I guess all of you shld know by now... i, Linda Teo, have failed 2 modules. 1 is Risk and Derivatives and the other is some level 1 Statistics module. Well... i was already crushed after knowing i flunk the Risk and Derivatives modules... just picked myself up alittle when the next blow came... i failed my STATS!!!
i was totally caught off guard... coz all my other friends passed... so i happily assumed that i can't be too far off the mark. But gosh... all hell broke lose when reality sinked in. Butterflies in my belly, sleepless nites, endless tears, shattered heart... aiya... summary = depressed.
I remembered giving everything to God for the Statistics test... i just placed all my trust in him. But... execution was no gd... my bad... dunno how come... half way through i sort of panicked and i think i blanked out.. coz i couldnt quite understand what was the question asking. "WHAT'S the ProbLEm with me.." ANyway... it was not soon after i pulled myself together again, got my act together after venting all my frustration on running and crying. haha.. yar.. i cried over lousy results. Sigh*
Anyway, two days ago, i was at my friends place having dinner. When my friend was reading his email and exclaimed that there has been a change in the marking scheme. Apparently this is becoz in one of the exam halls, the lecturer did not allow the students to write during perusal time! So... to compensate everybody, CHANGE OF MARKING SCHEME. Meaning, though i failed my mid-sem, it doesnt matter anymore! Becoz... one of the marking scheme is 100% weightage on the finals! SO though i screwed up for my mid-sem, seems like God is giving me a second chance to shine. Yeah! feel more alive and having more hope in me right now. Perservering through tough times like this is really tiring. With one mind and one heart, i give all to God, and i focus on that one goal... to glorify him. Amazing isnt it... He is always faithful... always there... The Rock of my Salvation.
Lately, problems are hitting me like waves one after another. I received news that my big brother is down with fever for 6 days already. My mom brought him to SGH to take his blood test and the test results were not favourable. There are few blood palates in his blood... signs of dengue fever. Was very worried when i heard the news... think i took it quite badly coz everyone kept asking me why my face so pale. It's so hard to be far away and not be there when ur family needs you most. But, once again, i recovered and placed my trust in the Almighty Father. I fasted breakfast and lunch to pray for my brothers speedy recovery. I await for good news as my brother goes for his blood test again today. God is faithful, God is good... .
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