Woke up by alarm, followed by afew calls. zzZZzzz... still stoned and sleepy.
Must be the air or sth... its so warm last night. Nice to sleep in.
Have to study.
If God can pull me through this, i ought to be thankful.
Think i'm not giving Him the respect or honour that he deserves right now.
If only my eyes can be opened and see the glorious things before me.

I really need a break. I'm still wondering when is my exam. They're so slow... ... tortoise. Should be out today... slackers. (Linda calling the kettle black.)

Thinking of heading back home after the exam. Not sure yet. Really need to break away. This is so draining...

I shouldn't be sad, that would be admitting that God cannot make me happy.
I shouldn't be in despair cause that would mean God doesn't have the ability to help.
I shouldn't feel dejected that would mean God hasn't accepted me.

And yet.. i have in one way or another allowed myself to do what i want... and i don't think God desires me to be this way. So why should i remain in this state? Must change must change.