscuits and bread in between meals. So yar.. think that's how i put on weight. It's still cold ard here... so get hungry really fast.
Today is Mooncake festival! Going to my friend's place, have alittle of our own gathering to chill out for awhile then hit the books in the night. Will take afew pics just so that i can post it up on my blog! Hope everybody is doing fantastically well back in Singapore! MISS YOU ALL OH SO VERY MUCH...
Went makan for lunch with afew friends after church at 'Makan Place' in Westend. It serves fantastic asian food but very pricey as well.. It was a once in a while thing... so i ate abt 10bucks AUD. Had curry chicken rice and it reminded me of my mommy's curry chicken! mmmmmMmmm.. then i started to feel homesick... everything started to sink in... especially when everybody kept talking about their trip back home to Singapore. I just kept really quiet... i know i aint be back to Singapore until i get my degree. It was a sinking kinda feeling... though the food tasted great, i was feeling all blue.
Everybody keeps asking me why i'm not going back.
Everbody: 'WHY?! WHY?'
Linda: 'WHY NOT?!!!'
argh... everybody is going back and i'll be left here. Aint gonna complain sulk or anything. I believe strongly to being optimistic. I'll get a job in no time, earning aussie dollar, gaining experience... nothing can tie me down! I'll just roam Australia with loads of freedom! Can really be independent and all. Everybody is so worried for me... like wah... u'll be here all by urself?! Then they start giving me contacts of pple whom i can contact and all... i was thinking... i wont even need that. I'm stronger than they think... i'm not the kind of person who needs pple to entertain me. I'll find things to do... there's so much one can do here if u only open ur eyes and look ard. If there's really nothing... big deal, i'll buy a ticket, fly myself to melbourne or sydney and visit my friends or relatives. I do miss friends... i do miss my family (very much)... everytime i think of home and not being able to return only 1.5 years later... i feel extremely upset and a sense of longing just builds inside of me. The feeling is intense but no point thinking abt it. Got to put my two little feet down and keep moving. The time will arrive where i return back home... to my nest... where i truly belong. For now, i'll slog it out and push myself to the max.
Will be doing loads of things during mid-semester break! Bake cake, Make my own pancakes (w/o premix), maybe grill steak, see if i can make pizza, bake cookies, Roast Chicken and cook beef. I never actually cook any beef before... but think i'll pick up a thing or two over here. Oh.. can't forget the soup. Tomato soup, potato soup and chicken soup. yum yum. Linda has put on weight already. last time i never got pass the 42kg part... now i'm already 44kg! funny... i don't seem to feel like my waistline getting bigger or whatever... maybe its just the bone mass getting stronger or heavier? THink its the milk... i never drink milk on a daily basis back home... over here i have to eat cornflakes in the night and in the morning... i have to eat biscuits and bread in between meals. So yar.. think that's how i put on weight. It's still cold ard here... so get hungry really fast.
Today is Mooncake festival! Going to my friend's place, have alittle of our own gathering to chill out for awhile then hit the books in the night. Will take afew pics just so that i can post it up on my blog! Hope everybody is doing fantastically well back in Singapore! MISS YOU ALL OH SO VERY MUCH...
Saturday, September 17, 2005
Chase the Blues Away
Chase the Blues Away
Haiz... today is not a gd day man... just finished up my last mid semester paper. It's radically difficult can?! I hope i can pass... ARGH... A GPA of 4 will look SUPER UGLY on me! The questions are so demanding and problematic. A 1 hour paper with 4 short answer questions (like problems sum) and 20 MCQs... so if you work you math out like i did, its 1 minute for one MCQ and 5 minutes for each short answer. HOW TO MAKE IT! ARGH... with so many calculations and me furiously pressing the calculator to the extent that my fingers abit cramp. Sobs* that's no excuse anyway... haiz... feel so dissapointed. I studied so hard for this paper, waking up at 6am sleep at 12pm... but wat's the use... futile effort of my part. In case your wondering, this is a Statistic paper, Alot more in-depth then the Stats we did in poly. Argh... I COULD HAVE SCORED!!! Not enough time... too rush, not enough brain power to conjure up with all the right answers in afew seconds.
Weather Forecast
Enough of gibberish incessant complaints, i shall now talk about the weather here. Yes.. Winter has ended. tis suppose to be Spring where flowers bloom and bees emerge. Haha yes this is me painting a rosy picture. NO... Spring aint so colourful like it is. It is actually pretty cold right now. with temperatures reaching 20 degrees. Yesterday there was a heavy downpour of rain (first time since i arrived), its not like the heavy rain in Singapore pitter patter pitter patter... the rain here is different as in it REALLY POURS.. impact is greater. The wind is so strong that it penetrates into my room and my door actually shakes. It was a noisy night with all the loud sound of the wind. NOooO... the wind DIDNT blow me away...
Fortunately that the winds here are not strong enough to create a disaster although afew branches did fall off. I mean you look at new Orleans and the damage and the aftermath of it all. Huge huge revamping and restoration to be done. A pity that this world is so judgemental about the colour of our skin. We're all human beings with feelings... please wake up ur idea if ur still thinking europeans are superior.
THIEF THIEF!!!
Lately i've been bz.. plenty of things have happened in the week alone. My friends wallet got stolen and last week my friends house got broken into. House getting broken into is a COMMON thing... its like a everyday kinda thing. By the way... when thieves rob houses or cars... they do it in a massive kinda way. Like... they don't just rob one house, they rob one ENTIRE BLOCK! They are so daring you know... and these theives are teenagers! I'm so appalled at the efficency of the Australians. THE POLICE DiN EvEn HavE PlastiC Bag to keep EviDence! My friend had to provide plastic bags for them to keep a torn envelope which might contain the thief fingerprints. I doubt they'll even bother to check. So "efficient". I mean in times of crisis or emergency, shouldn't they step up their service? Makes me wonder how their emergency room in hospitals are being run. Tsk tsk... stupefied at how things are done. Had to do alot of consolling... my accompanied my friend to look for her wallet, hoping the theif threw it in dustbins or toilet.. so we went searching into all the dustbin and toilets (DO U Have ANy idea how many Dustbins and toilets there are in Uni?!!!!). Totally tire me out... after that had to stay with her till she cancelled all her credit cards... go to the police station to make a police report. Just be there till she sobers up, done crying and gotten over the fact that her wallet is really gone. Thankfully the thief failed to purchase anything with her credit card.. coz her credit card very special, need pin number. hahaha... yea.. have to be really careful ard here.
Haiz... today is not a gd day man... just finished up my last mid semester paper. It's radically difficult can?! I hope i can pass... ARGH... A GPA of 4 will look SUPER UGLY on me! The questions are so demanding and problematic. A 1 hour paper with 4 short answer questions (like problems sum) and 20 MCQs... so if you work you math out like i did, its 1 minute for one MCQ and 5 minutes for each short answer. HOW TO MAKE IT! ARGH... with so many calculations and me furiously pressing the calculator to the extent that my fingers abit cramp. Sobs* that's no excuse anyway... haiz... feel so dissapointed. I studied so hard for this paper, waking up at 6am sleep at 12pm... but wat's the use... futile effort of my part. In case your wondering, this is a Statistic paper, Alot more in-depth then the Stats we did in poly. Argh... I COULD HAVE SCORED!!! Not enough time... too rush, not enough brain power to conjure up with all the right answers in afew seconds.
Weather Forecast
Enough of gibberish incessant complaints, i shall now talk about the weather here. Yes.. Winter has ended. tis suppose to be Spring where flowers bloom and bees emerge. Haha yes this is me painting a rosy picture. NO... Spring aint so colourful like it is. It is actually pretty cold right now. with temperatures reaching 20 degrees. Yesterday there was a heavy downpour of rain (first time since i arrived), its not like the heavy rain in Singapore pitter patter pitter patter... the rain here is different as in it REALLY POURS.. impact is greater. The wind is so strong that it penetrates into my room and my door actually shakes. It was a noisy night with all the loud sound of the wind. NOooO... the wind DIDNT blow me away...
Fortunately that the winds here are not strong enough to create a disaster although afew branches did fall off. I mean you look at new Orleans and the damage and the aftermath of it all. Huge huge revamping and restoration to be done. A pity that this world is so judgemental about the colour of our skin. We're all human beings with feelings... please wake up ur idea if ur still thinking europeans are superior.
THIEF THIEF!!!
Lately i've been bz.. plenty of things have happened in the week alone. My friends wallet got stolen and last week my friends house got broken into. House getting broken into is a COMMON thing... its like a everyday kinda thing. By the way... when thieves rob houses or cars... they do it in a massive kinda way. Like... they don't just rob one house, they rob one ENTIRE BLOCK! They are so daring you know... and these theives are teenagers! I'm so appalled at the efficency of the Australians. THE POLICE DiN EvEn HavE PlastiC Bag to keep EviDence! My friend had to provide plastic bags for them to keep a torn envelope which might contain the thief fingerprints. I doubt they'll even bother to check. So "efficient". I mean in times of crisis or emergency, shouldn't they step up their service? Makes me wonder how their emergency room in hospitals are being run. Tsk tsk... stupefied at how things are done. Had to do alot of consolling... my accompanied my friend to look for her wallet, hoping the theif threw it in dustbins or toilet.. so we went searching into all the dustbin and toilets (DO U Have ANy idea how many Dustbins and toilets there are in Uni?!!!!). Totally tire me out... after that had to stay with her till she cancelled all her credit cards... go to the police station to make a police report. Just be there till she sobers up, done crying and gotten over the fact that her wallet is really gone. Thankfully the thief failed to purchase anything with her credit card.. coz her credit card very special, need pin number. hahaha... yea.. have to be really careful ard here.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
My Outings
More Pictures!
Food Food Glorious food...
Birthday Girl
Chilling
Chocolate Cake Baked by Me! (Woohoo!) wait till the icing is added
Sabotage Time!!!!
Brisbane River festival
Sunday, September 04, 2005
Discipline me!
Discipline me!
Feeling abit restless... the after-effects of being cooped up in four walls in the morning! Yea... i'm going out for a walk.. and maybe grab a bite later. Hey its the weekends YAR?!! Haha... actually yesterday i did go out... cause it's river festival day! Basically they just celebrate this humongeous river in Brisbane.
It's a nice river, there's fishes and sharks in it.. so if you just dip your feet in and dunt be surprised if its gone! Heard that there's just baby sharks and others say there's big brown sharks deep beneath. If you guys wanna come over for a swim i would recommend the Gold Coast, Sunshine Coast...etc. Definitely not the river. So they celebrated it with loads of fireworks for 30mins... very nice... especially the last part where i think about 10 different fireworks went up together at the same time.. woohoo.. the whole sky was so bright!
THink my friends and i made alot of noise going "OOoooOo WAH woohoo YEAH cool YIPPIE!" Don't have this kinda thing in Singapore mah... somemore the people who were there is MASSIVE!! Can double the number of people you see at ndp. I think maybe half the population were at the river celebrating the event.
First time i felt like i was finally in Singapore.. becoz it was SUPER DUPER crowded at 9pm. haha... usually the city is already dead by then. I had french ice-cream. SUPER NICE! Its not ur normal ice cream in Singapore. It's really special.. its not yogurt ice cream either.. dunno how to explain. it is terrific i tell you. i had pitasho, chocolate, mango, lime and passion fruit all for 2.80AUD! Haha.. yeah!! Very nice to eat... shared it with 2 other friends. Wasted forgot to take picture of it.
Hmm... and just the other when i was talking to my dad over the webcam, he was telling me about my mom being worried for me! Haha... apparently she wants to get me a boyfriend, this bachelor is oke.. not very cute but will do.. not really sure about his character. Met up with him before but didn't really talk to him. My dad say she's thinking of getting him and his parents to fly over to see me! Muhaahaha (Linda laughing hysterically).. funny funny... other parents are so uptight saying no to this and that... my parents are total opposite! THinking of taking a picture with some ang moh then send over... give them alittle 'surprise'.
This kinda matter cannot rush yar? After all... i'm ONLY 20!!! Urgh... well well... shall just see who comes along my way... ...
Alrighty its off to the shopping mall for alittle walk!
That's all folks!
Feeling abit restless... the after-effects of being cooped up in four walls in the morning! Yea... i'm going out for a walk.. and maybe grab a bite later. Hey its the weekends YAR?!! Haha... actually yesterday i did go out... cause it's river festival day! Basically they just celebrate this humongeous river in Brisbane.
It's a nice river, there's fishes and sharks in it.. so if you just dip your feet in and dunt be surprised if its gone! Heard that there's just baby sharks and others say there's big brown sharks deep beneath. If you guys wanna come over for a swim i would recommend the Gold Coast, Sunshine Coast...etc. Definitely not the river. So they celebrated it with loads of fireworks for 30mins... very nice... especially the last part where i think about 10 different fireworks went up together at the same time.. woohoo.. the whole sky was so bright!
THink my friends and i made alot of noise going "OOoooOo WAH woohoo YEAH cool YIPPIE!" Don't have this kinda thing in Singapore mah... somemore the people who were there is MASSIVE!! Can double the number of people you see at ndp. I think maybe half the population were at the river celebrating the event.
First time i felt like i was finally in Singapore.. becoz it was SUPER DUPER crowded at 9pm. haha... usually the city is already dead by then. I had french ice-cream. SUPER NICE! Its not ur normal ice cream in Singapore. It's really special.. its not yogurt ice cream either.. dunno how to explain. it is terrific i tell you. i had pitasho, chocolate, mango, lime and passion fruit all for 2.80AUD! Haha.. yeah!! Very nice to eat... shared it with 2 other friends. Wasted forgot to take picture of it.
Hmm... and just the other when i was talking to my dad over the webcam, he was telling me about my mom being worried for me! Haha... apparently she wants to get me a boyfriend, this bachelor is oke.. not very cute but will do.. not really sure about his character. Met up with him before but didn't really talk to him. My dad say she's thinking of getting him and his parents to fly over to see me! Muhaahaha (Linda laughing hysterically).. funny funny... other parents are so uptight saying no to this and that... my parents are total opposite! THinking of taking a picture with some ang moh then send over... give them alittle 'surprise'.
This kinda matter cannot rush yar? After all... i'm ONLY 20!!! Urgh... well well... shall just see who comes along my way... ...
Alrighty its off to the shopping mall for alittle walk!
That's all folks!
Friday, September 02, 2005
Picture say a thousand words
Pictures speak a thousand words
Some friends came over today to bake cake and cook some stuff to celebrate my friends birthday. Some snap shot photos were taken...
This photo is taken after a bathe... wide awake, fresh and ready to start the day... all smiles...
Some friends came over today to bake cake and cook some stuff to celebrate my friends birthday. Some snap shot photos were taken...
This photo is taken after a bathe... wide awake, fresh and ready to start the day... all smiles...
After which... it was time to hit the books... sobs... study and study... work work... write write... serious studying and concentration... miss those days where classmates come together and motivate each other to study... its now just me and independent studying. Did just 1 hour or so today...
Let the cooking begin! Haha... yesh... after studying must eat for the energy yar? Haha.. yup was cooking and bake the chocolate birthday cake! mmMMmm yummy... you guys feeling hungry just watching me cook? LoL!!
Caught in action... looking out of the window... longingly. There's an apartment opposite mine... i always see families together... they would wash the dishes together and watch tv together. Then i would remember my family back home. I reallie do miss home alot. It's tough somehow especially when there's no one to put their arms ard you and just make u feel treasured. Usually i'm home alone... can't really communicate much with my flatmate... different frequency i guess. Can get along fine.. but that's just about it. Looking out of the window... seeing a warm family... and me... standing there by myself... melancholy. Papa Mama... wo hen xiang nian ni men... I love you ma... love ya dad. *wish i could hug you right now* There's reallie nothing much i can do... except try my best to do them proud... *Linda feeling abit helpless... ... there's some things money cannot buy.
Enough of my sobs... dunt like to end the day in a dampen spirit. There's so much to do... so much to look forward to. Decided to stop being such a child and just move on! Haha.. yea... got back from celebrating my friends bday party! A smashing success... really surprised her! It was quite hard for me to help organise it... but... it pulled off! Yup... here's me hugging my little pillow... love it to bits. nitey nite you all... there's gonna be a better tomorrow... and i've gotta start beliving it in my heart.
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