Picture say a thousand words

Pictures speak a thousand words




Some friends came over today to bake cake and cook some stuff to celebrate my friends birthday. Some snap shot photos were taken...
This photo is taken after a bathe... wide awake, fresh and ready to start the day... all smiles...

After which... it was time to hit the books... sobs... study and study... work work... write write... serious studying and concentration... miss those days where classmates come together and motivate each other to study... its now just me and independent studying. Did just 1 hour or so today...

Let the cooking begin! Haha... yesh... after studying must eat for the energy yar? Haha.. yup was cooking and bake the chocolate birthday cake! mmMMmm yummy... you guys feeling hungry just watching me cook? LoL!!

Caught in action... looking out of the window... longingly. There's an apartment opposite mine... i always see families together... they would wash the dishes together and watch tv together. Then i would remember my family back home. I reallie do miss home alot. It's tough somehow especially when there's no one to put their arms ard you and just make u feel treasured. Usually i'm home alone... can't really communicate much with my flatmate... different frequency i guess. Can get along fine.. but that's just about it. Looking out of the window... seeing a warm family... and me... standing there by myself... melancholy. Papa Mama... wo hen xiang nian ni men... I love you ma... love ya dad. *wish i could hug you right now* There's reallie nothing much i can do... except try my best to do them proud... *Linda feeling abit helpless... ... there's some things money cannot buy.

Enough of my sobs... dunt like to end the day in a dampen spirit. There's so much to do... so much to look forward to. Decided to stop being such a child and just move on! Haha.. yea... got back from celebrating my friends bday party! A smashing success... really surprised her! It was quite hard for me to help organise it... but... it pulled off! Yup... here's me hugging my little pillow... love it to bits. nitey nite you all... there's gonna be a better tomorrow... and i've gotta start beliving it in my heart.

There there...

As Exams draw nearer...

I'm still pretty intimidated by the fact that exams are so near... and they want to test on SO many topics! Crazy people. We don't have minds like Einstein oke... we are people with NORMAL human brains. Anyway, the some Australians here are super good. They don't do their homework and they can just sit there and understand everything. I'm like looking up(at the teacher) and looking down(reading text). SO IRRITATING! ARGH... yea... so it's a unfair world, but it doesn't have to be this frustrating right? Anyhow, felt really SIAN today. definition of sian = boredom + stress. WORSE combination. So since i'm bored and stressed i figure i go watch TV... "The HOUSE" Very good show!!! I also watched "Everybody loves Raymond". I actually tot that the Raymond show was super boring back in Singapore so i never watched it even once. But hey! I was wrong! it is very hilarious, be prepared to laugh ur pants off. Pardon my language... i guess my tone just changes when the stress comes in. Never happened back in SP becoz there were funny pple who made intelligent jokes.

Next goal is to look for people who are humorous enough... not lame. Lame is not humorous... overly lame makes a person appear dumb. Yea... miss all those laughter in SP. Haven't laughed much since i arrived here... nothing to laugh about!

By the way... i'm frustrated becoz of a lousy tutorial teacher who is a student. I can't believe i paid 2000 AUD to be taught be a student. Oh well, they do this in NUS too... tot i will just give everybody alittle insight to University life and to prepare those for what is to come in University. Firstly, you have to bid for timetable oke... that means... planning out ur own timetable. So like myself, its Mondays and Fridays are off. Before you all go WAH SO SHIOK AH, my tues and thurs runs from 10am all the to 6pm. FULL! On thurs i dunt even have time to eat lunch oke...

Though ur timetable is already nicely drawn up, IT'S NOT CONFIRMED! Reason: Your tutorial/ lecturer might SUCK BIG TIME! So you have to go find another lecture/tutorial to attend. A friend from NUS was telling me that they have lousy lecturers too... from China, cannot explain properly in english. Yep, so nothing is settled! Imagine all the changes and adapting i had to go through... ...

Next, your not spoonfed anything! You got to read up on ur own, find the textbk and READ!!! ALot of Reading... and the textbks are SUPER expensive. Its a MUSt buy to have textbk, or else it's like driving w/o getting ur license.

I've been changing my tutorial class EVERY WEEK! Not that i enjoy doing it... sometimes its for better teachers, sometimes its just to have a more organised week. OH and one more thing... you have to print all ur notes out urself... so... no class rep like Jimmy to help you with it! Be independent and pro-active in everything!

Yea.. the key thing over here is to have alot of good capable friends, so when anything goes wrong, they're there to pop over and help you with it. Oh and over here a car is almost like a necessity. Bus intervals are SO irregular during weekends! Yea... by the grace of God, he found me a friend who HAS a car! Haha... he drives me to church every Sunday to and fro! Yes yes... he IS rich, not really sure what line his parents are in, but.. he lives in a BUNGALOW and has cats, dogs, chickens and alot of other animals in his house! Haha... rich la rich... tat's why he dunt do well also nevermind. Anyway, he's doing this degree only becoz he is waiting to become a pilot. Pilot has got a minimum age and that's 25! So... just nice after getting a degree he go for training to become a pilot. Nice guy but ultra lazy and slack... ... he just wants a pass... how ridiculous... you pay so much money just to pass... tsktsk. What to do... he rich mah.

Thoughts for today: Ce<= So, Pe <=So
Ca<=So, Pa<=So
a = american stocks
e= european stocks

Compass of my soul

Compass of my soul
Have been feeling alittle loss lately, been restless, frustrated. Sounds like i didnt start the week well eh? Well.. it doesn't matter how each of us start our journey but how we end it!

Sometimes, you've just gotta stop whatever your doing and just devote alittle of time to figure out your thoughts and the direction your taking. If i may just go alittle into the spiritual aspect, I found hope and purpose once again in Him(Jesus). So i realise perhaps i was focusing the wrong aspect of my life. Shan't go too much detail into it. One has to always look forward and focus on the primary goal agree?

My nerves have been calmed, a bigger picture has been put forth and planted in my heart. It makes doing work a whole lot easier you know...

No pictures this week... none next week either... its exams and test week. So will be doing alot of reading and studying... the thing abt this university is that they dunt have past year papers for mid-semester... and i'm thinking that the reason is because they probably just 'recycle' the questions. haha... yup... so alot more work and effort to put in as the weightage is rather substantial. Would be aiming for a 7(distinction) so that in this i may glorify Him.

But.. i think i'll just showcase the room in which i am staying in right now. I like to call it my 5 star hotel. Really blessed to have this room because my flatmate has already registered for broadband before i arrived. I can't imagine having to use 56k like some of my friends. Also, it's very well maintained, alot better than the hostles, and other apartments. Plus its only a 5 minute walk away from one of the MAJOR shopping centres in Brisbane! In addition it has a fantasitc location. 5 minutes away from the bus interchange, and 5 minutes away from the train station(like MRT). What more could i possibly ask for? So welcome to my little temporary nest!

Haha man i sound like i'm selling away my apartment!

Work is Piling...

Work is Piling...
It has only been one month into school... and imagine taking exams with just one month of knowledge of that subject! Argh... sheer stress... it's really pushing my mental strength to the max. The agony of trying to grasp a single topic is just mind boggling. Well.. actually not really mind boggling... its just that the lecturers here use SUPER sophisticated words.. to explain a very simple concept by just using PLAIN words. I guess that's university reality bite for you. Never had such difficulty in Poly... coz majority of the teachers were really good, clear and motivating.

Well, now i know what it means when newspapers say Singapore has got world class education system. Truly, it does... honestly, the teachers there are really fantastic, two thumbs up for them. Actually, the diploma is enough to equip us for the real world. Essentially what i have learnt there is also being taught here. Just that over here... i'm getting a DEGREE... just a piece of paper to say i've graduated from a university. It's tougher over here... becoz the teachers can be quite unapproachable... they give the "what? so simple and you don't understand" kinda look and... yea... what's their problem.. we're paying them. They can be EXTREMELY impatient too... but there are the minority who i must say are just fantastic. Very patient.. very understanding.. but.. still nothing compared to the teachers in Singapore... Singapore rules..

Well... enough about school... today i went to school for consultation on the project that my group have to do.. .and i completed my part already. My group is SUPER DUPER SLOW!!! Sad to say their from SP. I wanted it completed by today.. hence the consultation. But... i was the only one who has completed my part. So disappointed... when we went to see the teacher... i was the only one telling him abt my part... and discussing issues with him... the rest was just sitting there listening going.. "uh huh.." What a WASTE of the teacher's time and... yar.. think it just didn't started off well. I'm trying not to be too judgemental over here... but when something has to be done by a certain day... it has to be done!

My previous class still rocks... never had much trouble with them... coz what can i say.. their all capable people. Maybe abit lazy at times... but nevertheless... they always deliver.

With so much said... and so much left undone... haha... i think i better go back to hitting my books.

Prayer request: More time... less work... and.. please please pray i get a job soon. The living expenses here is really high... and the cash would come in handy.

Thanks!!!!

Love ya all... byeie!

Haha... yea... my first picture is out! Can see the ang mohs behind us having a whale of a time. This picture was taken during my day out during the Ekka event. Basically, the aussies showcase thier cattles and there's horses too!

I also watched some horses racing ard the track, motorcycle stunts as well as 30 mins of ongoing fireworks! Cool right?! Haha... actually fireworks are quite common ard here... yea... and it was FREAKY cold! I am actually shivering... too skinny i suppose ... Bleh...

Anyway, now my blog is open to my ex-classmates in poly... ouch... cannot be too transparent already haha. Must be more discrete. No gossiping please! Yea... this is only for like "updating" purposes? yea... anyway i reallie miss everything abt singapore... i'm doing this slide movie kinda thingy which comprises of all the pics! My way of appreciating you all... there's too many things that is going ard here to type it out in words... so... hmm... will see when i got time then i type everything out lah. Love ya all... and miss you all oh so very very much.

Breeze

Life here is definitely different as compared to Singapore. The experience i had with friends and family in Singapore are nothing compared to being here. Maybe i was trying to find peopple who were very much Singapore. It's like running away from a problem instead of facing up to it. I attended my first few lecturers this week only to be really lost and confused by them. The theories are so different and the how each topic was taught was enough to throw me off the track. Its not going to be a breeze like i tot... fat hope. But i aint gonna give up... not until i've graduated... no way. I've come this far... not to be despair, but to be challenged. So the challenge has been thrown at me.. I know that God will somehow see me through this. Work hard... although this has only been the first week of lecture... i'm not gonna lay back. Off to work... ... and more work to be done.

No pain no gain! Haha... think that is suppose to be for exercising but oh well... i think it applies perfectly to work too... if you don't toil... you can't achieve. Of course... there is the study smart thingy. To study smart.

Thanks tiff and kenneath... you guys are the best... i thank the Lord for friends like you. And... of course i should not take you guys for granted. I do cherish every conversation we have. Thanks once again. I'll let you know of how i'm coming to soon....

Anyway... think i shld add some juicy stuff to this blog... today when i got back to my apartment... there was this guy who was sitting and staring at me!!! As it was sth like 9pm in the nite, i was very scared. I didnt dare open the door to enter the apartment. I made a U turn and walked to the coffee club near my house. I sat ard... and realised he had the password to enter the front door... perhaps he forgot his keys?

Anyway it was getting late and... i cant just stand there forever...So i said a quick prayer... jumped into the lift and closed the door. Phew nothing happened... well... if i ever in a situation as such... i will call my flatmate to come get me... it was sure dangerous!

How do i start?

Tears are unavoidable... they just flow automatically... and my uncertainty of things just increases by the minute... my face and expressions refuses to reveal my inner most feelings... they just give everything away. No... i must be strong... the tears must stop. But i cant help feeling the way i'm feeling without friends and so many cost to face alone.

This sounds pathetic... sounds like a typcial case of someone trying to cope with cultural shock. So it is.... it has only been my first day... how to live like normal. My values don't seem to sink in with the environment. I refuse to let anything change the values God has set before me. Liberal or watever... my stand remains the same... NO i cannot be laid back... take everything easy going..take everything for granted... heehee haha... no... Singapore is not like that... everything is time... efficiency. Time waits for no man. I take that as my motto.

I need alot of friends here...
Gonna need them to talk with, play with, motivate and encourage each other... so far.. i cant say i have any... i feel like i'm starting a whole new life... without a history of my own. I feel a lost of identity... the me in Singapore i love and miss so dearly... where i can freely walk on the streets without fear of lost. It's different over here... tat's all i can say. I cannot do alot of things i wanna do as i did in the past... i wanna run and hide for awhile. this reality is too harsh for me to bear alone. I need help... but is help along the way? Where is help to be found.... where?