Just thought i would take sometime to write everything that has happened in the past month lest i forget and be ungrateful and totally disatisfied with things... lest i forget my creator who opened the doors so graciously for me...
Past few months have been a tiring laborious search for a place to start. So i thought the hard labour ends with that expensive paper... but i was wrong. Somehow... no matter how far i have progressed, it seems to be a start to a very long journey. Pressures of home and external factors were great. With pple who sneered and who think that you'll never make it anywhere.. and everyday, pple from home, work constantly asking you what you want to do. Anxiously waiting.. wondering if there was ever gonna be work for me. The big question of "What's Next?" Constantly appearing... and faith weakens. Discouraging words at home... that really hits home. Where had i gone wrong? What was i doing wrong? So many questions... with no answers.
Thankfully for one or two pple around(THank you Gary Dear and my dearest sister). Their small acts of encouragement uplifts my spirit. In church, i knew He was there... and somehow though i couldn't give anyone a good answer... He pulled me through each and every embarrassing moment.
I'm still struggling in this world of reality. What drives people to do what they do. What drives them to behave the way they do. It irks me sometimes to the brink of giving up on my own kind. Yet the Lord says to love our neighbours as ourselves. These are the very people He gave His son to die on the cross... the very people He loves. Since he sees such value in us, who am i to reject. I'm still unsure what lies ahead. I still do not know how to react or what to say in many situations.
May i remain thankful no matter how things are gonna be in my next job. That no matter how rough things are... that i will find strength in the very Lord who gave me life.
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