Drained till its all dry....

Haven't you paused and wondered what your energy is all put in and at the end of the day just asking urself why ur pushing urself so hard? The natural instinct for me is to just do my best in everything. But sometimes... pushes till i wanna give up. Tiring and i always have to pray and ask for renewed strength. EAch morning is just a rush. Every hour at work a rush of activities. The flow just keep coming... and i couldnt take it anymore. So i raised it with my boss today... of course indirectly bringing the issue up. But erm.. apparently its not working very well. But at least boss is aware of my workload and don't think of adding more. Not sure if that's a good sign like maybe she thinks highly of me. In any case, its more than my two hands can handle and i just pray that God watch my hands and feet. There were many times i almost sprain my ankle, cut myself or sth along those lines. Boss says its good training... and tell me not be influenced by colleague C but i think C has been most genuine in helping me. And she's definitely indispensible at the moment... however, tomorrow and Mon she will be on leave. Little me will be all alone, no one to talk to, no one to have lunch with.... its gonna be a lonely Friday... i think. Well and i hope it'll be quiet too... no news means good news. I wouldn't want trouble on Friday. Oh Lord, please do not give me more than i can handle tomorrow... i really am afraid!!! Sigh... i'll do my best... and just be praying... and praying...

Email me not

Today is super siansation day. The things on my table piled up as high as... mt kinabalu. I was almost suffocated under that load. But i met the challenge and cleared the way till i can see my table again. I didn't even leave my office for lunch today. Just dabao back. Thanks to the server that went down. I had to rush and expedite everything in just an hour or so. Glad its all over though.... ... That's work in reality i guess... work work work. Nobody realy cares about social life. This is the life.. so i guess i'll make friends with everybody in that cubicle.

Head still bobbing up and down even though its been 3 days since i've returned from Bintan... geez... what a stir that ferry ride to have cause such motion sickness... the cost of it... URGH... so irritating at times... but God has been keeping everything under control. All problems at bay. Amen

where did time go?

Today, the workload was almost doubled... alittle disruptions and there... and hence, had to go home late today. Well, made minor mistakes here and there... though it is expected that there should be absolutely no space for error. I'm still learning.. and ya... will try to be more careful. It was nice to have Gary to call me during lunch and emailed him short messages now and then.

But just feel job is really getting mundane. I need something with more challenge and brain juices... ya... and more pay of course. Think i'm getting more materialistic... or maybe i'm just tired of staring into windows and not being able to get what i really want. Hmm... was influenced by what Gary was telling me yesterday about money. Like money can earn one.. so if you really want it, why don't you get it? Like yes... if i really want something i should work hard to get it... and i need a job that will reward me accordingly. Well, first on my list is Australia plane tickets!! HAha.. then i can go there and shop until i drop!

Things new that i did today, i came home and painted a picture for upcoming Bintan trip. *tired* i'm off to bed... gdnite u all

Here I am,
Oh God I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you, Lord
In Your strength will I break through, Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
And I will be complete in You.

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
And by faith, I will walk on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day,
And I will be complete in..I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

The above song is called complete... I feel that its very tuneful however, the words when sung made me feel like one have to work very hard to reach God. It's as though its a burden. I think when one is in God, its a peaceful and joyful kinda feeling in contrast to a streaneous emotional thing. Resting in the Lord. My heart was lifted up when it came to seeing beyond the calvary. What marvelous glory there will be that our human eyes cannot see. Yet there is a yearn inside which longs to experience this unexplainable hope. My advise, listen to it, but do pay more attention to what the words speak to your heart. *smiles* have a great week ahead.

Early day off

Today i knocked off early.

Colleague A: Linda want to go home at 7 today anot?
Me: Try loh.. must see if can finish anot.
Colleague A: Don't need to try, if cannot finish don't care we go off!
Me: Sigh* try lah...

In the end, i was the one who really went off at 7 and colleague A was still clearing up her work. But ya, i think its important to like finish off work well than going off early.

Heehee.. ... finally get to go home earlier than the new girl today. *gleams*

Hope this will continue tomorrow!

One of those days...

It's just one of those days which bothers me...

that it feels like i can sit in the middle of a really busy street and sob, and no one would even bother to care... ... no one would offer a care. Not for a minute, not a second. But just stares and sniggers.

It's an awful feeling.

sobs~ no one really cares nowadays... ...

Absolutely nothing to pick on.... ...

Most of my days, i don't have much to complain about. Today was such a day. Thought that the new girl will lunch with me and the other colleague but i think she does not feel comfortable to eat with us. She is such a pretty girl, one glance and 2 things come to mind. Either she is a air stewardess or a model.

Morning was really slow, with me having abit of time to rest in my chair. It started picking up pace in the late afternoon which is really bad! I mean... i rather it fast in the morning and slow in the evening so that i can go home early. Ever since 2nd week of work, I've NEVER knocked off on time. It's absolutely unacceptable. So... from next week onwards its.... aim for 6pm!!! I have to rethink what to do at what time so as to end early. Free myself to do more things. After all life is more than just working wouldn't you agree?










1,2 &3) Found this absolutely great place to chill out. It's called Sante Fe and its at Marina Bay. Very quiet and yet has got great food. Was goofing around in the boat but got alittle dizzy after that because the boat does rocks. Nonetheless, i think its a good idea to even just pop by for a visit.

4) Found this very meaningful banner in my church toilet. Haha... you know toilet is where Einstein got his inspiration from. For me, right now life is really about keeping things real, pure and space. Too many times life is being exaggerated via the media and through our incessant whinching. It's time to get real, stay with realistic methods to reach ur dreams or goals. Pure, simply because if you're pure inside, it reflects outward. Beauty only takes you so far, your character brings you a step further. Space for just to be carefree, space to be comfortable with who you really are. I plan to give that comfortable space to everyone around me. There are just too many opinions out there but there's no one to hear them. So i give my ears for the price of nil.

5 and 6) Just some interesting plants that triggered me to take a few snap shots at them. *smiles*


weekend is here! Yippie ya~