It's getting harder to get out of bed

It's getting harder to get out of bed... harder to smile each day...

Nonetheless, i draw strength from the Him above. Got out of bed today pretty fast, had my favourite breakfast cereal and... got off on a gd start. Did my quiet time and... just pondered about afew stuff... obedience, sacrifice and inadequacy. Tot about it in a bus ride to sch earlier on. That's one thing i like about the buses... no Mobile TV... peace and quiet... i miss the quietness and the time to just think through things on the bus amidst all the hustle and bustle...

Studied quite abit... did afew questions here and there... did those easier ones first.. confidence booster... then later shall tackle the harder ones.

I already gone through on the lecture slides... which is terribly insufficient.. so have to couple it with plenty of readings... and the readings can get you so confused. Feel rather suffocated now, hence i'm blogging. Yea... plus i'm taking time out to take care of little sister... she's having abit of trouble getting a job.. ( i told her more than once to start searching early.. ). Well getting a job to her liking sure aint easy... anyway... i've combed out afew job positions and just sent it over to her. Hopefully she'll land a job which has gd boss and gd pay plus gd experience and gd colleagues. I'll just do alittle guiding here and there... the rest is really up to her. My job is to give her options... she'll have to choose and make the most of what is before her.

I think its been a pretty tough time for her... becoz... i'm no longer there right beside her. I'm gonna allow her to take afew falls... just so that she'll learn from them... it'll make her stronger.. some things can't be taught.. must be experienced.

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING!! haha.. what do i think of when i think of CNY... i think of friends, loads of fun, chinese delicacies, family, holiday, hong baos and the colour RED!!!

Hmm.. i wonder if i'll get to lo hei here... giggles... lo hei is always such a fun event with my family... we lo (high high). It's the only chance to play with food without getting scolded! I just love the crackers that go with it.

Not really in the mood for CNY though... now i think of CNY i think of exam.. work... there aint no holiday. ANyway, my mom is coming down around that time... just so that she can celebrate my birthday with me... check things out... and hopefully she'll be nice and not naggy. Abit worried she'll say that i'm not doing my best or something... it can be really hard to reach her expectations... given no room for mistakes. Got to be more careful and hardworking. Pull up my socks! Got to wake up and get out there... got afew things i'm worried about... but.. we'll see how everything works out... i'm keeping the faith... keeping the hope... keeping the fire in me alive...