Drained till its all dry....

Haven't you paused and wondered what your energy is all put in and at the end of the day just asking urself why ur pushing urself so hard? The natural instinct for me is to just do my best in everything. But sometimes... pushes till i wanna give up. Tiring and i always have to pray and ask for renewed strength. EAch morning is just a rush. Every hour at work a rush of activities. The flow just keep coming... and i couldnt take it anymore. So i raised it with my boss today... of course indirectly bringing the issue up. But erm.. apparently its not working very well. But at least boss is aware of my workload and don't think of adding more. Not sure if that's a good sign like maybe she thinks highly of me. In any case, its more than my two hands can handle and i just pray that God watch my hands and feet. There were many times i almost sprain my ankle, cut myself or sth along those lines. Boss says its good training... and tell me not be influenced by colleague C but i think C has been most genuine in helping me. And she's definitely indispensible at the moment... however, tomorrow and Mon she will be on leave. Little me will be all alone, no one to talk to, no one to have lunch with.... its gonna be a lonely Friday... i think. Well and i hope it'll be quiet too... no news means good news. I wouldn't want trouble on Friday. Oh Lord, please do not give me more than i can handle tomorrow... i really am afraid!!! Sigh... i'll do my best... and just be praying... and praying...