Sick

Lately, i've been down with cold and flu... well first it was the cold and now the flu...

First i have recovered and now i'm down AGAIN... grr... Not sure how i got sick this time... but i think my brother passed it to me... was taking care of him the other day becoz he's really sick. Tons of family problems... not sure how to deal with it at times but by faith God will sustain me and see us through... ...

Gary was really sweet, patient thoughtful and caring... throughout the day today, he took care of me... gave me panadol, smashed it up till its powdery for me to drink, made honey and barley for me... Giggles... what more can a girl ask for?

Feel kinda dry lately, spritually dry. Haven't been reading the bible. Like there's so much things to do in the morning. More like i have to do alot of mundane stuff... perhaps is my want to contribute to the family... all based on my own strength and effort...

Need to get back... need to manage my time more effectively. Time to sleep, time to play, time to write resume, time for family, time for Gary too...

The Search is on

Wow... another week has passed. I reckon that events in my life aren't very nicely spaced out. Just like how life is... not always nicely neatly mapped out for each one of us as we never know what life may throw at us. It may be something sweet, or it might be something bitter. Either or, we must know how to manage that excitement, joy, sadness or melancholic.

I am but amazed at how successful people get, and i yes... at times i do envy those who could already achieve what they have right now. A family, house, car and a fantastic job that pays well. Like a little naive child, i am easily drifted away with the flow of success and all that is rosy. I conveniently store away in my mind the hard ships the pain as well as the sorrow that one goes through life. Failures? What failures? Difficulties? What difficulties? Forgetting that with obstacles, a person can come out stronger, better and more victorious. With that said, lest may i not forget principals, morals and of course the one and most importantly God. The one who gave MEANING , to life, giving us another chance.

How my life is going to be like next? Am i really gonna be able to handle working life and take on the challenges and obstacles ahead of me? I am really not sure... to do my best and let God steer this ship, trusting that whatever is ahead is for my own good. I believe that is how life should be. Not a rosy picture.... but one that is meaningful enough.... ....

Journey is long and narrow

Have send out my resumes to everywhere i can so far... still trying... no replies from any companies yet... I want to work. Sigh... but i'm either underqualified or over qualified.

Just came back from steamboat at Marina South. Giggles... last time i was there, it was with my poly classmates. They have made some changes.. like no free flow of prawns and crabs. Standard serving given out, depending on the number of pple per table.

It was a nice meal given by G's parents. Thanks dear...

Tml will be going for 2 bday parties. One is G's Mom... and the other is A's.

A's havent been feeling too well. But she's already doing a great job sending invitations and making arrangements. I can't wait to see her.... ...

Will be a bz day tml... why? Becoz i got my ear stuffed... its blockeD~

Its affecting my brains.... blockhead.... hope it'll clear by itself tml... so no need to spend $ on doc... such a waste of money... ...

i'm spending money even before i start earning... ... will blog again... soon... ... i hope.

Last year.. this year... next year

Past few weeks have been a bz week. Sending resumes (still in the process of doing so), bought a new desktop, getting it fixed up, got my luggage that i shipped back (long overdue)... etc.

As you can see... the fact that i haven't been blogging... just shows that i haven't been reflecting much. Still going through the adjusting period i guess. Yesterday, met ting ting. Glad that she is in good spirits though she does look alittle bored at home. But yes... looking at her leg sort of reminded me to continue to pray for her. Met PJ along the way and just happy that she's got her dream job. Speaking of job... perhaps it is true that working is very important. I started out wanting to be a financial analyst or something of that sort. Sounded like a fantastic job, good prospects, lots of hard work and great salary as well. Think i just wanted to cash in or look great. Perhaps a job of such status was just a ego boost. But, i'm glad that i've been more realistic after talking to a few people around me.

I guess what impacted me most was a close friend of mine. I don't have many close friends... she's just one of the closer ones that shared loads of laughter and pain in Poly. She got leukemia...

Life is just so fragile... sometimes without us knowing just how precious one life really is. What we do, the food we eat... my bf once got in a car accident and when he came to, the first thing he looked for was his laptop... ... It's a nice reminder to know that there are just some things in life, money cannot buy. More importantly, to make use of the time that God has so graciously endowed on us. Last year? This year? Next year? What about now... ...