Saturday, July 22, 2006

Self inflicted

Glad that the worst is over... but i know that i'm still dissapointed... have to work hard on recovering now before it starts to affect those around me.

I guess its not about trusting in my own abilities. Everything in life is volatile. The only thing that is certain in this world is God himself. I'm comforted that He's the same yesterday, today, forever... ... though i still cannot understand all of His ways, i know that i have to learn to trust.

Trusting and placing my confidence in Him and not myself.

Psalms 37: 3 - 8
Trust in the Lord, and do good;
Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness.
Delight yourself also in the Lord,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the Lord.
Trust also in Him
And He shall bring it to pass.
He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light,
And your justice as the noonday.

Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him;
Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way,
Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.
Cease from anger, and forsake wrath;
Do not fret - it only cause harm.

Meaning of fret: Irritation of mind, agitation.

One of the ways of description fret is being used : To disturb the surface of (water or a stream);

I picture still waters, followed by a pebble or a stone. The stone or pebble distrupts/disturbs the stillness. Ripples of waters are observed. I wish to be still. Yet, just like still water, it is often disrupted. It does not need a huge stone; just a leaf and the stillness is gone. Yet, God says do not fret. Perhaps some things are just not made for me to understand. Perhaps He chooses not to reveal the answer so that I will continue to seek and pursue.


The never ending whys in life.

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