Revealation

Happy Birthday Mei Mei! (Today my sis 17th bday. So sad i can't be there to celebrate it with her. Anyway, i called her and wished her a wonderful sweet 17 bday.)

My life is full of revealation. Revealation comes from the word reveal. So yes... God has revealed something so timely to me in the midst of all the studying. I thought i would never get up. I never thought i can get myself to study. Everytime i try to get my engine to start up, my heart races in phobia of knowing that i would not make it... it questions, it doubts. It's faithless, without strength, without knowledge of what lies ahead.

I've always felt that results were deemed based on my own efforts. But as we all know... hard work doesn't equal to good results. So... in all the times i've fallen here.. the number blows that i have been hit with (emotionally, mentally, physically), really questioned if i am at even qualified at all to be at a degree level.

However, just the other day, when i was studying for my 1st paper, suddenly, something just came to my mind! You know... its like how u are enlightened out of the blue! I dunno about all of you, but i talk to myself alot alot. If you see me standing alone... you would think i am stoning or dreaming. When asked what am i doing... i always say... stoning... but in all truth, i am either taking in breaths of fresh air to relieve stress or... i am talking to myself though sometimes i really do stone.

So... in the midst of trying to concentrate and grasp the concept of the topic, i said something to myself. I said

"Everyday is a fresh start, a new beginning. Hence, it matters not what happened yesterday. No, not my successes, not my failures."

What comfort it brought me. Words are so powerful when spoken. I always tell myself that i can do it... i can make it... but somehow... it did not bring about the same kinda motivation. It was comforting, refreshing, renewing of the mind.

Another interesting thing i said to myself...
"The drinks are for the guest, if you are a guest, then be my guest"
Hahaha... actually... not actually interesting... it's more for entertaining myself.

Had a good laugh this week at my friends place. A hearty laughter is good for the heart! Yea.. laughed it out becoz one of the guys did something stupid... wahaha... he went to hug his housemate... for what? I also dunno think they were playing ard or something.. then somebody saw it and told me!!! WHAHAHAHA after that no mercy was shown... suan suan suan... just like i did back in Poly...anyway, it was only for awhile.. the guys here super sensitive.. i call them monkey only their face turns black as charchoal... BLEH!!!!! Joking only mah

Hmm.. another thing i realise... actually, pple always think that to be an accountant you have to be very careful. I'll make that more specific. Pple thought that it means being careful with numbers. But... more importantly, it means having an eye for detail and being VERY attentive about WORDS. Yesh.. majority of the question i do wrongly is not becoz i got the numbers wrong... its becoz... i misinterpreted the question or... misunderstood the sentence. Lately i got to realise a very hardworking fellow. He seldom attends lectures, but he SCORES!! So, in just one day, i noticed some things.

1) He catches concept VERY FAST! That is becoz he ANALYSES the paragraph. He goes through EVERY single tiny information, and his mind actually processes it.

Majority of us will just skim through, and our mind just catches bits and pieces of important information and link them together.

2) He QUESTIONS every single step! Meaning... he actually understands the working.. not just memorise the formula. He works out HIMSELF how to derive the formula. Basically he thinks out of the box. I can tell from the questions he ask ME that... he really think through everything meticulously.

3) He doesn't leave a SINGLE thing OUT! Most of us are lazy... only know the whole picture... maybe the summary. But this fellow don't leave out anything... no matter how tiny or how insignificant it is. I realise this is very crucial and useful for a very good understanding of the whole topic.

4) He is just smart lah... even if i went through in detail of everything... i wouldnt have thought of the questions he asked... everytime he brings up a question, i will always go.. YAR HOR... why ah? He takes half the time i take to grasp the concept.

Studying in University is very different.. cannot reply on past year paper because the teacher changes questions... besides, the questions they ask are not similar to those from tutorials. They are not striaght forward! So... you have to REALLY have a good understanding of EVERYTHING jus to answer one question. Have to view it at every angle. Hai~~~ Yup. Hard work.

I've gone through 3 major papers already. And through God's grace and guidiance... i think i did relatively well!!! We'll see how it is all being penned out in the end. I've left one more paper to go. Will work hard at it again tml... coz tml brings forth a new day, a fresh start another beginning.

So many events have happened... too much to recall and put it down here... till next time when time allows me to and when circumstance requires me to enact what happened.... till then. *