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Friday Evening

Friday Morning started off with me facing the computer.

*tap*tap*tapping on the computer keyboard. Dateline for assignment is today and i took a really long time to get it done up. Could have been alot more efficient if i was more organised. Kinda forgotten how to go about getting it done. Thankfully for G and TT, they were really nice and patient with helping me get along with the essay. Referencing takes on a whole new light on writing essays. Its so different from how its done in Poly.

Got it done and handed it up.

We went to do some grocery shopping. Bought heaps of stuff and was almost broke at the end of it. We were left with afew dollars... G wanted dou hui, i wanted taro bubble tea. With the little we had, we first headed towards the dou hui store. *surprise surprise* I saw my ex-colleague over there!!!! She gave us a discounted price and the rest of the cents we had were enought to get the taro!!!! *yippie* Linda gives thanks.

*giggles* yes....i can become and impulsive buyer (even for food) and thus i do need the Lord's wisdom to manage my money well. So far, God has been truly faithful in providing and meeting all my needs.

Now left to focus on studying for the exam. I have to learn to commit these into God's hands too. Will continue to pray for wisdom as i continue to try and have faith in the Lord God Almighty hands... ...

Need to do work

HELP!!! SO much readings and concepts to grasps....

Father help me and give me the strength to continue....
to continue yet another day.

I did the feedback form for one of my lect the other day. THe comment i wrote was sth abt like millions of dollars are lost in the stock market in minutes.

You lose all your students when u blank out for that few minutes.

Uncontactable

Sorry, for the next few upcoming days, there will be days where you will not be able to contact me!

Why? Cause i have decided to off the handphone. Then can just focus on what's more important. Life can be such a hassel at times don't you agree? Enough 'excitment' and disappointment for the week.

This week kinda down. Not sure if its the stress... or what. Makes me wanna kong somebody's head. Excuse me while i make myself invisible the upcoming days and weeks.

Painful to acknowledge

Yst was feeling queasy and uneasy. Thought that i was just being moody. ANyway, i called Gary. I i couldn't get through... ... was very uncomfortable... and i just kept calling... yar... i'm pretty impatient.

Anyway, after afew more hours have passed, i decided i will try again. And this time Gary picked up with shocking news. Gary is wounded on the back, hands, feet and even the head... ... *sob*

Some cuts were quite deep. *ouch*

And it didn't help that traffic yst was bad.

But even then so, i can see that God is so merciful. Our life is in His hands. He decides what to give, take away and what stays.

Spoke to M yest. HAven't heard frm for so long!! So glad that he's happy with everything there. God is indeed good. As always, very concerned for us. He's indeed a great friend. I doubt he'll read this, but if you ever do.... THANK YOU!!!!!

I was asked how does it feel to have two close friends get into a car accident? It is a heart filled with thankfulness. It does not need to be an accident that a life is lost. It could be just in your sleep. I guess its also important to treasure EVERYONE around me, more importantly, that they are saved. At least i know that if i lose them now, i know i'll get to meet them in heaven.

Went to work today. It was busy as usual. And again the boss expressed sadness to see me go. Giggles... glad that God had helped me in this job. Glad that i am able to be faithful in my work that God has blessed me with even though it does not pay me much.

Genting International, Star Cruises reveal plans for Sentosa integrated resort

SINGAPORE : The Genting International and Star Cruises consortium has proposed to build four theme parks at a cost of S$5.2 billion at the integrated resort in Sentosa.

It includes a Universal Studios theme park and three water-themed attractions. Spanning 49 hectares, the proposed resort - Resorts World at Sentosa - will feature three water theme parks. They include the world's largest oceanarium - the Quest Marine Life Park - with 700,000 dolphins, bat rays and open ocean fish. Jeffery Jouett, CEO, Dolphin Quest, said, "There are all kind of experiences in our park. The opportunity to be in a shark cage and dive in with hammerhead sharks and tiger sharks and to feed them from that shark cage or to snorkel along...There will be restaurants and bars completely submerged where you'll be surrounded by fish of the ocean and whale sharks as you dine, drink and have a meal." Visitors can also enjoy "water-coasters" and rides that wind through lush greenery and forested areas, or try out the surf pool at the Equarius Water Park.

Winner will be announced at the end of the year.

*giggles*
Happy news for dolphin lovers. But just imagine if you are a marine lover... and you're eating in a seafood restaurant. Haha... the poor kids will be traumatised.

Last lecture for accounting ended today... REVISION TIME!!! Someone pls remind me not to wake up for 8am lect next week... ... ...

Dreams and ambitions

When i learnt about Banyan Tree, how exclusive it is and how well-runned it was, i endeavoured a dream to be one of their staff if i ever work in the service line.

What is Banyan Tree?

Banyan Tree is a resort, a Singapore company. It has few locations, but its locations are strategically picked. All with wonderful views of the sea with AWESOME view of the sunrise. It's so popular, that you have got to book a room in advance. Of course, all this comes with a price.

Can't believe that there's so many happenings going on back home! Sounds so foreign to me. It sounds too much of a fantasy and a nightmare at the same time. Can't imagine staying so close to the casino...

Hopefully all this investment will not corrode the strong morals and values in the country.

TODAY
Had a funny dream. Dreamt that i was chased by aliens. I was blackmailed and was at the point of being captured. Ah.. i don't like these dreams. I rather have none.

Don't like lecture, have to go and study the excel spread sheet later to understand today's lect.

I met almost everyone whom i havent met since this semester today. All in one day.

Made a new friend from Brunei, SL. She also very lost with corporate finance. Gladly we're not the only ones.

Shall continue on with my essay. I over write. Write too much... ... later have to go back and make my points more concise. With more references.

Developments in Sentosa

Las Vegas firm Eighth Wonder has roped in Singapore luxury resort operator Banyan Tree Hotels and Resorts to strengthen its bid for a Singapore integrated resort license, the companies said Monday. Should Eighth Wonder win the bid for the project on Sentosa island, Banyan Tree will manage and operate a high-end resort that will feature exclusive private villas set in a lush tropical garden setting, a joint statement said. Banyan Tree's sister brand, Angsana Spa, will also be incorporated into hotels within the "integrated resort" complex, the statement said.

Although it is a Singapore company, Banyan Tree has yet to set up its signature brand on home soil. Its operations are spread out in 19 hotels and resorts, 51 spas and two golf courses worldwide. "The project presents a great opportunity for Banyan Tree to return to its roots by establishing its signature brand of hospitality on home ground," said Paul Chong, assistant vice president of business development at the company. Eighth Wonder chairman Mark Advent added: "Our vision for the Sentosa integrated resort is to make it truly world class and yet uniquely Singapore." Eighth Wonder has also tied up with Starwood Hotels and Resorts Worldwide Inc in its bid for the Sentosa integrated resort project, a concept that includes hotels and other facilities alongside gaming. Starwood, whose brands include Sheraton, Westin, and Le Meridien, will manage and operate four hotels if Eighth Wonder wins the bid. Eighth Wonder is undertaking its bid with Australia's Publishing and Broadcasting Ltd and Hong Kong's Melco International Development Ltd, and Isle of Capri Casinos Inc.

They are competing against two other contenders: a partnership of Bahamas-based Kerzner International and CapitaLand, Southeast Asia's biggest property group, and a team from Genting International-Star Cruises, part of Malaysian casino operator Genting Group. A winner is to be announced by the end of the year. If it wins, Eighth Wonder has vowed to invest 3.5 billion US dollars in the Sentosa project. Las Vegas Sands in May won the right to build Singapore's other integrated resort on downtown Marina Bay. Marina Bay Sands, as the project is called, will open in 2009. It will feature a casino and other facilities like hotels, convention areas, retail shops and restaurants.

Saturday!

Today wanted to go and it dao hui at Sunnybank, but realised that it's closed. Wonder if they're upgrading or are they closed, like closed for good.

It was closed so hence we went to a nearby shop, Little Singapore to eat. Heehee... the char kway teow is AUTHENTIC Singapore food. Oh my gosh... i didn't realise how much of Singapore i have missed till i ate the first mouth!

Yesterday, I ate a bar of Hershey's chocolate! HAha... and i thought that i wouldn't be able to get it here. It's a very special chocolate in my tummy. Giggles. Quite sure that i will gain weight. Sobs. Feel like my effort to lose weight aint gonna succeed. I mean, if i have to eat i will eat. No point starving myself. I need the energy to study and work.

*smiLes* Chocolate makes me happy.

Would you Listen or would you Turn Away

The next step always is hard.

Awaken and not asleep.

I made afew difficult choices but sometimes the choice is not mine alone.

I feel like a spinning top going round in circles. What do i really want?

I want to just drop my baggage and run... but then the question of responsibility arises. How much then have i grown this past few months? I have heard but do i really know? I have experienced but have i really learnt from past mistakes?

Father I know that i am nothing without you. An empty vessel which only you can fill. Fill me with your presence, till my cup runneth over. I know that you see and know all that i've done. I know you see all of me. Change me then Father, do not give up on me. You know what is the best way to teach and correct me. I lay all at your feet and may you do as you wish with me... ...

Blue and Moody

Woke up... not feeling awesome.

Not sure why...

Maybe i haven't completed what i set out to do last week hence the crap feeling?

I turned to God and to His word.

1 Peter 5:7
Casting all your cares on Him, for He cares for you.

I know that only He can fill this insecurity of mine, only He can uplift this down and dishearted heart of mine. Shall continue to pray and wait.. ...

As for now, i shall just continue to move and walk forward. I don't know what its up ahead. Could be good. Could be bad. Hmm.. but I know that God is walking beside me, so i need not fear. He knows what's ahead.

My finger is hurting right now as i am typing. Particularly my 3rd finger. Was trying to play the guitar the other day. Then i realised how hard you have to press the string just to get that nice 'ting' sound. My finger is so weak... press so hard still cannot get it right. Especially the D chord. Now i remember why i decide not to pick up guitar when i was 12. Maybe all i need is alittle more prac huh... ...

Oke! Half an hour more to prepare and walk to sch... May it be a fruitful day for the Lord. Have to do it with a pleasing heart for the Lord...

How much do i believe

Today was reading on Hezekial when he was king over Israel. The things that he did so different from the many many many kings before... like he made a mark in History. Hmm... i can imagine breaking the tradition from the hundreds of years where pple were worshipping idols. Idols that are nothing but things that are crafted from human hands. The political upheaval must have been tremendous.

To gain a popular view from the multitude, or please God. The ambivalence of it all.

The changing of tradition means changing of mindset.

Our hands are indeed powerful tools.

What am i using it for?

Hmm.. if i look at a broader context, it would be what am i using my life to glorify God? If i really cared about God, what are the little little details that i will want to take note of?

Hezekial made a very sincere solemn prayer to God about the whole situation. How it seemed bleak and hopeless. At the same time acknowledging the soverign power of God.

God listened to 2 very important prayers that Hezekial made. One was when Israel was threatened by Assyrians where they mocked the nation and tried to demoralise them. I call it emotional weapon.

2nd was when Hezekial was about to die. He weaped and prayed for the Lord God to remember him as how he has followed closely in his walk with God. And God heared his prayer and EXTENDED his life by another 15 years!

One thing i learn... is that i should BELIEVE in my prayers. God is really listening and He'll do something about it. He's not just sitting and watching and nodding. He's the shepherd!

Sometimes i feel like a life sentence has already been made. Like when i flunk my exam, or like i made a dumb mistake, or a stupid decision. Like oh no... this is it... gone already... i made a dumb move and now i am... condemned or ... ... blah blah... but as from what i read, God really knows our hearts. Just talk to God daily, He'll do what He believes is best, what is just. Letting God give the outcome and let me not assume and predict or even conclude the outcome of the situation.

Reflect

Went out yst with a sister in Christ.

So nice of her to invite me out... it was a gd time of reflection.

Like makes me realise how much or how little i have progressed.

There are the good the bad, the sad and the happy.

But i guess what's important is through it all we shld stick close to God. God is faithful, always there... but are we clinging on Him. Am i seeking, am i looking towards him in all that i do. Sometimes i don't, and i'm still learning.

I am so thankful for another chance. That he trusts me enough to give me another go at life...

Just gonna pray for RAIN today! SO that business at the new outlet won't be so bz... or else i would be tired out and wouldn't want to do anything after that. Pray for strength too... dunno why feel so hungry nowadays... ...

Updates!

23rd Sept... VIP arrival.

Holiday starts.

Must say that this holidays is VERY tiring!!!

Kinda exhausted actually... the sun was blazing...

But its really nice to be part of a family outing...

Hmm... God's timing is amazingly perfect. Let's see... Sunday, went airport and met a friend MS. She was so so upset that her bf was leaving!!! Eeps.. and yea.. just glad that i could invite her to have BBQ with us! Hmm.. hope it brighten up her day alittle.

I never actually talk to her... it just seems so coincidentally that i always bump into her... and when i do, i find out something interesting that relates me and her! Uh huh... and like we all know that God doesn't make this kinda coincidence happen for nothing. Hmm.. should catch up with her again some time soon... if time allows... ... ... ...

Sometimes, i get really disappointed... upset... agitated.. like why must upsetting things as such has to happen. I dun have the answers... sometimes... feel like banging on the wall.. life really aint a bed of roses... its not! Roses have torns yar?

Just so thankful for Jesus who is so merciful and kind... the only who truly understands and knows me... he is so pure forgiving and yet just. Always look at the cross and i wonder just wonder... what he saw in me that is so worth saving... a still small voice will whimper... am i worth it? what do you see so precious in me... what am i to you?... and all the answers are on that very same cross. *Linda heaves a sigh*

A few poem i came across... a very interesting one indeed... ...

A promise of yes that does turn to no, is a sad and painful review.
It runs through your mind, thoughts bad and unkind, self doubt displaces the truth.
You tend to accept your inner most faults instead of just looking toward pain.
You beat yourself down, your head to the ground the feeling just drives you insane.
So if you give your word, a promise to one, prepare to make it come true .
For if you turn sour, change your mind in the hour then you're painting the others world blue.
--- Stay true to your promises... it will make this easier for other around you.

Last night I said a little prayer
For all who are ill out there. For all who have no home at all, No place to call their lair.
I rememberd the hungry Who are dying without bread.
All who need medicine But received nothing instead.
I asked the Lord in His mercy To shower His blessings on them.
To move the hearts of others To share their bread with them.
Be compassionate And one day you will know.
That the Lord saw your kindness And will reward you so.