White Christmas

The time of the year is here again. It's one of the memorable time this year. So many things have happened in this month. I'm so blessed by God till it's overflowing. I'm just amazed... i guess none of us can grasp the amount of love He has for each one of us. It's so bounderless, so powerful... it's a security that i have never felt before.

Alot of which i don't deserve, but of which he freely give. As insignificant as dirt, he picked me up, and treasured me like a precious jewel. Yup, it's a time to rejoice for the birth of the true saviour... the one who rescued me from the gnashings of hell.

This christmas is truly a time to be joyful and a time to worship the one true King.

我等的人会是谁何时才出现

我的故事也许比较特别走过的路也许比较迂回黑暗之中全凭着直觉keep my faithwatch my steps一步步靠直觉也许有天生命中会出现那一个谁走进我的心里面他不必是个mr. perfect只要他善良体贴be my friend and my soul mate我等的人会是谁何时才出现make me wholemake me brave我等的人会是谁不急在眼前i can wait i will pray也许有天生命中会出现那一个谁走进我的心里面他不必是个mr. perfect只要他善良体贴be my friend and my soul mate我等的人会是谁何时才出现make me wholemake me brave我等的人会是谁希望他了解不管迷惘或坚决都是我的某一面我并不追求完美只要能用心体会每一天都是better day我等的人会是谁何时才出现make me wholemake me brave我等的人会是谁何时才出现陪着我一天一点让生命能变得更美

The breathe of Life

*yawnz* i woke up this morning, tucked myself comfortably in my bed and wondered what i should do today. Than i thought abt what i did during the week. Well work this week has been FANTASTIC. Yep.. it has been a great week at work. I've got quite a number of potential customers for my colleagues to work on. Think my supervisor was pleased with the effort that i am putting in to help them in their sales.

Just yesterday, my supervisor went to Jurong to try close a sale. However i think he made a wasted trip. Even then, he sacrificed moeny to buy cigarette to buy dian xin for everybody! Awww... so sweet right? He even had to queue to get it. I'm sooOOOoo fortunate he's my supervisor...

He takes really gd care of me too, teaching me the ropes and all. I think my english is improving by the day. We're always correcting somebody's english in the office. Feels like a fun game to me.

Great food, Good work, Fantastic boss... hmmm... work isn't that bad i guess.

Everything seems pretty fine for now. Only God can work wonders, only he can turn things ard for me.

I've dreaded doing sales all my life. Even the tot of it irks me. So for me to have come this far and even find joy in what i am doing, it has to be God working in me. Who knows what is in store for me in future? Only He knows it all.. ....

No longer hiding behind my shadows

No longer hiding behind my shadows
My thoughts are no longer shallow
I open up my wings
happily flying in the wind
stronger and happier than before... ...

Sadness and sorrows are all in the past
I look forward and stay steadfast
to what i believe in and to whom i trust
looking forward and running fast
stronger and happier than before... ... (i composed it myself... it's bout me)

Update... hmm.. attachment was not as scary as what i imagined to be. So there was really nothing to fear. Actually i wished the company had higher expectations of what i can really do. I feel so under utilised. There's little to do in the office and if u're wondering what i do frm Mon-Fri is just answering calls. Yep... how boring... .... zzzZZZzzz

So anyway, i decided to do more than what the boss expected of me and i think their kinda shock with how quick i'm progressing. Yep... like the cold-calling task... it was SOOooOOoo dreadful that just dialing the numbers made every finger weigh a ton. Heehee... with determination and forcefulness i completed the task and to their satisfaction! Yippie. Not sure what i'm gonna do the next week but i've got afew task i planned for myself. Even though the company is paying me little, i'm not gonna use that as an excuse for not pushing myself to the max. Love ya all. Keep in touch!

Some things are irreplaceable... just like you and me

Sorry for the long wait... well the new revamped blog page is finally up. Finally got the tagboard working.. phew* Well the exams are over but i'm not exactly elated relieved or overjoyed. Within afew days and it's back to work... more work. Attachment begins this coming Monday. Don't really know what to expect. I only know that i have to report at 9am. My Laison Officer knows nuts.. the horror. So tomorrow (Sunday) i'll be checking the location out just before i start work on Monday.

Thanks for all the prayers and all. I've worked hard for the exams... but didn't think i did fantastically well for any of the papers. Hmm... time really flies. I was clearing my room today and organising all my notes. Never did i realised how much i have studied during the past 3 years. It's really a mountain and as i flipped though all of it, i am proud to say that i found each work done to the best of my ability. No regrets at all!

Time really flies. I found myself sitting in my room, reflecting and realising the pple who have past me by. Some things are just irreplaceable. Some memories unerasable. I was so lost for words. Quickly picking myself up before i slide into depression, i went to bz myself again.

I found my journal. I realised how bz i have become that i've forgotten the most impt person in my life. God. Well, i havent been doing my quiet time, but i know his presence has always been around me everywhere i go.

For those taking exams or planning on a holiday trip, i'll be praying for you too~~
Cheerio!

Linda and The ReaL WorLd

Hmm.. i don't know to be happy or sad. Well, i'll put things into perspective and let you, my friends decide if it's good or bad.

Today, i just received news on my ITP (industrial Attachment). I will be working in this telecommunications and network company. It was my LAST choice and i was like 100% sure that i would be getting my first few choice. But as you all know, life is full of "surprises".

Apparently, this is a reputable company and they have expanded to Australia. The location of this company where i will be working is really near my home. So i can get up late, get home early... haha basically more time for myself rather then spending the time stoning in the bus.

However, the job scope requires me to do sales. Sales of Internet Service Providers (ISP). Also, i will have to be able to set up a network using Broadband solution. I am TOTALLY CLUELESS on what this is all about. Argh... i have NO IDEA what am i going to do! I know i can cope with the sales with alittle reading and understanding here and there. But the technical part is gonna be a huge hurdle for me. I'm gonna need a whole lot of encouragement and support. Not forgetting hours of reading up to prepare myself for the worst senario.

Also, there won't be any other ITP students working with me. So i will be having my lunch all alone. That totally suxs. Lonely hours with no one to talk to and laugh with? Oh man... i mean i cannot live a day without a companion to chit chat and eat with me!! *sobs*

So i am gonna pray for a good boss and nice colleagues who will ask me out for lunch. Pray that i more alert then my usual blur blur self. I also will be needing lots of wisdom and be able to grasp things real fast. If i do well for my ITP then it'll be easy for me to work for another company in a similar industry like Singtel, Starhub or even Samsung.

Things could work out for the best or for the worst. Feel free to drop me a line or give me some sound advice... signing off! Linda

What a BlundeR... *sob*sob*

Something not so glamourous happened last week. I have been vigourously putting all my heart and soul into the project and naturally i would have expected good marks for the effort i had put in. However... this was not so. My group was awarded marks much lower than i had ever expected... i felt so sore about it. After that my classmates of 12 and myself set off to Chinatown to celebrate the mooncake festival. Although i was in no mood to enjoy the occasion, i decided that it would be much better compared to sulking alone at home.

I stood at the MRT, bitter and disappointed. I blamed no one but the teacher, whom i felt didn't know how to appreciate a good piece of work. I grumbled to my friends about how unjustifiable it was for the teacher to give such miserable marks and yet claim that he is lenient and all. I was upset and said things like "He thinks he's such a good teacher but he's not! Ask him to go back to ITE and teach lah!... etc." This went on until we alighted at one of the stops to switch to the another lane.

I scampered my way out of the MRT when i heard my friend calling me from behind. I turned and to my horror i saw my teacher standing closely behind me!!!!! I was stunned and shocked. I froze in absolute fear.. did he hear what i said? Where did he appear from? I gave my friend a blank look. Oh dear... boy am i in BIG trouble. But after awhile, i felt sort of justified about what i said. After all, i still think i don't deserve that pathetic marks.

The next lesson i had with him was sort of awkward. I could tell that he wasn't very happy and i felt really uneasy. When our eyes met, his eyes would dart away... as though i was like a thorn. I prayed about it and i admit that whatever i said that day was harsh and it was out of disappointment. I realised where i had gone wrong and perhaps i do deserve the marks given. It's all a learning experience. I should take it in a positive light and pick up where i left off.

After a week has passed, he finally spoke to me in a pleasent manner (today!!). I asked him a few questions about some information i was unclear on and he explained patiently and clearly. Yup... that was a real blunder but i'm glad that it's over. Hopefully he doesn't put it to heart about all i said that day...

Totally Inspired... ....keeping my dreams alive

Just went for a inspiring career talk yesterday. I thought that i would be sleeping and it would be a total waste of time. Surprisingly, the first speaker who came up was really eloquent and his speech was intriguing and interesting. He talked about how he started his business, empathyproductions.com. It is a really cool website that i have checked out. He started off as a freelance web designer. This created a spark for him to start a business to earn much more profits. He began his business just before he completed his diploma. He must have studied real hard cause he got the Certificate of Merit. He is right now a full-time NUS student, a full-time business man as well as a full-time song writer. He told us about the amount of hard work as well as his personal experience and downfalls while setting up the business... he practically works 24 hours in a day! When he started his business, he had to live on his parents and had practically almost nothing to eat!

His determination, perseverance as well as hard work(loads of it!) was like a wake up call to me. It reminded of the days that i would toil and study hard in PJC. It doesn't mean that i can do less work and relax more just because i am in poly. I will be working really hard! Going back to those days where i LOVE working. Having work to do is great! HAha... work hard now... then next time i can reap what i sow...

By the way, i will be assigned a place to work for my ITP(industrial attachment) REAL SOON! I'm pretty nervous about it, i really hope that the teacher will assign me a job that i can handle. So please pray for me? That'll be my prayer request! Thank You, Love ya All

I can't believe i failed NAPFA...

Yesterday i had NAPFA after lessons and i went there prepared to pass! So i was really upset when my expectation was not met. It was most upsetting and dissapointing when the guy didnt give me another try to jump... i miss by 6cm only. Argh.. anyway, i don't really regret going through the whole regime of training and running. It was a great fantastic way to keep fit and to relieve stress. Besides, my school fees includes paying for the school facilities. The gym in Singapore Polytechnic is not bad! Haha... yea.. i have never been to a gym before except the club at World Trade Centre (now known as harbourfront).

Well... this little sad girl is gonna need lotsa rest. My ties are aching when i didnt even run the 2.4km. Guess i need to build up those leg muscles. Well, if time allows me to take my NAPFA another time in October, i might just do that. Maybe just to make myself happy?

Anyway, i'll be really bz for the next few days... so no gunbound for me. Lots of reading and writing t do later when i get back home. Anyway, feel free to msg me oke? I will be reading my e-mails and all... Stay cool and funky dudes!

Different seasons of the year

DARLENE ZSCHECH - Through It All

THROUGH IT ALL

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with your hands
And lead me in your righteousness
And I look to you and
And I wait on you...

Chorus:
I'll sing to you Lord a hymn of love
For your faithfulness to me
And I’m carried in everlasting arms
You’ll never let me go through it all

Hallelujah... ...

dunno why today i love making the "eeps" sound... sounds weird i know!!!
Today was pretty good... started the day by waking up late. I wasn't exactly in the mood for school. Who ever will be? The one week holiday has swept past me... and i haven't been exactly been enjoying myself with all the projects and "surprises".

I thought i was going to be late of class but i made it in time. The holiday was rather well spent i think. A well balanced program of both exericise, studying and time for God.
*Linda wakes up from her holiday mood*

There's gonna be alot to do and it's really important to remain focus as well as consistent in my work. I cannot be drowned in my own mixed messy emotions. So here's me waking up from all my fantacies as well as dreams. It's the season to work! Yep... oh please pray for me that i will be able to do well for my NAPFA. I have never gotten a gold only becoz of my standing broad jump! Long legs... yes... but no energy to fly. Hmm... as for studies just pray for concentration power... my mind and heart seems to wonder elsewhere most of time. Yup that's all for today!
*Linda is soaring on God's wings*

Escaping

I have been through so much this week... only becoz of one person. The past has come to haunt me. Close friends would have known who that one person is. As i struggled with the truth i have seemingly fallen back to the past. It was so hard to get up, and i ought to be stronger. What could have happened? Argh... as i sat in church, the peace in my heart was broken. Taking its place was bitterness and resentment. I couldn't seem to handle or control my emotions. Suddenly my thoughts were filled with him. Argh... i needed a solution.

Something was stirring in my heart, it was strong and i knew i had to do something, but what? I wailed in my heart to my only saviour. He gave me a solution and for awhile there was peace in my heart. But my mind was still filled with him. It was happening all over again. Turning to my a close friend and a confidant, i realised what i was doing... i was probably escaping. Whatever it was, i had to learn to brush it aside. After i was sober, i talked out loud to the Lord in my room. The Lord has opened my eyes and released me from my own fear and placed in me the peace once again.

Yep! How could i have been part of the cell group i am in right now if i was still with him? How could i have reached out to the people whom were precious to the Lord? How could i have forgotten his will? Haha... yes... it's ridiculous to allow one person to come destroy the plans the Lord has. Though i have a mixture of feelings right now and i'm not sure what i have to do next, i know that He will guide my path and protect me.

To my friends: "Thanks for all the concerns and comfort that you have given me. I wouldnt have made it through w/o your prayers and consistent encouragement."

HoLiDayiNg

Yup... as the title suggests, the 1 week break is finally here. This break really means alot alot to me. That's because i need to brush up and catch up on lessons which i have missed or am weak in. yep. Today is Wed and i havent done anything constructive yet... yar... don't be surprise. I might be quite a workaholic but... i can be quite a slacker too. Have been going to school everyday except on Tues. Haha yar i'm really happy to be free to do watever i can do, but this means my mind can wander elsewhere too. That's really bad becoz i start thinking of unhappy things. To make things worst, someone whom i don't wish to remember called me but i offed my phone (thankfully). Funnily, when i sms the person if he/she had sth to tell me, the person replied saying " Sry i press the wrong button." I know it's been a loooOoong time but it gave me the melancholy feeling. I was so lost for some reasons but i remembered the lesson the Lord gave me and that uplifted my spirits.

Today i went running, i did sth like 4 rounds the track. It was a good work out and i enjoyed it (except for the incessant nagging frm my mother). After which i rushed to school to do a project with my teammates. Although we didnt do much, i really appreciate the fact that they willing come down during the holidays to do the project. Haha yep! I came back home and i was beat... i tot of taking a 2 hour nap but it extended to 4 hours. I can't help it... it's the holidays wah...
I'm gonna just spend some time with the Lord after this... and i just think the time was well spent even though i didnt do much. Feel free to msg me in my tagboard! I'll get back to you ASAP!

"Good Morning" indeed

Oke here goes... i have only 15 minutes to type out this blog coz lessons are gonna start soon. Heehee... got to go attend a Law lecture later.

It's "amazing" how i started this morning. I got up alittle later as usual becoz the night before i was bz getting the laundry done. For those who have known me long enough, i have never done any household chores all my life. LoL... yes... envy me if you may, i have had a maid until 6 months ago, my mom decided to let me handle it. *Linda groans* Well, initially i had a hard time getting used to it. I mean sweeping, mopping and washing the dishes are so mundane.

So i woke up and dragged myself off the bed. I rushed my way to school only to realise that the morning class was cancelled and nobody notified me!!! Geez... well if i was in school yesterday i would have known, but i wasn't. I so busy practicing and preparing for my music exam. Yea... and speaking of which, the exam didn't go as smoothly as i expected. I panicked alittle here and there and i kept playing the scales wrongly! My fingers went all nimble and argh... wat a time to have butter fingers. Woohoo oh look at the time.. i really ought to be going.

That's all for now... see ya!

Oops... i did it again

Oke... i have been MIA for quite some time. I have just been sooOOoo bz abt my test and schedual that i didn't have time for my friends and God. *Linda asahamed*

Things are just happening so fast that i don't have time to react to each and every situation that springs a surprise at me. Let's see where should i start? Well i had to go for this interview which is to facilitate a real-life interview situation. If i'm not mistaken the weightage is something like 20% or so. I was going to be interviewed (or judged) by 2 of my classmates and the teacher herself. As i waited to be called in for the interview, i tried to keep my cool and said a quiet quick prayer. I felt like i was being interrogated! So many question were asked. Steadily i answered the questions to the best of my capabilities. Before i knew i, i laid a trap for myself. I made a mistake!!! I told the interviewees that i was still working at this other place and they asked how then will i be able to appy for this job. Before i knew it, i gave a perfect answer. Honestly i had no idea where that answer came from. When i heard what i said i was like "WOW! THat is SOoo remarkable!" God is truly truly great.

Then, things got alittle messed up. I have got music exam (Grade7) to prepare for, 2 major papers to study for and they are set in the same period. So i had my priorities all jumbled up. I couldn't focus on what i had to do first. I was just so lost in motion. Today i just sat for the 2 major papers and there's another one coming up next week... *growns* i don't expect myself to pass my upcoming music exam. I am just not prepared. I should have known better than to decide on taking my music exam so soon. It would really be a miracle if i do pass. Those praying for me, please pray i don't make a fool out of myself in front of the examiner. Because these people are from overseas. Surely they don't come all the way here just to see someone play the piano crappily. I DON'T WANT TO MAKE A MOCKERY OUT OF MYSELF!!! It's a terrible feeling to sit at the piano and not being able to play. That is my main concern really. I have so many commitments and i really need more than 24 hours. So since i cant change the fact that there is 24 hours a day, i guess i just have to work faster and smarter. Oh and please pray that i will get well soon, because this little girl is sick *cough*cough* yea... and that is just going to make matters worse.


I always thought that i could easily put God first in my life. Then again, with all these "surprises" i'm suddenly thrown off course and have lost sight of my saviour. I will continue to strive harder and just as i know the Lord is watching over me, i know that He is watching over my friends. So if any of you are feeling down and out, look to Him and He will direct your path.

I can’t believe the way your love has got a hold on me

I can’t believe the way your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find you near.
You lift me above my feet
And set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to you
And I breathe in your breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all-consuming fire
 
Chorus:
And I stand here before you
In wide open wonder
Amazed at the glory of you
 
The power of heaven
Revealing you purpose in me
As I’m reaching for you
 
Yea... that's one of my sister's favourite song. I think it's nice too!
Today school started at 8am... and apparently i had my timetable all messed up.
I thought it started at 9! So i missed the first lesson of the day. Haiz... so blur of me.
I felt really bad just sitting at the canteen(foodcourt6) as i reminded myself the importance of not just studying but keeping a close relationship with God.

Yup that's the fact i can be so blur. Anyway i will not make the same mistake again! Haha ya that's one lesson to be learnt for today. Always check the timetable beofore i go to sleep.
 
Lately i have been having afew commitments. So i really allocate time for each of my task. At the same time, i also value time spent for just myself to do what i like. Such as just talking to God and chatting with friends and bonding with my current classmates.
 
Time will not wait for me and so i want to cherish this last year that i am going to have in Singapore Polytechnic. So far it has given me loads of laughter and stress(along with it comes pimples!) . All those out there reading my bloggy, feel free to leave a comment or something.
Continue to sparkle for Christ!

Textbooks? Don't waste your money

Here's what happened in school today...
Teacher: So have all of you got your textbooks?
Class: noooooOOoooo.... (except for the class rep who did.)

Teacher: oke... how many of you intend to buy the textbook?
Class: no one raises the hand

Teacher: Hmm... i have the same problem with the other classes. All of you should go buy the textbook! It's only 30 dollars and it is vital to your understanding of the module. I shall try to convince all of you to go buy the textbook for 15 minutes.

Linda starts to doze off... ...

Teacher: the notes that you all received are very brief. Therefore you all should go buy the textbook. We cannot give you the comprehensive notes because we do not want to limit the coverage that will be tested. So i hope to see all of you with the textbook the next time.

Oke.. here are my views...
First of all the textbooks are so thick!! If i have to buy a textbook for every module, i wouldnt have to eat or sleep. Everybody only has 24 hours a day and an average person needs at least 7 hours of sleep. I have bought several textbooks in the past years and i have NOT read a single textbook cover to cover!!!

Comprehensive notes SHOULD be given to students. It's not narrowing or limiting what students are to study. Rather, it is called "STUDY SMART!" Don't tell me to study everything... coz i know that even A level student spot questions. So give me a break! (I went to JC so i should know...)

Although it is true that such methods are deemed as spoon-feeding, one has to be practical. Although one wants to encourage independent studying among students, this is not the way to do it. Do not just throw the textbook at us, students. If we knew what the textbook was talking about then we wouldnt need teachers anymore!

So... the bottom-line is textbooks shouldnt be students Bible. Instead, the textbook should be used as a form of reference and for a deeper knowledge and understanding of the topic. The job of a teacher is very important. I cannot stress the importance of tat further. Also, comprehensive notes SHOULD be given! It gives students a better understanding of the topic rather than just reading and understanding nuts!

SparkLing FoReVeR..

Harlow! Yo peeps this is my very very first time writing a blog. Thought it was a really cool idea to keep my pals updated through blogging. Where shall i begin... ... *Linda ponders*

Lately school has reopened. As many events has taken placed during the past 6 months or so, i was determined to pick myself up again. To soar much higher than before but now, it's not gonna be by my strength but God's. I've ran out of breath long ago. It's hard to move forward sometimes when you are reminded of your past. It's almost like someone trying to drown you in the waters while you struggle to breathe.

Things have taken a turn ever since i found myself back with God. Oh.. hold on... i didnt find God. He found me. LoL
*Linda giggles*
It's a really different life right now. Perhaps it's the way He is bringing me up in this world. I'm growing up! This semester is going to be a real blast. Final Year Project is to be done this semester. Alot of revising of past years work. Argh... i returned most of what i learned back to my teachers! Sobz... alot of reading up to do. Yup... anyway whatever it is, i will not give up yet. Reason being Jesus is always beside me!! Yippie =)