Life suxs... i really think it does

Good Morning Sunshine

Today got up about 5+ am... went for a run. Initially, i thought of just jogging for 15mins. Or... maybe even 10mins but lasted for a good 20 mins. I would really thank God for the good run today! The weather is awesome. Not hot, not too cold. There were a good number of cyclist and runners. After the 20 mins jog, didn't really feel any kick. So jogged again for an additional 5 to 10 mins. But even until now, i still feel no kick.

Even though i feel no kick, but i'm abit worried for my joints. I wouldn't want my legs to be aching like crazy the next day.. which normally happens. I will never forget the two painful incidents where the cramps were so bad.. that i honestly couldn't walk. Any sudden movements and i would feel like the muscle is tearing apart. Hmm... i already warm up and down, so hopefully it'll help. I coupled it with sit-ups and just afew push ups. Its been a loOoong while since i exercised for a full one solid hour. Although i feel no kick but ya... it is definitely satisfying and fulfilling to know that i have accomplished what i thought was impossible.

Oh... and really glad that i exercised today... coz last night i ate at cybercity with G. I had the curry beef brisket with rice. Anyone going there... please don't choose that dish. It's first NOT healthy... secondly not very tasty... (at least not to my liking). G said it tasted like... can beef. The rice was alot! So hmm... i believe today's exercise should make it up for it. Haha... ya... now i feel less guilty. Last night felt so bad for eating so much. Must watch what i eat nowadays. Graduation is coming up... must look my best for the pictures! *CHeeZe*

For the next few days, i would like to focus on God alone. Don't want to focus on my life or my problems... only make me wanna worry. Think of His goodness, think of His love.

Meditate on These Things

Philippians 4

8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.

9 The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.

Upcoming things to do later in the day.

--> Wash Car Day!!!
--> Unicell BBQ day!!!

yippie! So happy... hope i remember to bring my digital camera. *snap*snap*

When all runs dry

Today was kind tired...

After i blogged, i went to do my laundry...
did something different for 2 friends today. I personally whipped sth quick for them to eat! It wasn't anything fanciful, but hope it kept their stomachs satisfied.

After which i rushed down to the city, collect mooncake from my boss. So kind of her. *GleaMs* Yay got mooncake to eat. I moved on quickly to the old shop, collect my jacket which i left behind last week, and went to the library to read alittle.

After that went to study. Hmm... quite a tiring day... Just when i tot this was how it was gonna end... mummy called AGAIN!!! Panick hit... and i was like... argh.. dooms day is here... i know that that's negative thinking. But... yea... every slight little thing just makes me agitated after that. Some just hit the nail on the head... ... ... BleH!

i went home, called back and ended up as some motherly concern she has... u know normal jittery mom questions.

Tomorrow, a start of a new day. Wanna try running again.

Lose the calories, gain more energy... most importantly keep healthy

zzZzzz signing off!

made an example

I woke up early today. *GleAms* No work this week, but next week would be alittle more busier as boss said that she probably will assign me more duties. HmMm... which means today i should try to do as much as i can for my tutorials, readings and assignment.

Reflect back to Sunday, was really glad to see the music team come this far. To have 2 pianist , two string instruments (guitar and bass), drummer and singers. Yup, instruments are instruments but how are we gonna use them? It's amazing to see how everybody is a part of it... yup, i'm really glad to be given this opportunity to serve God. It's been a priviledge to be part of it every month... even though i think i can barely play...

Monday started off alright, but tutorial for CF (corporate finance) was rather difficult. So many calculations... and you can just see the division of quality in students.. the good are REALLY good. Like 10 minutes finish calculating everything... and the rest are still struggling half way(like me)... need more practice...finals is 70%. Got back my results for my business module. kinda disappointed that i was off by afew marks to get a gd grade... hmmm hope my assignment can make up for it.

Tuesday... which was yesterday, worked out alright. Didn't do much though becoz i slept my afternoon away. Was tired out... felt that it was largely due to the lack of exercise. There are some events coming up in afew days time. The bbq event to be precise. Got quite afew things scheduled on that day itself...just have to commit it all to God.

Today!! Hmm.. no work & no school. Yippie.. haha.. can do whatever i want today! Started the day with bible reading... cause like yesterday there was afew car accidents on the road. And.. it kinda once again reminded me how fragile life really is. I mean... if i were to have an encounter with God, I will want to be prepared. My soul to be fed. To be faithful servants, fervant in keeping the lamp burning and patiently waiting upon the Lord.

After doing my bible reading, i went for a run... quite a gd start... although i couldn't run for very long. Lost stamina... must keep training to get back in shape...

haiz... mummy just called. I dunno why she starts it off by saying sth mean or negative. I felt there was a better approach to handling it. But who am i to tell her what to say or how to put things across. She's the boss after all... i saw all the boss characteristics coming out... not one of motherly love. Abit sad... sad that i allowed it to get to me.. and i repelled and was very defensive. Not saying if there are issues, we should avoid bringing it out... but she was rather aggressive... and it makes me wanna run away everytime she calls.

Anyway, putting that aside, i still love my mom and knows that she cares alot. And yes... she is right, i ought to call home more often... maybe start next week. Coz right now... if i call... reason will be --> to make mom happy. Not becoz i myself want to call home.

=) *smiLes*

Will try to hold the smile throughout the day and not be dismayed.

Thoughts for the day.
how a conversation can ruin one's morning...
it doesn't have to be an explosive event.
Just a small tiny little issue as such...

where cross roads meet

Today, went out to eat. Was initially waiting for TT to come home so that can ask her to join us for dinner. Giggles, praise God that we decided to go Hawken to eat because, TT was there with C. After C left, M and D surprised us by joining us for dinner. After which, we brought TT back home and arranged to meet M and S. M and gang turned up instead. But it was good!

Isn't great how God place pple ard...

A platform for support, encouragement...

I love this kind of surprises. Because to me, its like God place people ard to check on us. It's nice... and to just interacting with others. HmmMMm... no matter what. Must always check my own thoughts and actions. For the good of God and others around.

=)

Glad that some people dun feel like a lamp post. Really thankful for that. Heehee. I don't really like others to feel uncomfortable around me. Nothing has changed. I'm still me.

Still have the tendency to make mistakes and fall. So please, in love and kindness correct me if i'm wrong.

Thanks to all!!!

Dispersion of light within

It's really tiring to monitor and observe the thoughts that go through your head.

The multifarious thoughts that enter your head in a second.

So tedious to make sure that the thoughts are well-mannered, not shameful and all.

If thoughts are bad, then it should be becoz the behavious needs to be corrected, becoz its not right before the Lord and not one of self-judgement, perception, bias or stereotypist.

Doable with the help of the Holy Spirit, and the desire in heart to honour God.

It is hard not to pass a judgement or a comment based on a certain action, with gossips and media or singing the same tune. Where the Internet allows us to communicate our thoughts across to one another without giving what we want to say with much thought.

But just becoz its hard, doesn't mean the we stop trying. Just becoz we fail on the first attempt we give up...

Romans 5:3-5 (New International Version)


3Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;

4perseverance, character; and character, hope.

5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

To-do list

List of things to do:
-Brother's bday card (must send out)
- Collect new hp
- Fix my spectacles (the screw came off)
- File my notes (they're all over the place)
- Catch up with tute (abit lagging)
- Clean up my room (messy again)

This week hasn't been particularly great. With the tests and results flowing in. Not something very delightful. Have started on another book, "many young women's battle" Another good read. Got this book from pastor on my 21st birthday. WAs looking for my nail cutter in the treasure box. But couldn't find it. Instead the book caught my eye. So... decided to read it. It sorts of help lighten things up abit. Put my mind off other things for awhile.

I'm looking forward to the upcoming holiday. yay... ...

"Bee Box"

In this small box, my love,
you’ll not find a ring,
but instead, a brave, little bee.

He’ll be dead by morn, having given his life
defending his flowers against me.
I felt his stingwhile picking the small, purple pansies
growing wild along the roadside,
in hopes of an afternoon bouquet for you.

And I grieved the sting,more for him than me,
knowing full well the price he paid
for my small pain.

And I allowed him his victory,
leaving his flowers as a memory,
and brought you insteadthis brave, little bee,who proves there is love
even in the smallestof things.—Lowell Parker

Sorry if my last entry didn't make alot sense... was busy!

Mid Exams...

Went to work yesterday. Had to work extra hours cause a colleague got pregnent (she's married... in case u were thinking otherwise).

Morning, screw of my spectacles fell out. Grr... well... thankfully it happened at home. The screw is so tiny, i would be even more frustrated if it fell on the road or sth. I'll be frantic and handicapped without my specs.

Late for work. Didn't realise that the jam at the road was this bad... reminds me of the PIE or AYE back home. Hmm.. saw two asian man at the bus stop. They were talking quite loudly. One or them is a Malaysian. Two grown man talking about their frustrations about work and looking for jobs... made me think about work in general. Like, work can be both fun and depressing. They'll be many frustrations and disappointments along the way. More reason for me to build a stronger foundation with God.

Boss never scold despite me being 10min late for work. Phew. But, there were so many new things to learn. ANd, the weather change has seen an increase in the number of drink orders. Bustling once again. Head, shoulder knees and toes... have to coordinate well and be quick.

Be sleepless no more

Psalm 127:22

It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows; for so He gives His beloved sleep.

Me, guilty for the times i made statements as such
“I slept only for two hours — I was trying to improve my presentation.”
"I gotta study more, an hour more would be good."

The Bible says that God “gives His beloved sleep”. Who are His beloved? You and I! Because we are in Christ, we are His beloved. (Ephesians 1:6, 2 Thessalonians 2:13)

God is the one who builds your career and guards your marriage. He is the one who watches over your children and future. He is the one who guards your bank account, and watches over your financial investments and business ventures. You are not the one!

So don’t worry and stay up late as if you are the source of the increase or the one who has the power to make things happen and save the situation.

God is the one and He says to you, “My beloved child, throw that care, that burden to Me and go to sleep.” For when you are sleeping, He is working on your situation. He, who neither slumbers nor sleeps (Psalm 121:3–4), works the night shift for you as you sleep!

But because we are such doers and performers, it is hard for us to let go and let God take over. But when we actually do, casting all our cares, anxieties, worries and concerns once and for all into His hands, we will see how He cares for us affectionately and watchfully. (1 Peter 5:7) We will see Him taking care of our problems and working things out for our good. (Romans 8:28)
So trust your Father’s love for you. Cast your cares on Him and have no more sleepless nights!

Something along the same lines as S shared on Saturday. Surrender all.

Hebrews 10:23
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.

Got 2 more mid semesters to go.

Completed one on Thursday - Conflict and Negotiations. First time taking a business module. Impression after the paper - 100 times easier than i perceived it to be.

Afew factors probably influenced the questions. Lecturer was sick and the textbooks only came in last week.

Managerial Cost Accounting tomorrow.

11th Sept Corporate Finance.

A little part of me still fearful about exams... I must exercise faith. There is a God, a God who is in control.. ...