Breeze

Life here is definitely different as compared to Singapore. The experience i had with friends and family in Singapore are nothing compared to being here. Maybe i was trying to find peopple who were very much Singapore. It's like running away from a problem instead of facing up to it. I attended my first few lecturers this week only to be really lost and confused by them. The theories are so different and the how each topic was taught was enough to throw me off the track. Its not going to be a breeze like i tot... fat hope. But i aint gonna give up... not until i've graduated... no way. I've come this far... not to be despair, but to be challenged. So the challenge has been thrown at me.. I know that God will somehow see me through this. Work hard... although this has only been the first week of lecture... i'm not gonna lay back. Off to work... ... and more work to be done.

No pain no gain! Haha... think that is suppose to be for exercising but oh well... i think it applies perfectly to work too... if you don't toil... you can't achieve. Of course... there is the study smart thingy. To study smart.

Thanks tiff and kenneath... you guys are the best... i thank the Lord for friends like you. And... of course i should not take you guys for granted. I do cherish every conversation we have. Thanks once again. I'll let you know of how i'm coming to soon....

Anyway... think i shld add some juicy stuff to this blog... today when i got back to my apartment... there was this guy who was sitting and staring at me!!! As it was sth like 9pm in the nite, i was very scared. I didnt dare open the door to enter the apartment. I made a U turn and walked to the coffee club near my house. I sat ard... and realised he had the password to enter the front door... perhaps he forgot his keys?

Anyway it was getting late and... i cant just stand there forever...So i said a quick prayer... jumped into the lift and closed the door. Phew nothing happened... well... if i ever in a situation as such... i will call my flatmate to come get me... it was sure dangerous!

How do i start?

Tears are unavoidable... they just flow automatically... and my uncertainty of things just increases by the minute... my face and expressions refuses to reveal my inner most feelings... they just give everything away. No... i must be strong... the tears must stop. But i cant help feeling the way i'm feeling without friends and so many cost to face alone.

This sounds pathetic... sounds like a typcial case of someone trying to cope with cultural shock. So it is.... it has only been my first day... how to live like normal. My values don't seem to sink in with the environment. I refuse to let anything change the values God has set before me. Liberal or watever... my stand remains the same... NO i cannot be laid back... take everything easy going..take everything for granted... heehee haha... no... Singapore is not like that... everything is time... efficiency. Time waits for no man. I take that as my motto.

I need alot of friends here...
Gonna need them to talk with, play with, motivate and encourage each other... so far.. i cant say i have any... i feel like i'm starting a whole new life... without a history of my own. I feel a lost of identity... the me in Singapore i love and miss so dearly... where i can freely walk on the streets without fear of lost. It's different over here... tat's all i can say. I cannot do alot of things i wanna do as i did in the past... i wanna run and hide for awhile. this reality is too harsh for me to bear alone. I need help... but is help along the way? Where is help to be found.... where?

Don't be fooled

Don't be Fooled
Don't be fooled by the rocks that I got I'm still, I'm still Linda from the block
First I had a little, now I have a lot
No matter where I go, I know where I came from, Don't be fooled by the rocks that I got
I'm still, I'm still Linda from the block
First I had a little, now I have a lot
No matter where I go, I know where I came from

From Living Color and blogspot scripts To Universities list to this headline clips
I stayed grounded as the amounts roll in
I'm real, I thought I told you
I've always been like this
That's just me Nothin’ phony, don't hate on me
What you get is what you see

I'm down to earth like this
Rockin’ this businessI've grown up so much
I'm in control and loving it
Rumors got me laughing, kid
Love my life and my public
Put God first
Then can't forget to stay real
To me it's like breathing

Don't be fooled by the rocks that I got I'm still, I'm still Linda from the block
First I had a little, now I have a lot
No matter where I go, I know where I came from, Don't be fooled by the rocks that I got
I'm still, I'm still Linda from the block
First I had a little, now I have a lot
No matter where I go, I know where I came from

It take hard work to cash checks
So don't be fooled by the rocks that I got, now assets
You get back what you put out
Even if you take the good route
Can't count the hood out
After a while, you know who to blink with
Just keep it real with the ones you came in with
Best thing to do is stay low, Jesus and L.T
Act like they don't, but they know

Don't be fooled by the rocks that I got I'm still, I'm still Linda from the block First I had a little, now I have a lotNo matter where I go, I know where I came from, Don't be fooled by the rocks that I gotI'm still, I'm still Linda from the blockFirst I had a little, now I have a lotNo matter where I go, I know where I came from

Ha... i slept really early yesterday and woke up really really late today. Reason: i didn't get to sleep at all the whole night! Yesh... it's those days where ur eyes and mind are wide awake and the rest of ur body are trying to get some rest. Anyway, just alittle update on what i have been doing. I just sent out 5 resumes to companies, applying for a marketing position. Do hope that one of them reply me.. please pick me... ... pick me. That's what i hope but well who knows what God has in plan for me. Waking up late is horrible... i just feel kinda guilty. Wonder what's wrong with me... think i'm having some housewife syndrome... everyday must do alittle household chore or else i'll feel lie sth is amiss. Got to go... there's plenty of studying to do.

Ridiculous? Or just outta this world?

So sorry... been so bz and all even though its the holidays. Yesh i know this sounds ridiculous... but that's the reality bit for me. Lots of insurance and finance papers i've been taking.. and by the grace of God, i've managed to pass all 4. Left 2 more to go... well i'm sort of happy and grumpy about it. I mean study beats lazying around the house. Life has been rather routine and strangely enough, the more time that i have on my hands... i would spend it on watching TV or playing computer or at the forum. Should really be spending more time with the one who has been showering me with lotsa care.. God. Yup i'm in the midst of evaluating it... main problem: LACK OF DISCIPLINE

Well... things are rough... i mean there's which university and which course to think about. I hate to make the decision and also.. i wouldn't be happy if someone else made the decision. I don't want to end up blaming them... but neither do i want to put the blame on me. Ha... i guess it all boils down to the lack of faith. It's good to think through thorougly over these issues but i have to learn to be decisive... not let fear stand in the way. Besides... "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!"

Appreciation Time:
I will also want to take time to thank my dear friends for their support and listening ear. So sweet of you all... thanks for everything *hugs*

What's the next exciting event happening in my life: making a decision in which university to go to *sobs what a taxing task

I see the Sunshine after the Rain

Oh... my oh my... About a month plus since i last blogged... hmm.. this blog page is becoming reallie rusty and all. Don't know if i should just abandon it. Besides, i am always keeping in touch with all my pals out there... (yes i love ya all!)

Everything is back to normal... coz i'm back in school Yippie! Well i love the company of my friends. They never fail to perk me up and make me smile. I know who to look for to brighten my day haha. Well here's some interesting events that have taken place:

NIE called me for an interview (yes! Imagine me a teacher.. poor children..poor me)
They bombarded me with so many questions... i felt breatheless after just 10 mins.

FYP is ending reallie soon so i gotta start pulling up my socks

Got a CRM test coming up real soon. Sigh will study hard for it.

Well..well.. i'm graduating in a months time. So i just wanna spend more time with my class while i still can... ... i'll miss them oh so very much.

The breath of Life

I woke up this morning and sniffed the air... it was fresh... it was the breath if life. This birthday is the most memorable one i had. Never knew so many pple cared abt little tiny me. It was simply fabulicious. I just want to thank my boss for treating me a sumptous meal (it's the only thing i'll remember him for i think) .

• Yea... and my wonderful siblings who bought me a study bible,
• my fantastic class who got me a lovely pink coloured RIp CuRL Wallet,
• my adorable CGM who came all the way to my house to hand me my present,
• treasured friends like wejian and janice who treated me to Thai express...

it's all too sweet. LoL but i guess the happiest part of it all for me was to see that all my friends are doing well and getting along just fine. I love ya all... ... Thanks so much for all the love you all have showered on me.

My birthday marks the end of ITP.. so yippie!!!! I'm going back to hit the books... alot of stuff to do.... but i know i'll be just fine... with Jesus in moi heart and friends who's always supporting me... just want to thank everybody for the fabulous birthday i had. Here's me signing off...