MONDAY(ANOTHER BRAND NEW WEEK!)
It's not easy being a older sister. There's so much responsibility, a large part of it i willing undertake. I do love mysister, and i would be devastated to see her go the wrong way. Yet in the same manner, i want to give her the freedom to choose and do what she likes and find her own way through life. She's truly a unique individual, sometimes, she teaches meto be strong as well, her will power, her boldness. I love to bask in her innocence and truthfulness, but her very fortesometimes is a weakness and puts her in a unfavourable position. I myself am learning to stike a balance in life, learning toput God as my focus before anything else.
So yes, there has been another string of new series of problem. May i not forget that nothing is impossible with God. May i learn not to doubt his ways. That though i may not see his hand leading in the situation, that i may learn to trust Him withall my heart and lean not on my own understanding.
I have been ill, but i'm on the road to recovery. God is truly amazing. Today, i knew that there was a "surprise quiz" but..i was not in gd health to do the quiz. To my surprise, the computers in the whole building was not working... so quiz will be postpone to next week. A huge sigh of relief came from inside of me. My brain was not in the position to retainor analyse information. Alot of catching up to do right now, and besides that... i've got a whole ton of stuff at the backof my mind. I WILL trust him and give every situation or circumstance to him. I can't handle the load. Abit too heavy for me.With all the quizzes and assignments and tutorials and other nitty gritty details that i have to take care of. sigh* But ireally enjoyed the bible study today... somehow something was happening inside of me... a strange sense of rest i think.But it was a really nice short time to just bask and reflect and appreciate his love for me.. which made me realise how muchi miss the support i would get from home, epsecially from mei mei. One of the things i would love to do when i get back homeis to cook a nice healthy meal for everyone, sit together around the dining table and laugh together. Followed by a gd doseof TV and then a stroll in Mt Fabour. Till then, i have to toil the ground here and work my butt off.
Tomorrow i've got to work again... after which, friend coming over to help me with my bed!!! Once Bed is UP, everything will be pretty much more organised. HAHA... yesh... i'm actually hoping everything will turn out nicely. Owe my friend a treat.Really appreciate all the help that has been provided. I can't possibly do it on my own.
Hope tomorrow will be a good day of work, and that i will be recovered. I wanna complete some revisions as well. TML anotherbusy fruitful day! May i do it with a smile, and a heart that is filled with thankfulness. May i be a blessing to others as well.
Church has been growing which means have to talk to them more, make them feel more at home. Of course, can't be toorestrictive, must try to be nice to everyone around me. Sometimes i pause and feel that the pressure is kinda great. I mean,there's eyes watching what i do, i can only pray that they will see the excellence and perfectness of Christ instead of the incapable me.
My prayers goes out to friends who are currently facing surmounteneous problems, stress in their studies, relationships withfriends, work, time management, a broken heart, health..etc. Don't worry, i won't name any of you. It's safe with me.
It would be cliche and thoughtless of me to ask you to look at the bright side of life. Hence i ask of you to treat urselfalittle better. Take some spare time off. Off handphone, no MSN, no music... just you and the space around you. Close youreyes and appreciate the silence and tranquility around you. God holds each one of you very close to hi heart. He himself willbe traumatised and devasted to see any of use fall into the road which leads to destruction. So let us be diligent, focusingour eyes on him, and having the faith and trust in the one almighty God. It's abt 11:37pm here. Have to go sleep. Have a wonderful blessed tomorrow!
Thursday 23rd MARCH
Yup, IT's Thursday!!! SO HAPPY! LOL, Really glad that i've made to the end of Thursday! Going out with afew friends and mynew housemate. Hope we can both get along. HmmMm.. it sure is different staying with a girl as compared to a guy. Think i'lljust stop here. Some things are just not meant to be said... I haven't been online too much lately on MSN cause my "wireless"only comes with one adapter. Sigh... gonna need to get a cable soon. Since i am talking about the new place, i'll dwell onsomething which happened two days back. Neighbour from downstair came up to our place and knocked.
door knocks
'knock! knock!'
Linda opens the door.
Linda:'Yes?'
Guy:'Hi! i'm ___ from downstairs.
Is Peter in?'
Linda:'Oh no, he' not back yet! Is there anything i can do?'
Guy:'There's a water leak at our place. You can come down and take a look.
"Linda:'OK!'
Let me explain... when the knock came, i was actually busy fixing my bed. It was a tuesday. Meaning i had knock off fromwork, am tired and working on fixing my double size bed frame up. Went to his place and ooOOoo.. saw a trail of water droplets coming from his roof. We(including housemate) ourelves were having problem with water... the water was murky!Eeks... water rationing that day. The next day, owner got the plumber and got it fixed up. Apparently the source of the problem was coming from his attached bathroom which he got renovated not too long ago.
Moving on to health. I think i can safely say that i have recovered! Sometimes nose alittle bit blocked but that's about it. YUP! Am very grateful for all the smses, encouraging me and praying for me constantly.Would like to thank a very good friend who passed me some cold tablets... you know thoe small little yellow tablets that actually knock you out?! Yea... took it and it really does the works.
I do feel happy, cause although life is hectic, you see the little things fall into place. Like scholarship application hasbeen successfully sent. Double gaurantee chop! Yea... that's really a huge relief for me.
Sometimes i do feel weak... i AM weak, but He is strong. Guess that's how i pull through time after time, by relying on Him.Just very thankful for everything i have been blessed with. I shan't take anything for granted. No, not the fact that i havelegs to climb that steep hill day after day and a nice place to stay right on top of the hill. The fact that i have a familythat calls me, even though most of the time its family problem. The fact that i have got alittle time to ponder and reflect on my day even though i am so busy in the day. I guess sometimes i have to learn that i don't have to swallow/handle everything myself. I ought to give it to Him first and then let Him guide me and empower me. Trying to fix my eyes on thethings that are eternal instead of the things that are present right now.
Shall continue to ponder and reflect silently right now.
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