Would you Listen or would you Turn Away

The next step always is hard.

Awaken and not asleep.

I made afew difficult choices but sometimes the choice is not mine alone.

I feel like a spinning top going round in circles. What do i really want?

I want to just drop my baggage and run... but then the question of responsibility arises. How much then have i grown this past few months? I have heard but do i really know? I have experienced but have i really learnt from past mistakes?

Father I know that i am nothing without you. An empty vessel which only you can fill. Fill me with your presence, till my cup runneth over. I know that you see and know all that i've done. I know you see all of me. Change me then Father, do not give up on me. You know what is the best way to teach and correct me. I lay all at your feet and may you do as you wish with me... ...